finally im here to blog~ it's been a long time eh? wanted to blog when sem ends... or on my bday next yr when i turn 18 :p strictly speakin, i've only one week of sch left... then self preparation for assessment... mine's on the 25nov... wish me luck!!!

honestly i can't rmbr all that i wanted to blog about :p i'll just rant whatever is on my mind then... pardon me...

well as many should noe... school has been crazy!!! sleepless nights are the worst!!! rushing deadlines... accomplishing works... then more deadlines... and more works... it's just never ending! and i heard that from next yr onwards... foundation yr is gonna be 2 yrs instead of 1 cos the workload is alot! and tt workshops should be of a longer time... even tho i wish workshops can have more time to churn out a good product be it a video clip or a photoshopped poster... im thankful that im the last batch for the 1 yr thing... it also means that i must nt fail and retain! if i were to... choy la! i will be doin foundation for 3 yrs... GOD!!! i wont fail!!! HAHA so yea... lots of sleepless nights... coke has once again became my good friend... so much for kicking the habit eh? but no matter what i thought the worst has gotta be travelling... 2 hrs to travel to sch is really no joke... not to mention the same duration back home... it's super tiring!!! how i wish i drive~ or there's someone to drive me to and fro :p i wish~ *smack myself in the face* stop dreaming V*

Even though sch's been crazy, it's still a hella fun!!! met amazing lecturers and even though there are some irritating ppl too... they're really not worth my time la~ :p but yea lecturers are awesome! especially when all of mine are part time... they're so cool~ one is even a professional ballroom dancer... he's always champion at dance sport event! cool or what?!? but i hate the subject he's teaching... 3d... always cause me sleepless nights doing all sorts of 3d shit! seriously shit!!! and i even got selected for an exhibition in acm -_- wonder how i did it... 3d's not my thing... he's a masters holder in interior design~ ballroom dancer doing interior... haha weird combi! young and has this "fanclub" by his fangirls who thinks he's hot -_- i don't really think so tho :p but anw he really pissed me off when we were randomly chatting why dancers tend to date dancers... his answer was that cos dancers have no life!!! it's only school and dance studio -_- even though ones i've dated in the past are dancers... but their from other crews damnit!!! the one without a life is you dude!!! HAHA!!! totally ticked him off in class~ bleh :p and adding on to this... he's really childish! his fangirls think it's cute... but i beg to differ... thus im not in the fanclub DUH! but i really appreciate it when he wrote this small note to me telling me to dance on! THX DUDE!

so anw since alot of sch work is about oneself... i come to realise that dance is like something im trying to grab onto dearly... cos i can strongly say that it's everything i ever have and without it... i wouldnt be me... there were stuff like, express yourself with 3 objects dearest to you... mine are all related to dance in some way or other... subconsciously, it's all linked to dance... and several works of mine have elements of dance... to the extent that my lecturers said it's a distinct style of mine... cool or what...

seriously, i can't imagine me without it... maybe in the future... but that thought of life without dance scares me... greatly...

to be honest... for the past two months... there has been a great prob with my back... whats new eh? but well some old ailments from 2008 came back to visit... not that it wasnt thr to start with... just that it was under control... like i still could suppress the pain... but recently the pain is so overpowering to the extent that i couldnt focus in the mid of a dance... which in turn makes me pissed of with myself, of course... and it's all on the left side of my body... the pain shoots up from my left foot to my left side of my back and at times to my neck... and it's not like my right is fine... it just hurts less... the norm la... FML big time!!! well of cos it hurts not only when dancing la... so dun even think bout asking me to give up dancing... whoever tells me that will get a dressing down from me!

miss the times when dancing is just about dancing... no restrictions no nothing... just about producing the ultimate desired outcome... no pain... just plain enjoyment... dancing with pain has been around since my sec sch years... no matter how long it has been around... i just can't grow accustom to it... neither do i grow accustom to how choreographers cater to what i can do... it sucks... im not blaming my choreographers... OMG DUH they are wonderful... it's me that im upset and angry about... maybe i just don't wanna admit to the fact that i can no longer dance like before no matter how hard i try... but i can't deny the fact that it really sucks seeing other young dancers doing stuff that i once could but no longer can...

