Hey... random time to blog... im busy as hell... sick... stress... and just plain upset... here to rant... just woke up from my sleep... im on 2 days mc as of yesterday and im nt schoolin tmrw... well if i am, the doc would hv given me 3days to last me the whole week...

so yup, that means that i only went to school on tues, and well i went to the last class on wed after the doc's despite having an mc for it... cnt miss that... was having super bad cramps on tues... worst in ages... im totally proud of myself for surviving the whole of tuesday despite many prompts by lecturers to head home... guess it's cos i totally paled out and looked like im from twilight, just without the sparkles... then the embarrassing part came... i fainted when i got home... i totally reached home, open the door of my room, put down my bag and BAM! out i go like a light.. kinda hit my head real hard and there was like a bump on wed... -_- feel so stupid, the bed was so near goddamnit... it's been years since i pass out due to the cramps... pathetic much... parents freaked out... fortunately they manage to get me awake before deciding if i needed the ambulance... of cos me being me insisted that i was fine... how i manage to persuade them was beyond me... cos duh~ of cos i wasnt fine i just passed the !@#$%^$ out... lolx so yup, my pathetic ending to tuesday... wed and thurs passed in a blur... mixture of pain sleep and work... im kinda behind on some work cos i've been resting... haixx stress...

the stress is so intense that i seriously just wan a life remote with a pause button, better yet, a stop button... no im nt suicidal, dun worry... i just havent find the reason to press play willingly... and the fact that deadlines are lying everywhere in the next 3 weeks aint hlping at all... i woke up just half and hour ago and went into the living room to sit with my dad... he kept asking me to go back to sleep, and said that i shouldnt work so hard.. -_- yes my dad really did say that... he said he'd seen me work like crazy and warned me bout ageing too fast cos i was working myself out... as in appearance wise -_- out of everything, he cared more bout my outer appearance... lolx... seriously daddy? i think the pressing matter should be health instead, no? and besides, i've already aged past what i am on the inside, does it matter if i do on the outside? lolx... so anw i just shrug it off and urge him to go to bed... leaving myself to sit with my dog in the living room, having my own emo moment before i come in to blog... that's my life for the past week... lolx sad eh?

autumn... the time when all upsetting thoughts come streaming back... it sucks... it's like i dun even have a choice... only time when im not is when im working and dancing... lolx now i sound stupid like some emo person resorting to working themselves out to relief pain... dun worry, im good...

humans are always bent on getting something that they can never achieve... what's even more heart wrenching is that it was so close, i was given a choice, and i made a stupid decision... despite the still ever ongoing torturous and agonizing after effect, i dun regret it... more like i can't regret it... Clo always say that i've had life experience backwards... things that i shouldnt have come across at my age... and i always jokingly countered back by saying "at least i din get knocked up or something, that would then really be living it backwards..." and she'll always give me the death glare... HAHA... well i was just pulling her leg, and of cos i get her, cos everythings at a wrong timeframe... but at least my choice set things straight... and well through that, it kinda set my life straight... nt that it is damn straight now... just much straighter then what it used to be when i was going through a rebellious stage... HAH! toking as if i aint now... let's just imagine, i was much worst before... much worst... and it came damn early for me :p im a mess... i think i've said this countless times in my blog... i aint proud of the choices i made when i was at a much stupid naive and gullible age... but i've never regretted, cos despite every stupid thing i did, i still had my personal rules and lines i will not cross... i just pushed boundaries :p HAHA! and besides, if nt for it, i wouldnt have met clo and gang... they're like the best thing that happened to me in the shittiest circumstances XD yes Ry, now's the time to comment bout how great you are and blah -_- oh and anw! you are such an influence on kiddo! did you see him dance to moves like jaggers when i was there? shit! you're turning him into you, you manwhore! HAHA!!! where did he learn to dance like that?!? he's still a kid RY!!! XD he's gonna flip when he sees this... but nothing i cnt handle~ kekeke... and anw, where in the world were you after all the dancing when you were suppose to "watch out for me" as quoted by Clo huh? if it's whoring around and getting your game on with some club chick then just forget that i asked, i do not need details, thankyouverymuch~ XD anw, i dun think i got to say this before you disappeared the other day... thanks for sticking up for me when well the dave thingy was brought up by those jerks... kiddo too, well he had his fun by handing it to them and winning those cash cos of it... so i guess that's his reward... HAHA! i miss you guys...

totally sidetracked...

so... about humans wanting what they could not have.. can you blame me for being human?

i missed having beardpapa custard puffs delivered to me at times like this...

