yo peeps... an update before i go to sleep... first day of school's tmrw!!! YAY and RAWR!!! ironic thing is i hate that my nua days are over...on the other hand, happy that im able to start running cos it totally sucks when others started schooling and moved on but im still stuck at the same spot... but one big turn off bout school is that MY TIMETABLE SUCKS!!! seriously... haixx... but bo bian...
im so gonna work hard... so if someone spot me slackin off pls slap me in the face... HAHA!!! i really hope i can get my degree after four yrs... everything's planned out... if things go smoothly... i'll be out of s'pore after 4 or 5 yrs from now... i hope i'll be able to study other stuff abroad while working part time, its just a "maybe" most prolly not tho... i just love studying life, and its a dream of mine to study in a foreign art school... part time job is settled and i just gotta work hard with another thing other than school... that im not worried... cos im good~ WAHAHA!!! bhb much... so priority is school...
met a primary school friend of mine in Lasalle on orientation day... she asked what am i studying... i ans foundation visual arts and she was shocked... so she said "i though you're going into performing arts.. i rmbr u dance... isnt that your dream?" tho she didnt meant to offend or hurt me but yea it did... it hit me like a tidal wave, real hard... all i could managed was "people change..." and i felt real down for the rest of the day... was really a shitty day... my reply sounded that i wanted the change... but its so not true... this caused me to revisit my past hoping it'll inspire my future... but all i end up thinkin was " if i could go back in time, will i have the courage to let go of things i once treasured... will i make the same decisions i once made..." im not saying i regret my decisions... i just tot that having faced the consequences... and if i were to go back in time... i might not have the courage to do the same since i know what i've to face later... dance is one of them...
now, i really feel like transferring to PA... music theatre dance are all fine... parents have also given me the green light... doesnt make a diff if they did not anw :p but its really risky... if only i didnt give up... fate just gotta play with me after i lost almost all my dance skills by getting me into cchy which has this stupid rule saying "only dancers can have long hair..." i admit my initial intentions when i first went back to dance and joined dance for cca was to just keep my long hair... but i nvr regret it... cos i met Laoshi and many others... meeting them is one of the luckiest happenings in my life... even tho now i have to accept the ugly fact that there are stuff which i once could acheive but no longer can or try ... i seriously dun regret it... ive really tried having dance outa my life... but somehow i always go running back to it again... well... guess all i can do is to push myself harder den before eh? i know my limits... but i dislike and WILL NOT stick to them... HAHA
dance today was great! its been long since i went for laoshi's class... so nostalgic... guess its my last stress-free dance prac? since sch's starting... my priority will have to change from dance to sch... sad and it sucks but no matter what IM STILL DANCING!!! ^^
anw my president is from UK... did a check on him and wow! his education history blew me away... since he's from UK... the british accent~~~ keke^^ went orientation for less than 2hrs... but i didnt complain cos i learnt a valuable phrase from my president... he said " you artists are fundamentally dissatisfied with the present, yet optimitic about the future..." its actually really true... cos i would never be satisfied leading a mundane and rigid office lifestyle... and i know i could change or create something good... maybe its only me... but i feel that it applies in alot of things i chose to do... because of this phrase... i tot that travelling to and from sch for 4hrs while just staying there for less then 2hrs of orientation was worth it^^
kkaes shall upload a video which is long overdue... at least i added a video to this boring post right? watch~ keke^^
shindong is soooo cute!!! and black tanks!!! its the cherry on top or what? scratch that... more like cherries stacked on top keke^^
experience many first days of schools but i still cant get use to it... getting the jitters... wish me luck:) nitex...
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