Recently, i've really been pondering about what if i don't have any problem with my back or any other shit... will things be different? will what i wanna do in life differ? can i actually work towards the dream of joining the best ballet troop, playing the role of the ever graceful and beautiful odette that i always wished to be when i was a kid in lil ballet shoes and attire? will i be happier?

but rather than dwelling on WHAT IFS... which are totally useless given i can't turn back time neither prevent anything from happening... i can only treasure every second i have dancing... because i would never know when my most treasured would be taken away from me... no matter how reluctant i am to let go... i know someday it will... someday when either physically disallows me to or when my priorities change... but i know i'll always envy those who can keep dancing... it's definitely not easy... but i definitely admire and envy them...

speaking of envy... was at a friend's dance performance not long ago... saw this bunch of irritating dancers who were really full of themselves... yea they had the right to, given their healthy physics and great flexibility what crap... but i can't help but think that they don't deserve it!!! they were horsing around doing some dangerous shit that might injure themselves greatly... not to mention right before their performance... i can't believe how lightly they are treating their safety... it irritates me to the extent i feel like going over and give each one of them a tight slap! no self control or wateva to prevent themselves from getting injured before a perf is one thing... the most impt thing is how they don't realise they are fortunate to be given such great gifts! if only i had their body... i dun care if they suck at skill or not... if i were to wish for something... it will be to have a healthy body, one i once had... like how i always wish ppl to always stay healthy and happy eh? cos that's the most important thing in life to me... haixx these ignorant kids! RAWR!

another thing that saddens me today was how i realise i wouldnt be able to dance the last part of AHA perf... well even if i could pull it off somehow... no guy can work with me anw... well i know the risk... but yea... URGH! seriously want to try couple dance de... like how i really want to learn tango and rumba... haixx... should have done it when i was a lil girl :p TSK

just like how im thankful to that Laoshi and ZY is willing to "take me in" despite knowing my conditions... i really think that no other choreographers or organisation will dare to take me in knowing my conditions... maybe will after i sign and indemnity form or something... HAHA but well no matter how many times i try to tell myself to be satisfied that there's actually ppl who are willing to "take me in" i can't help but feel depress whenever a dance step has to be changed for my sake... or any restrictions for that matter... i wish i could apprehend the mindset of ppl who thinks the world revolves around them and live with the given attention and changes made for me, but i simply cant!!! i do not like special treatments and i believe that wateva it is, by hook or by crook, i will push myself and make it happen at the end... it just differs in the process. whether it's one which is easy for me to get through or one filled with pain, tears and frustration... two diff situations with two different outcomes... say im a masochist or wateva... but i choose the latter... so long as i produce the desired outcome... i don't mind how hard it will be... but i know all these are just unreasonable and naive thoughts...

and maybe i just wanna grab on to the tail of memories i had when i could do almost anything when it comes to dance... once again, how i wish, dance could be all just about dancing... and not about pain controlling... focusing on which part of my back and leg should i use less force as to reduce the pain but produce the same outcome and whatever crap... i'll give anything if dance could be just dance like how it used to be...

enuff of crappy thoughts... pardon me that i kept repeating all these... cos it really affects me alot no matter how hard i try to self deceive that im fine... and it's been clouding my mind today...

so, today! happy that we did precision dancing! was thinking why i like precision dancing so much... maybe it's to do with how i like unison footsteps and stuff... cos it's all about control and being PRECISE!!! duh -_- and i oso come to think that if my ballet and gym instructors were to see me dancing this... they would look at me in a diff light!!! HAHA who would have thought... the lil amateur ballerina then would evolve into this eh? too bad, i heard that they are now teaching overseas~ TSK!

and during practice today... i've got a new goal for myself... a goal that i wish to accomplish... well while looking at ZY cracking his brains, trying to come up with alternative dance steps that we could accomplish... i was wondering if he did try to make the steps easier to cater to our standards... well maybe yes maybe not... *you can tell me about it after you read this :p* so it struck me that my new goal is to reach the day when he does not need to worry about catering to our standards... the day when there isnt a need to crack his brains to come up with something easier... will be the day that we truly excel... im not trying to fan his ego yea? and i was really thinking about it at that moment of time... shared with Vian too... and her reply totally dampened my high spirits... she was like "yea... maybe in a thousand years time ba... -_-" thx arh -_- HAVE SOME FAITH WOMAN!!! HAHA!!! so yup... new goal added to my list of things to accomplish then... *pls do not tell me its pca or what crap, i'll ban you from reading my blog! or i'll just don't update :p HAHA!!! you noe i'm toking bout you~~~*

oh! i wanted to pick up ballet again, even though i know i will face many setbacks when faced with stuff that i once could do easily but now cant... i still wanna try again... to push my limit... but who would take me in?!? even if i were to hide my conditions... i can't hide it for long... it'll show anw... RAWR! vexed... sleepy... shall stop ranting here...

once again i feel that i should intro songs... and so i will~ intro songs than im listening to while blogging ba~ sad ones~ cos yea vexed right now...

introducing a male soloist that i really like... when it comes to sad ballads... Kwill!!! his voice is really really good!!! shall upload 2 songs of his that i really like!