Like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it...

Hey peeps~ long time no blog... HAHA where in the world did that come from :p term submission's over, just A TERM! and im like half dead... haixx... so yup here to blog, cos i've def missed out on alot of stuff and im free now... wanted to blog bout suju's perf but suan le la~ u guys can go search for it yourselves if u want to :p there are also alot of photos that i'd love to share, be it artsy kind or just plain camwhoring kind... scratch that... camwhoring sounds crude... shud say selca *fyi: self cam* but all you bloggers out there would noe that uploading pictures in posts can be a *$#$%^& especially if taken from a dslr when the file size is damn huge! tried couple of times, failed and gave up... so yup, dun really noe bout pics hosting sites and how they work... if any of you out there reading this know anything, please comment and tell me! otherwise, no pics!!! HAHA no la... well i've got tumblr, but havent been using... so i might just upload it onto tumblr instead ^^ then that comes to another qns... shud i just close this blog down and switch to tumblr? hmm... dilemma... oh well... we'll see...

so anw for this blog post, i'll just be intro-ing some songs that i've been listening to recently ^^ aint new... just what im into right this moment...

first up! emo song! Love Pain by Hwanhee

Always a fan of fly to the sky, and i've never been a supporter of their solo works but this is amazing! came across while watching mubank... was waiting for suju's perf, and then hwanhee came on with this song and it blew me away... the guy in the mv is his cousin lee jang woo... cute guy :p but hate his hair now, use to be cuter :p love pain's the eng title, but the korean's trans would be "feels like im dying" hence the lyrics are really emo and sad... You guy shud prolly watch the live perf too... cos normally i'll imagine ballad perf like this to be just the singer sole standing and singing... but for this, there were backup dancers in the background... not bad~ and if i din rmbr rongly, one of the dancers quite cute :p HAHA!!!

Since i mentioned fly to the sky, shud intro another singer who is from some time back...

I Have A Lover by Seo In Young

Love Seo In Young's voice! and if you watch her on variety, she's damn hilarious! great personality, v real! this song is an oldies remake... originally by Lee Eun Mi... there are alot of versions out there... but i think Seo In Young's the best! oldies have the best lyrics... simple yet beautiful... oh! donghae and kry covered this song before too! shall put it up as well :p



enough bout emo korean songs... lolx seriously, every year at this time i'll always lean towards ballads... it's the autumn vibes!

next up Hocus Pocus by 2lson

attracted to this song 'cos it's R&B!!! Like duh! my fav music genre! it's some new unknown group? lolx is it even a group? i dunno what to call it... apparently, 2LSON consists of an 18 year old vocalist Hyo Bin, music composers LE and Jason and lyricist Noel... AND! the composers of the group are Berklee College of Music graduates... lolx that's cool for me la, dunno if it is to you guys or not :p

next song aint a recommendation but i just wanna comment on it...

Top Girl by Gna

gna can do so much better... seriously! i'll back off so you can live better is great! she should continue along that line... yet she's coming out with such genre's that the kpop world's already filled to the brim with? haixx... and one funny news that i came across on her some time back was that she's endorsing lingerie... no biggie since it's a fact she has a great bod... the funny bit is that... source reported "Singer G.NA shows off a shocking transformation through a lingerie photoshoot.
Recently, G.NA was chosen as the model for lingerie brand, Lefee. Through the photoshoot, G.NA was able to show off a different side of her attractiveness." LOLX!!! Seriously?!? What different side? It's still the same side what, her boobs -_- and to top it off, the pictures were bad! what's up with the photographer? cheap shot and badly photoshopped... cheap as in not slutty cheap... but as in amateur cheap... if you guys want the pics, you can view it here...
http://www.allkpop.com/2011/08/g-na-poses-for-lingerie-brand-lefee
i refuse to contaminate my blog with such garbage :p

this is for ZY! told you bout an old song of BoA that i really like right? here you go~
Goodbye by BoA

i want the old BoA back!!! :'(

i've only been listening to one chinese song recently, and it's old...

