♥It's V♥

drinking right on the night when i shud be free of all my woes... yet i have trouble sleeping... -_- after so many days of sleepless nights... yearning for sleep and all... what's this now?!? i think it's the quick nap in the afternoon right after my submission... not cos i slept, but cos i was scared awake by sweet dreams... for one with a bad memory, im surprised by how i could remember every explicit details of stuff from 3 to 5 years back... who would've known then that happy times would come back to haunt you in the future... close to 4 years... it should stop... frustrated and tired...

afraid to go back to sleep not cos of a nightmare but fearing i'll get sweet dreams instead... pfft... it's ridiculous... im ridiculous... a ridiculous idiot who can't get drunk... that's the most pathetic thing for a supposed lightweight... sucks to be me... maybe i do have a much greater body mass than i think -_- or maybe i should do it in another way and get some redbull mixed with cough syrup in my system... funny how i refused to do that when i was struggling with work day and night yet now thinking bout doing just that when i have absolutely nothing i should be staying awake for... -_-

pardon my sudden crap... i'll blog in normal form soon...