his voice is just so sad but warm right? check out his other songs too yea? no time for me to do a full update :p

another song that i must intro~ by trax~

yup your eyes arent playing tricks on you... it's heechul from suju and victoria from f(x) in the mv~ they are all from sm.ent... so that explains~ i love the melody and lyrics of the song... i dun really fancy rock ballads... but this is an exception yea? maybe cos i like jungmo(the guitarist and genius who plays multiple instruments) from trax... keke^^ bias? maybe :p

ok then here's an extra clip of heechul singing the trax song above, for those who thinks heechul can't sing at all... well~ he's just not confident at times~ and he strains his throat voice alot... which explain why it's hoarse at times... but listen~ he can sing for sure!!! just nervous~ cos he's singing for his ideal girl- sohee of WG~ who happens to be there.. the one who can make mighty KIM HEECHUL all shy~ so cute!!!

and of cos... i just had to put in a few donghae clips to end my post nicely~ keke^^ *u guys may skip this part :p*

For those who don't get the game. Eunhyuk is suppose to sing a line of the song. Incoming callers will have to continue singing the right lyrics and the right tune... Donghae's suppose to give a dang when it's incorrect and a ding dong dang when it's right~ now watch~

Puahaha!!! Hae's epic fail with ding dong dang! didnt dang when he needed to, dang when ppl haven't even started singing and what's even more hilarious was when hyuk gave him the "out" hand gesture but he happily ding dong dang thinking the person got it right XD

HAE: "out? what's wrong? where? isnt it correct?" PUAHAHA!!! simply adorkable~~~ super adorable getting all happy and too excited because of the bell thingy... like a kid especially in that hairstyle!!! CUTE~ this is the real donghae!!! no wonder all his hyungs and dongsaengs love him! keke^^

oya! did i mention i bought the ss2 concert dvd? it's fabulous! love how Hae always dance like there's no tomorrow, as though it's the last dance, at the same time always holding onto the passion before he became a celebrity, how he always give every performance his all~ love him!!! keke^^

his self composed and choreo solo ^^

arh~ how can one be so charming?!? HAHA *pardon my fangirl moment*

personally other that this performance... i like the don't don performance the most... i thought it was a good interpretation~

even though it's not a black tank, Hae still does magic in white one~~~ *swoons* keke^^

kkaes~ that's all for today~ dunno when i'll update again but yea definitely sooner than the last wait~ keke^^ off to make a call to ZC, since i guess it's that workaholic's lunchbreak right now in LA... i need a wise old man to talk to~ HAHA he's gonna kill me if he sees this... fortunately, he dun read my blog :p he betta pick up my call!!! HAHA! nitex~

yo peeps... an update before i go to sleep... first day of school's tmrw!!! YAY and RAWR!!! ironic thing is i hate that my nua days are over...on the other hand, happy that im able to start running cos it totally sucks when others started schooling and moved on but im still stuck at the same spot... but one big turn off bout school is that MY TIMETABLE SUCKS!!! seriously... haixx... but bo bian...

im so gonna work hard... so if someone spot me slackin off pls slap me in the face... HAHA!!! i really hope i can get my degree after four yrs... everything's planned out... if things go smoothly... i'll be out of s'pore after 4 or 5 yrs from now... i hope i'll be able to study other stuff abroad while working part time, its just a "maybe" most prolly not tho... i just love studying life, and its a dream of mine to study in a foreign art school... part time job is settled and i just gotta work hard with another thing other than school... that im not worried... cos im good~ WAHAHA!!! bhb much... so priority is school...

met a primary school friend of mine in Lasalle on orientation day... she asked what am i studying... i ans foundation visual arts and she was shocked... so she said "i though you're going into performing arts.. i rmbr u dance... isnt that your dream?" tho she didnt meant to offend or hurt me but yea it did... it hit me like a tidal wave, real hard... all i could managed was "people change..." and i felt real down for the rest of the day... was really a shitty day... my reply sounded that i wanted the change... but its so not true... this caused me to revisit my past hoping it'll inspire my future... but all i end up thinkin was " if i could go back in time, will i have the courage to let go of things i once treasured... will i make the same decisions i once made..." im not saying i regret my decisions... i just tot that having faced the consequences... and if i were to go back in time... i might not have the courage to do the same since i know what i've to face later... dance is one of them...