Ai Cuo by Wang Lee Hom

Where in the world is he now?!? COME BACK!!! and with such music!!! no more chinked -out blah blah please~ keke^^

seems like im more into eng songs recently...

first up Broken Strings by James Morrison ft Nelly Furtado

great song since 2009!!! underrated singer... his voice's really unique! great duet! i was playing this song in class, and then most of my classmates started singing! and it was a duet competition! HAHA cool rite my class~

What if by Colbie Cailat

Another underrated singer! How can taylor swift be sucha big thing and yet not her? ppl! wake up!!! HAHA!!! always been looking out for her songs... heard this in the movie Letters to Juliet, and've been searching ever since... even cut it out from the movie and edit it myself since it aint out... just out like a mnth ago? HAPPY!!! ^^ and a phrase from the movie that i really love " 'What' and 'if' are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life" so true...

Take Your Sweet Time by Jesse McCartney

Still rmbr my room when i was in pri school, i had jesse mccartney's posters all over my wall! HAHA!!! it was indeed a sight... even though some peeps keep telling me how gay he seemed and what not, i still love him and his music :p rmbred the first song i put up on my blog was his "because you live" it's been so long... anw this vid's kinda cut off at the back... but i just wanna put it up cos i love the pics! and seriously! Logan really look like him!!! cept for the baby fats and build wise... HAHA! that's why we got tgt?!? lolx jk jk... he's gonna kill me if he sees this... he really hated me saying that... oh right! you're one of the ones who said jesse mccartney's gay... RAWR!

Why Would I Ever by Sam Watter

can't believe i never intro this song before... was going through my hard disk some time back, dug up all the songs i had... that explains all the old song recommendations... unknown singer but great song... proud of my music collection ^^

What Are Words by Chris Medina

AMAZING SONG!!! seriously!!! simple yet beautiful~ great melody, great voice, great lyrics!
how i came across this songs really weird... occasionally i'll just search for tdotcproduction's stuff... has always listen to their beat be it for dance or just for hearing sake... and i came across they're version of the song... which is covered by alot of people out there who remix and what not... and came by illmaticc's version... HAHA confusing right... i'll just post it up...

well it's a rough remix, not well done... but i like the beats... different feel to the original... the rap and mixing's by illmaticc while the voice remix is by tdotcproductions... maybe i should post a tdot production too... this is one of my fav

check out their stuff! some are really neat... some are... HAHA! no one's perfect right? :p

so anw, been to m'sia awhile back... super impromptu... cos i was in a hella foul mood... so i just wanna meet up with my crazy peeps and let loose... maybe i'll blog bout the whole trip in another post, maybe not... cos there's lots of content to sift out.. HAHA! like i said, i was with my crazy peeps and it was a crazy night... so anw, why i brought this up was cos the trip got me stuck onto 2 songs...

first up... So Cold by Chris Brown

Went to Chase's cos heard the boys were with him... and when i arrive they were having dance prac... they showed me what they've been up to and it's to this song! they were awesome!!! lolx as much as i hate to admit it on my blog cos Kiddo and Ry sure's gonna be reading this sometime later and rubbing me in the face bout complimenting them the next time i see them, they were great! i was inspired and was hooked onto it! came back home and search for this song and guess what i found...

FYI that's Eunhyuk! HAHAHA i just realize throughout u can't see his face... :p

and another's Moves Like Jagger by Maroon5 ft Christina Aguilera

Kiddo got me hung on this song! irritating kid humming to it the whole night, even when at the club he went up to the dj's, requested for it and forced me to dance with him. Irritating but i had fun! As usual, our mo qi is the best!!! What would you do without me?!? :p HAHAHA!!! bet you're taking your phone now wanting to call me right?!? put it down! im not gonna answer! HAHA!!!

so yeap~ that's all i think~ hope i din miss any out... but even if i did, so what? lolx ^^ this is tiring... going off~ *byong*

xoxo

credits: to all the video uploaders! you guys are awesome! THANKYOU!

hey peeps, back... short post cos im really sleepy... and i just gotta put this up... Mr. Simple music video!!! seriously SM is really treating our suju boys badly... every other SM artist's mv is better than suju... yet suju makes much more $ than them... wth... it's totally like what happen to bonamana mv... just space and some fancy flickering lights... it's even worst than bonamana... in terms of set and overall preparation or should i say packaging and the final presentation... seriously, they deserve better!!!

but even so, im still loving the MV cos it's SUJU... HAHA!!! that reason is enuff... it's kinda irritating how i tried to concentrate on watching the mv as a whole and focus on the dance yet subconsciously always focus on donghae... it's like an immediate reaction thingy... no matter how fast the cuts jump i can spot him immediately... super pro... HAHA! irritating cos i had to repeat a few times to get the entire pic...