now, i really feel like transferring to PA... music theatre dance are all fine... parents have also given me the green light... doesnt make a diff if they did not anw :p but its really risky... if only i didnt give up... fate just gotta play with me after i lost almost all my dance skills by getting me into cchy which has this stupid rule saying "only dancers can have long hair..." i admit my initial intentions when i first went back to dance and joined dance for cca was to just keep my long hair... but i nvr regret it... cos i met Laoshi and many others... meeting them is one of the luckiest happenings in my life... even tho now i have to accept the ugly fact that there are stuff which i once could acheive but no longer can or try ... i seriously dun regret it... ive really tried having dance outa my life... but somehow i always go running back to it again... well... guess all i can do is to push myself harder den before eh? i know my limits... but i dislike and WILL NOT stick to them... HAHA

dance today was great! its been long since i went for laoshi's class... so nostalgic... guess its my last stress-free dance prac? since sch's starting... my priority will have to change from dance to sch... sad and it sucks but no matter what IM STILL DANCING!!! ^^

anw my president is from UK... did a check on him and wow! his education history blew me away... since he's from UK... the british accent~~~ keke^^ went orientation for less than 2hrs... but i didnt complain cos i learnt a valuable phrase from my president... he said " you artists are fundamentally dissatisfied with the present, yet optimitic about the future..." its actually really true... cos i would never be satisfied leading a mundane and rigid office lifestyle... and i know i could change or create something good... maybe its only me... but i feel that it applies in alot of things i chose to do... because of this phrase... i tot that travelling to and from sch for 4hrs while just staying there for less then 2hrs of orientation was worth it^^

kkaes shall upload a video which is long overdue... at least i added a video to this boring post right? watch~ keke^^


shindong is soooo cute!!! and black tanks!!! its the cherry on top or what? scratch that... more like cherries stacked on top keke^^

experience many first days of schools but i still cant get use to it... getting the jitters... wish me luck:) nitex...

credits: tnkl94

xoxo

yo peeps! here to update!!! keke^^ its gonna be a long post i guess... cos i'll be uploading pics:) so mafan~ lolx... so anw first thing's first... SUJU's no other mv is out!!! it's out since wed... the mv is mad cute!!! donghae is uber cute in it... practicing how to present the rose... keke^^ love eunhyuk's hair and wow! he's one hella attraction in this mv... keke^^ now watch!



ARH! my donghae's so cute!!! WAHAHA!!! i believed i posted the perf of this song on mubank last week... so i'll be posting up the perf from music core, inkigayo and today's music bank...



music core~ well jeans, light blue and sailor are the trends for this year's fashion... especially in summer and autumn... so that explains their stage clothes... and i have to say! donghae looks so hot!!! HAHA well seriously who can look that hot in just a white t and jeans? HIM!!! lolx... but i have to admit... it's a TIGHT top... keke^^



inkigayo~ school look... neat! its been awhile since their last matching clothes perf...

for today's music bank they did an interview before the perf... here goes~





aww~ teuk's "kang-in ah bogoshipeo" meaning kangin-ah i miss you... kangin's in the army now :( it was so sad... i read all the articles and watched all the vids of him leaving for army... suju went to see him off... they appeared like a gang of mafia... lolx walking in a big group... all spaced out... as if in a mv shooting... it was real heartbreaking when they were talking and kangin broke down... he kneeled to greet his fans before leaving... super sad... shant post the stuff up here... super sad la...

so anw back to happy stuff... if you guys are observant... you'll be able to see that there are many cute interactions between the members during all of their perf of no other... like hitting of ppls' butts... take today's for example... hae and hyuk hit kyu's when he was singing... den hyuk hit sungmin's when yesung is singing... den there's mischievous hae who PUNCHED hyuk's TWICE... HAHA!!! love the perf of no other!!! daebak!!! and it seems like most ppl think so too... why? cos they won 1st on mubank today!!! no other 1st win!!! keke^^



축하 해요!!! o! i seriously love the cameraman for today's mubank... he did so many closeups... and during encore the closeups on donghae!!!

another thing that caught my attention on mubank today was Son Dambi's comeback... bringing "can't you see" and "queen"... i like cant you see perf... the choreo is great and i like the song!!!



ppl were commenting that she hardly sings in this perf... LIKE DUH!!! with that kinda dancing you expect her to sing? even ppl with great vocals cant do it yea? so if you cant, just shaddup, don't watch and GET A LIFE!!! can't stand it...

i'll just put up the perf of "queen" too... cutesy... i prefer "cant you see" ^^



random note~ love her shorts... look like mine... but i only have 1 grey and 1 black... none of that shade... RAWR!!! so that's the main points of this post before i forget...

now on to wut sup in my life recently... right now im at my grandma's house in my uncle's room... i've been staying here since wed? and i'll be back home tmrw... my uncle's on a business trip to china till sunday... so i thought i'll come over to keep my grandma company... i once lived here when i was younger... she takes care of me when my parents were too busy to... she's 81 this year ^^ relatively healthy^^ last year, for her 80th birthday... i was in charge of some stuff which got me real busy and tired cos it happened to be near the o's... not that im busy studying or wat :p just that the tests and workload is ALOT!!! i have to deal with some dua pai ppl cos there's two celebration days... one for relatives and family friends and another for business partners and friends... even tho it was kinda stressful for me and i totally hate formal events... i hope i can get involved for the 90th birthday bash too!!! so grandma, stay healthy yea!!! ^^

ytd i had to run errands here there... travelled and tapped my card for more den 10 times... managed to head back home to take a look of the progression... went back to my grandma's house to pass her some stuff, back home cos i wanted to see them putting up the ceiling, curious ma :p and head back to my grandma's house... thats the schedule from 5 to 9 in the evening only... 2 buses and 1 mrt to and fro both houses... i shant even mention the morning and afternoon one... up and about since 7 in the morning is no joke!!!

so now my house is finally looking decent... the floor is done and the partition's up... ceiling in the living is up too... its real funny cos when i went back home to watch them put up the ceiling... they were eating and was gonna call it a day... they did the partitions and plastering for the whole day... tiring enough le... but dad was like " eh she came back just to see you guys put up the ceiling neh" in hokkien... den one goofy guy said to me in chinese "i know you wanna watch so we took a break and waited for you to come back... haixx now v stress neh..." lolx! so i stood there and looked... apparently they had to measure the whole ceiling to see whr they should place the metal bars... oya! i have to say the contractor for the building is a total asshole... my whole house is wai wai de... the floor wai... ceiling wai... wall also wai... WTH LO!!! screw you!!! you know what... i bet you've closed down and is no longer in this industry!!! BLEH :P so anw back to what i was saying... after measuring with the laser thingy which shoots around the room *cool or wat?* dey put up the bars... which looks like this...





after that's done... the ceiling boards have to be up... this is what i've been waiting for!!! keke^^ dad's once in charge of all this stuff... he studies all this... yea i noe he's now a taxi driver... but that's because he wants to for fun -_- just like my mum... O! side track... mum got the job, the one i pei-ed her to the interview... i wonder how long is she gonna stick to it again this time... fingers crossed... so anw... dad says that they'll use their head to ding zhu and den drill it onto the metal bar... i laughed and doubted him, saying that isnt there a more professional way to do it that doesnt make you look stupid? and he said no and its the fastest way so... and indeed...

see! cute right? haha... the one in black is the goofy one... he was asking me not to take the pic cos he shy... pft! yea right... so i said at least i din take a vid right? i would've recorded what you've said... HAHA the other guy was more serious but he said to me that, in his many working years never had he seen a teenage girl observing them working... told him im unique and he said yea... keke^^ he was sweating like crazy till i could see his tattoo tru his shirt on his back so i asked "uncle you got ang gong arh?" den he was like "aiyo how you know? yea dun mess with me i very fierce one" lolx den i pick up the screw gun, pointed at him and said "let's see who's the fierce one" he raised his two hands as if in surrender which cracked everyone up... lolx well i use to hang at the sites my dad works at, so im quite comfortable with being around all this... anw the original ceiling to my house is already low... but to conceal the wirings and stuff, we have to do this... well our whole family's short... so it doesnt really affect us keke^^ see that door on the left of the pic? its the door to my room:) yea first door when entering my house... it gives me alot of privacy since my door will always be close and the other doors to my bro and parents' room is further in... the down side is that if i have to call for help... i would have to phone my mum... dey wouldnt hear me cos my walls are sound proof... and my door's far from theirs... o well...

my door... to my room... yea i noe there's another door in the wall in my room... thats the original door to my room, its gonna be closed... was wondering if i should remain that door so that my room and my bro's will be linked... but nah! keke^^ i mentioned the extention i did to my room... and that its gonna be my wardrobe right? so here it is...

dad promised me a total of 60cm extension... but does this look like 60cm to you? NO!!! ARH!! wateva la~ at least there's an extension... i shant create a big wuha...

right now, my house is still in a big mess :(

but its all part of the process... things are only gonna change for the better ^^ anw... see that spongey looking thing on the floor as well as the one wrapped up in red white? thats the foam thingy to be placed in between the walls to make it sound proof ^^ oya! are you guys able to spot the floor? its the new flooring o! wood~ my fav... of all the last houses i lived in... there's tiles, carpet and my dad ultimate fav... marbles but not wood! so this time i chose wood and my bro chose the colour... i prefer a darker tone... but this is fine too:) the floor's dirty now cos their still working but it beats the previous one that ive mentioned in my earlier post before...

why is this like rotated portrait... its suppose to be landscape... arh watever... and if this is not clear enough...