not really impressed... i rmbr how i was blown off by suju's uniformity way back but now it's either some of them really were off or im just improving in terms of eyesight and observations :p well i guess it's understandable cos they're all super busy with diff schedules and like members of sjm just fin their promos not long ago and blah blah... but then again, if so, the camera man should be smart enuff to capture the good stuff instead of mistakes... glad that kyuhyun made it into the dance break! so it's donghae, hyukjae, kyuhyun and sungmin... eunhyuk's definitely getting alot of attention for this promos eh? being the only blonde, not to mention platinum blond... he got to sing... top dancer [as usual tho] and reverse flying jacket in the teaser... HAHA!!! Kiddo was skyping me, we talked bout suju since he read my blog and he commented that eunhyuk looks like an albino =X and i was like arguing how i tink GD looks more like one during heartbreaker promos... and then he was saying that i shouldnt diss SJ funky cos it's their style and proven to be successful... cos when you hear it, you'll immediately know it's suju... i agree... but well I JUST DUN LIKE IT! I PREFER THE OTHER SONGS AND THAT SJ FUNKY CAUSES THEIR VOCAL TALENTS TO BE UNDERATED BY MANY! SO BITE ME! :P to hate it is too much cos i dun, it's catchy and all... but on top of that, there are better songs in the album ^^ AND!!! i totally hate one of sungmin's outfit that looks like a butcher's apron... haha massive fail... one of eeteuk's outfit was oso irritated me... the bottom of an inner white piece was hanging out of a yellow vest yet all under a blazer together with suit pants... the piece hanging out made him look like he was wearing his briefs or diapers on the outside in some camera angles... lolx kinda disturbing... so anw enuff of the blabbering, im tired anw... here's the mv!



oh! the mv just came out today and yet the dance already has a name... penguin dance XD and yea forgot to mention this, loving the fact that my donghae's in the centre at the end ^^ HAHAHA random note... so anw im looking forward to their comeback stage tmrw ^^ turning in~ night world~

xoxo

hey peeps! sry, havent blogged and explained the last post... well, i haven't received the pictures at that time. And now that i have, i do not have the time to edit and post it -_- school started and it's crazy from the start, but i think i got a superb timetable ^^ anw this post's gonna be short too, cos im turning in soon since i need to wake up early for school tomorrow... just wanna come blog bout suju's 5th album. It's coming out tomorrow but the tracks are alr out ^^ listened to the whole album and im gonna do a review from my fav song~

1st: Y
Im totally not being bias! i swear... it's composed and written by Donghae and One way's Chance. the melody's good and the lyrics are awesome! my fav!!! and! major killer for eunhae worshippers! eunhae RAP!!! SCREAM!!! keke^^ anw here's the trans of the lyrics... Parts annotation done by me... Might have errors cos the only voice I can pick out immediately and instinctively is Donghae's... I'm just guessing the others... Especially when there's similarities -_- I tried finding one online, but mostly are wrong... Quoting diff sentence or only consist of a few member -_- so yea... Here goes~

Donghae:
When I see you, I only smile- even shy smiles
Your eyes that look at me- are they sad and talking of goodbye baby?

Sungmin and Ryeowook:
Are you that tired of seeing the same person
And doing the same things every day?
Yesung;
Will you forgive me?
Sungmin and Ryeowook:
Please think about it one more time
I won’t let you go now

All and Sungmin:
I’m a fool to have made you cry
Letting you go was because I was lacking
All and Eeteuk:
Forgive me for trying to erase you
Please- so that I can breathe again

Heechul:
When I see you, I cry- you make me into a fool
Kyuhyun:
When you have a change of heart, I will be standing there on your way back baby

Siwon:
The breakup that you prepared
Yesung:
hurts me so bad that I could die
Eeteuk:
even after time passes
Siwon and Yesung:
There’s still so much that I have to do for you before I let you go

All and Eunhyuk:
I’m a fool to have made you cry
Letting you go was because I was lacking
All and Eeteuk:
Forgive me for trying to erase you
Ryeowook:
Please- so that I can breathe again