friggin hideous and disgusting pos!!! shant comment again on it... just glad that's gone forever!!! WAHAHA!!! and about that wall i wanted to lay my hands on personally? mum wun allow!!! she said i would break my hand first den breaking the wall... and that i would have a asthma attack from all the dust and what not... so i din hack the wall myself... but i just have to at least take a pic ^^ mum was furious... but she cant do anything :p

cool eh? so anw thats it on my house... up till ytd... im going back tmrw to check on them before heading out^^

my room's gonna be purple and black... dark tone... its gonna be like a mini movie theatre.. WAHAHA i know that hot pink and black looks nicer... but im sick of pink walls... my last room was pink... so i thought i should do purple and black or earthy colours... and i come down to purple and black :) hope it looks good :) if nt i cn just paint it again ^^

now for some random pics i took recently... at breadtalk and i spot some cute bread... i bet ppl were looking at me funny when they saw someone taking pics of bread instead of buying... well mum's the one buying... im just waiting... might as well mah...



its called smart aleck hao xiao zi... WAHAHA!!! why? lolx dun get it...





at least this makes sense... but LOL at the description... who the hell bothers to read all this when buying bread? o wait... ME! -_-


ahh~ so cute!!! apparently there were loads of them and theres even a display... wonder why? is there some thing called a creative bread day? lolx!!!




yea i noe this pics are rotated portrait again... tried many times to rotate it but cant... so i guess u guys just gotta turn your head for abit... ridiculous but do it! keke^^

ive always loved lollipops ^^ not to mention going goo goo gah gah over gigantic ones... but just not this one... *childish mum tried to distract me by putting her head next to the lollipop when i was taking the pics... camwhore much?!? still dare to ^^Y me neh!!!*







i just dun like doraemon... it kinda freaks me... like how he use to be yellow and have ears... but some rat or wateva ate his ears and he was depress and became blue? WTH you've got depression!!! go to a psychiatrist and fix your depression dude! i know its weird to imagine ppl turning blue when they are depressed... but think bout it... ppl with depression would just turn to avatar... FREAKY!!! so yea~

yup im done for the day!!! blogged for real long cos of these pics!!! oya! i got a blackberry 9700 as said! while on skype, my status was like "i love my bb" and immediately some ppl were like "OMG you finally got a boyfriend after 4yrs?" i even got a voice chat call from ppl overseas asking me bout it... FYI its BlackBerry... for goodness sake... do i look like someone who calls my bf "bb"? -_- HUH!!! TELL ME!!! RAWR!!! lolx... bb=/= baby... diff!!!

this year i really got alot of stuff that i wanted... like macbook, check... lollipop phone, check... blackberry, check... now its time for my intuos 4... ordering soon :)

gotta wake up early tmrw :( nitex peeps~

ps: i miss my Lucky boy!!! he's at a friend's house cos of the renovation going on at mine... he cried when he saw ppl hacking down the wall... so for his own good he has to stay at a friend's for now... I MISS MY BABY BOY!!! WAH!!!

credits: sment, mrgoldenfishman4, sujuforlife, UnknownCarrot120

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yo peeps... had a bad day~ RAWR! my mum's having an interview today... yea she quit her job again not long ago... and is going for ANOTHER job again~ haixx i dun even noe what she work as anymore... she changes too fast for me to catch up... told her i'll accompany her... weird eh? daughter accompany mother go interview... so yea its at valley point *where the hell is that* and i asked my mum hw are we getting there... she said to take the mrt to orchard and board a bus at the bus stop behind wisma... and i THOT she knew...

when we got to that busstop there isnt the bus that she was supposed to take... i pointed to another busstop at the other side of the road and she says that shes positive that wasnt it and said we should walk further down... so off we went... braving through the thunder storm and leaping across deep puddles of water... reached another bus stop but still dun have that friggin bus... 30 mins left till the interview time... so decided to cab there... went to the taxi stand at taka... and MY! the queue is friggin long and theres a jam there... queued for 20 mins and we gave up... mum called the HR and the HR gave her the directions... so walked into taka and to wisma and out again... mum keep telling me to walk further down... and i pointed to the bus stop again, the same one as i did earlier... but she kept telling me its not that... no matter how much i insisted to at least go over and take a look... so we walked and walked and walked... the place getting from city to ulu... WTH lo seriously... and it was still pouring!!! both of us got lost and decided to ask a passer by... passer by gave us some ridiculous directions and even asked if we're foreigners while looking at me... mad embarrassing!!!

after that mum called the HR again and started walking back to where we came from... but this time, she decided to walk on grounds not fit for humans... its like mud and bushes and what not... it was so slippery and muddy cos of the storm... every step i take i was like "omg, omg! OMG!!!" i was so traumatized and pissed that i started walking on the road instead... it occurred to me that walking on the road seems safer then on the muddy ground where i might slip and fall and die... lolx exaggerating but yea it was really real bad!!! in the end we saw the friggin bus!!! have to run after it and guess what... it stopped at THE BUS STOP I POINTED AT!!! -_- board the bus and i was fuming... not to mention cold... even with an umbrella, i was drenched from top to bottom... mum was like "at least we managed to find it right?" and smiled... i snapped "don't talk to me! im like seriously pissed off!!! why cant you just trust my intuition in the first place!!! no wait! why did i trust yours?!? OMG!!!"

took me quite a while to calm down... finally reached valley point after 1.5 hr in the rain looking for the stupid bus stop... fortunately theres a starbucks... immediately head there to get a drink to calm my nerves... i was friggin traumatized... and mum was half an hr late for her interview... i swear i was so close to tears at starbucks... i could have been at home watching suju on musicbank bringing their newest song "no other" live... and to add on to this friggin pos... peeps have to piss me off today... its not like one only, but a few... RAWR!!!

i totally have to say this... i seriously cant stand ppl who are angry bout something but geng that their not... seriously why cant you just tell me you are angry or upset... it takes like only a sec? and you rather want me to like guess for hours? what good does it do to keep mum bout it or beat round the bush... isnt it simpler to say it out and solve the prob?!? RAWR!!! well face it! dun expect me to try reading your minds every single sec of the day and im seriously not the kind where i'll guess what you're trying to hide just for me to find out myself... if you dun like me being so straight forward den TOO BAD!!! urgh... totally dun understand... isnt it a serious waste of time to beat round the whole bush... and when i dun sense your moodswings, you get even more upset... ironic much?!? RAWR!!! shall stop ranting... its like waiting for some cash to fall from the sky... USELESS AND DISAPPOINTING!!!

even tho today sum up as a bad day... i managed to have xiao long pau for dinner^^ that alone is enough:) homed and i watched suju's perf... now watch...

such a happy and cute performance! real lighthearted... brings a smile to my face after a hard day:) eeteuk seems really really happy eh? kept smiling... still not over the bday mood i guess keke^^ the stage looks small tho... haha!!! donghae looking great in these clothes and he looks uber cute!!! and i have to say! i love siwon's new haircut and he looks great in those simple clothings too!!!

shall stop for today~ peace out~

ps: oya! i think theres something wrong with my leg... super painful~ arh! wateva!!! i shall do something bout it if it worsens...

pps: blackberry black or white? hmm... *its not a stupid qns kkaes^^*

credits: UnknownCarrot120

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yo peeps! its been awhile and its been crazy recently... real busy going round town, here there everywhere... well whats new eh? theres so much things happening and that i wanna blog bout but i couldnt find time to jot it down... a time when im free and most importantly AWAKE... haha... so ive forgotten almost all of the happenings... or maybe im just reluctant to blog cos i want the pics of donghae in black tank to always be in the first post keke^^

seems like im super exhausted but not breaking down... when there's time, like after i come home, i'll fall asleep real soon... if not i'll be up doing some stuff... its real annoying... and its not that i cn slp well... been sleeping and waking up every 2 hours and having weird dreams... headaches every single day... its really annoying me till no end... guess the day when my house is fully renovated and everything is done, would be the day i'll be able to regain my peaceful sleep without dreams... but by then i'll have to worry bout starting sch... RAWR fml...

so anw im not going to fuss bout my house anymore... learning to appreciate it... and maybe i can get the contractor to let me help hacking down the wall to my room as a method of relieving stress... HAHA violent much... so anyway like what i predicted... two weeks for approval and what not... they'll be starting the renovation on monday... monday hacking... tues wiring... wed flooring... this is the schedule the contractor gave me... told him i want the full schedule... cos no dragging is allowed... efficiency is so important! HAHA working for me is HARD WORK! too bad... you suay la!!! keke^^ was also pressing him to search for diff contractors to do diff stuff at the same time... so things can finish faster... he stared at me like i was nuts but in the end he managed to do it... SEE! if i dun push? you would have thought its impossible!!! bleh :p

oya! theres alot of good food near my house... im like surrounded by diff hawker centres and market... its kinda cool... used to love eating hawker food when i was following my dad around when i was younger... but as i grew up... i tend to settle for fast food cos their FAST like DUH and theres aircon... and now im learning to appreciate hawker food once again~ theres like pineapple rice... seafood soup... braised pig trotters *yet to find vinegar pig trotters tho*... lots and lots of yummy malay food! and many others... haha... o! there's this store that's called UNCLE PANCAKE... haha so cute... its the kind of chinese pancake with the nuts inside? i hardly see a pancake store with a huge headboard... and you could have 1, 2 or 3 types of fillings in 1 pancake... cool eh? taste good or not i dunno... i only eat the peanut ones^^ its good~ arh talking bout food makes me hungry~~~

today i went out for lunch when there was this thunder storm on going... two strokes of lightning strike in the carpark beside where i was... freaked the hell out of me... mum and I was like hanging onto each other for dear life... HAHA and for dinner i went out again~ bus-ed there and bus-ed back... bus-ing back was horrifying... not to mention there were alot of foreign workers boarding that bus... but you noe whats even more frightening then being on board with a bunch of foreign workers and being the only female? not knowing where to alight and HAVING NIGHT BLINDNESS! i totally couldnt see where i was... cos it was too dark... so instead of fearing being the only girl on board with loads of foreign workers... i feared not being able to get home on a single bus trip... just think bout it... if i were to end up at the woodlands interchange... i'll look damn stupid cos i'll need to take another bus back home when i did pass my house on the first trip... luckily theres the SPC near my house... so immediately alight when i saw the SPC... smart or wat? HAHA!!!