Eunhyuk:
Where do I start? Starting at some point, we lost the preciousness (Donghae: you know even if I don’t say it)
But I miss each second of each minute and
Your beautiful, eye-blinding smile
I hope this touches you heart
Will my sad prayer pass this rain and pass on to you?
Donghae:
I’m so in pain right now because you have left
I’m so in pain- why is it so hard?
I think about you every night
Do you know how anxious I get if I don’t think about you for just one day?
You probably don’t know- there’s no way you will know
If you think of me once in a while, then please come back then

ALL:
**Saying I love you, saying it to you
Saying I miss you, Saying I want to hug you, and only you
Ryeowook:
I want to protect you
Kyuhyun:
For you, who will come back to me

2nd: 폭풍 (Storm)
ballad by KRY, Sungmin and Donghae (KRYSD). i like the entire feel of the song. AND having donghae to start it off is a cherry on top

3rd: 해바라기 (Sunflower)
light hearted song ^^ so summer-ish... totally an on-the-go song, like on a train or bus on a sunny day ^^ and when donghae sings "... fashion" i was like ME!!! HAHA cos IM OFFICIALLY A FASHION STUDENT! kinda sensitive to that word these days :

4th: 기억을 따라(Memories)
Once again, ballads gets to me...

5th: My Love, My Kiss, My Heart
a very unusual genre for KRY. normally they're like only ballad, this isnt the norm but in a good way! it's a great attempt! nice~

6th: Walkin'
this song's really westernized. sounds like a mixture of jason mraz and bruno mars plus their own song "no other"? HAHA hear it and judge it yourself.

7th: 어느새 우린 (Good Friends)
it has a very jazzy retro feel to it, and i tot sungmin and kyuhyun both pulled it off really well! it's refreshing! for those who know who is yoon jung shin, this song's composed by him! lyrics portraying the entire 6 years of being in suju.

8th: 오페라(Opera)
similar to boom boom in the last album

9th: Mr Simple
title song... totally a mixture of bonamana and sorry sorry... self plagiarizing much -_- the SJ funky thingy just gotta stop la... i prefer songs that arent auto tuned... it's cos of this kinda music that causes the impression that they cnt sing... like when how they're on some music competition variety, ppl are shocked that eeteuk, heechul and many more can actually sing really well... haixx... but it's definitely a song that grows onto you, guess that's how the SJ funky thingy works...

10th: 태완미 (太完美 Perfection)
title song for sjm's latest album but in korean. prefer the chinese one, and the korean ver. lyrics are just 0.0 the lyricist is weird... number 10 cos it ain't new...

last 3 songs i totally dunno how to rank -_- listen once or twice and it's totally forgotten :p not that impressive la...

라라라라 (Be My Girl)
electronic AGAIN -_- it's the 3rd track on the album, 1st is Mr. Simple 2nd was Opera... cn you imagine how i felt listening to 3 electronic autotuned straight?!? i wanted to tear my ear phones... HAHA glad after that, it became better and better ^^

결투 (Feels Good)
westernized feel to it too... sounds like a britney spears song.. forgot what song, one that's kinda lame... i just dun get this song la :p

엉뚱한 상상 (White Christmas)
a remake from a song in 1996. Jinu’s song. i normally do not appreciate remakes unless it's dang good... too bad it falls short... oh well...

overall! i thought that the album was better as compared to the last... i really like the first 7 songs i intro... and i've been having Y on replay for the entire day :p donghae and chance's a genius... i've always like donghae's compositions... but this time he really did improve and he totally knew what's his own style^^ maybe i should write a post on his self composed songs ^.~ even if he grow too old to being in an idol grp... at least he still have another way to earn a living! HAHA!!! singing, dancing, acting, composing... so proud of him! keke^^ kkaes~ go check the songs out ppl! it's in my playlist on the right... oh! 2 teasers are out on the smtown youtube channel... not gonna post it cos the songs used in them aren't in the album -_- retarded, i like the teaser songs... maybe in repackage album? *pray*

tmrw the album will be out, thurs is press con and mv of Mr. Simple will be out. fri is first comeback stage on music bank, followed by music core on sat and inkigayo on sunday ^^ looking forward... hopefully i'll be able to update even tho im busy with school... still rmbr the time when i went MIA when school starts? it might happen again, no promises whatsoever... so yupx till next time~

kkaes turning in~ nitex^^

xoxo

cr for lyrics-
Hangul Lyrics: SJ-market
Romanization: www.lyricsty.com
Translated by: www.popgasa.com
Posted by: superaffxtion.wordpress.com
Parts annotation: its-v.blogspot.com