funny thing happen... i alighted at the bus stop opp my house and theres like this underpass for me to cross the road... but my parents were like asking me not to walk the underpass cos its late and ulu... weird eh... if something bad's gonna happen... it would happen anywhere anytime... but din argue with them so i took the long way to the traffic light -_- dad reckoned he should come down to pick me... but i end up reaching home without seeing him... and i seriously think that my dad shouldnt be living in the 21st century... he doesnt bring his phone along wherever he goes... irritatin much? so my mum went down to look for him instead... soon dad came home without mum... lolx... luckily my mum carried her phone... phoned her to come up and quickly skipped to the bathroom to bathe... to avoid my mum nagging at my dad bout the phone thingy.. lolx picking me up? pfffttt yea rite~ -_-

now for the main point of this lengthy post... its 1st july!!! taeyang's new solo album is out!!! his title song mv was out today and he's on today's mnet countdown... now watch...

title song: i need a girl ft.Gdragon (dara in mv)

guess all the male idols are going for the "unleash my sex appeal" thingy eh? lolx lucky no black tank ^.~ white tank just have no effect on me keke^^ 2ne1's dara is so pretty and cute! despite her age... baby face indeed... told my friend after i watched the mv... her first reaction was "WOAH! taeyang despo much?!?" lolx cracked me up!

next is his perf for today... only thing i can say is that... whats wif his vocals? maybe he's sick... def not the best perf... brought 3 songs... i need a girl... just a feeling and you're my... vocals for you're my is just -_-



GD's looking hella cute! charismatic leader indeed! bias? maybe keke^^



i tot that this song should be the title song instead...



vocals really -_- rite? offtune here there... tempo -_- well maybe its a bad cold... real bad one... got hold of all his songs... will update if i find anything interesting after i hear the whole album^^

to my surprise, today on mnet countdown, not only there's taeyang's comeback, but also a perf by kattun!!! jpop into the K industry!!! seems like they're holding a concert in korea... without jin i guess... sad... brought d-motion and there's a backstage interview of them... kattun speaking korean and minhyuk of cnblue speaking jap is simply adorable!!!



KAME!!! haha fangirl much? love kame!!! jpop its like that isnt it? its like they don't dance to their fullest but still charismatic... just taking of his glasses is enuff for fangirls to faint on the spot... HAHA it would be perfect if only jin's here...



nakamaru and his mumbling... HAHA! how to stop him from mumbling? put him somewhere high up and he will start screaming out loud!!! keke^^ like this...

WAHAHA!!! this vid never fails to crack me up!!! HAHA!!! sidetracked~

oya! i forgot to blog bout the additional songs in suju's repackage album... 4 additional songs... they stopped promoting bonamana... last week was their goodbye stage... and tmrw they'll be bringing "no other" ... listen~



sounds oschool? dun ya think? looking for forward to their perf... wonder how they'll present it... the other 3 songs...

a short journey...


composed by DONGHAE!!! and lyrics by eunhyuk... there's a story behind this... as all can hear... kangin sang most of the song... kangin is scheduled to go for army on 5th july... donghae composed this and both him and eunhyuk quarreled with the company cos they wanted kangin to sing... as all know... kangin was "freezed" by SM due to the mistakes he made... decided to enlist for army early so that he could come back, start over faster... SM didnt agree to letting him sing... but donghae and eunhyuk quarreled on saying that its THEIR song and that they should have a say on who should sing it... finally, they managed to get kangin to participate~ ^^ the song brought many ELFs to tears...

i have to say this... donghae's rap is *swoons* keke^^

all my heart...


this is by eeteuk and sjm's henry:) teukie's dream come true since pre-debut days... gratx!

shake it up remix


its a remix of the song shake it up in the album... remix by one way chance and donghae:) oneway luv!!! HAHA

long entry~ shall end of here... oya! visited the universal studio last fri... will post pics up when im free:)

and its eeteuk's birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

정수오빠 생일축하합니다!!! ^^

credits: Bigshineebeast, BigBangSHINeeWorldSK, Sujuism01, TheMinhoAddiction, saranghaeSUJU11, nisha021737

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