minna~ im bloggin at 4 once again... was doin my colour layout for my final piece... actualli i fin it round 1 plus but was on the fone wif Heikern... till bout now... if he sees this his gonna nag again... cos i sorta say i would go to slp... haha well i wil slp after tis entry... anw heikern i love u man!!! XD u are lyk my savior cos we are always on the same freq... givin me ideas and stuff... stuff tt i wouldnt tink off but i would agree to... the idea for my art finals was givin by him... a v pure idea... without much thinkin to it... and out comes my final piece... improvised ver of his idea and diff from wat he imagined... he liked the pic so much tt he puts it as wallpaper? ever his sis requested him to sent it to her and she too switched it to wallpaper... im so flattered... and thx for all the compliments!!! anw he is lyk this livin mindmap or wrdsplash... haha formulates ideas for me... and besides tt he just spent hours tokin to me while givin me advices from his pov... which happens to b a point i lack... being not an art person... he gives lots of comments which i could wrk on... and me bein more technical in these stuff... i tend to worry bout stuff tt would not wrk... so yea i love u... and i noe u noe tt... haha and durin the art talk... we sidetracked and talk bout more crazy stuff... which may seems crazy to lots ppl but its normal talk for us... tts y i say we're on the same freq... both of us have ideas which soun dumb but actuali logical n we love to dream big... love talkin to him... even tho we might not be in contact all the time... but he is one of the few ppl i would go to for hlp and advices... as considerate as ever... i noe he always means well for me... and we could talk non stop... like today talked for bout 5 hrs... straight o... who the hell cn talk for 5 hrs without break and not get bored? normally peeps would just fall aslp... all the conversation would b lyk dead silence and both parties would be mmmmm-ing... arh-ing.... ya-ing... we talked like thrs no tmrw and we cn even go on... but considerate him suddenly rmbrs tt i hv to go sch early tmrw... hence tried convincin me to hang up and go to bed... tried a few times and finally wrked... cos i noe he is tired too... wat expresso... the expresso has long gone down ur bladder la... so stop cheng qiang-ing... haha hence hanged and im goin to slp now... tmrw will b filled wif lots of frustrations? not sure but i tink so... heikern u better not come to sch just to view the piece... im gonna lock u outside the art rm!!! haha... anw im lyk promoting u on my blog neh... wth... muz pay me for hlpin to advertise u... HAHA... LOVE YOU!!! XD

omg im finally done with my art final piece!!! as though one load of my shoulders but i stil have plenty tho... im gonna be transferrin it up the canvas tmrw... hope it wil turn out fine... too much details tho... tink wil zuo si zi ji... haixx im a sadist... yao zuo si zi ji cai gan yuan... its 4am in the morning and finali the stupid caffeine is wrkin... wat great timing -_-nevertheless im stil gonna catch some slp... i love being up at nite when alls serene and quiet... but its unhealthy of cos... and i have to battle the slp demon... RAWR!!!!!!!!! ok now im zi high-ing... too much caffeine does u crazy stuff... beats having emo tots... gona catch some slp... zzzzZZZZZ

Tongue tied- Faber Drive... nice yet irritatin...
I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say
to just make you stay?

zzzZZZ

minna~... i dunno wat greeting to make... its lyk 3 in the morning and im still up drawin... art coursework is seriously alot of wrk... and considering all my other hw... haixx its a never ending pile... stupid POS... im takin a break... no shud say im gulpin down tons of coffee and bloggin, hoping tt the sudden intake of massive caffeine would start to work... today was all weird... my mood and emotions changed lyk SNAP!!! due to a phone call again... lately its always phone calls tt wreck my day... but today's a diff person diff situation... i was shocked tt i would react tis way... it aint me... i shud b able to control my own mind instead of it wanderin towards the LA direction on its own... i seriously din noe... tot tt all was over and i would be fine but evidently not... cos if alls fine den i shudnt react tis way rite... or am i just weird? wateva it is, its over... its a decision i make and i shall stick with it... but seriously if i ponder did i regret my decision, the answer is no... cos its better for all... but maybe dumb me is just afraid to lose stuff and thus keepin things simple tis way would ensure tt tings will always be whr its suppose to... ITS OVER! SNAP OUT OF IT!!! shant act lyk a baby no more... to hell these feelins... and back to art...

眼睛为何会不知不觉的“流汗”？心已早结冰了但为何还是不能把那些“汗水”冻结呢？

minna san konbachiwa... here for a short post to try to clear my head... my heads is in a mess n i dun reali no why... nite reali does ppl harm i guess... today i missed someone... someone tt had passed on to another world due to cancer... he was a great fren and i seriously missed him... life's just so vulnerable to good peeps while evil peeps live on hell long... dun get it... dun get it at all...

o well... change of topics... the weather has been extreme these days... love the sun but not these days... its just to hot and bright... ok wth am i sayin... i sound lyk a tard... but anw take care every1... please stay healthy, cos tts the most important ting :)

look who's tokin rite? well... i promise i'll drink lots of water n try to stick to normal mealtimes :) altho im headin out for supper later... oops XD well its friday nite... gotta get a quick nap or else i guess i'll be slpin at the table... bad manners... hence i shall go take a nap... zzZZZZZ

minna san konnichiwa... bloggin in the morning as i hv nth to do n i tend to slack at hme today to rest... im aching all over due to dancing for 3 days... but i aint gonna complain!!! i rather have dance everyday n ache everyday den to hv normal daes... haha... abit of a masochist in a way... ecp was hell!!! i was sick on a fri n mon... so i had a long weekend without hw... but when i got back to sch on tues... i nearly fainted... stacks of hw piled up to sky high... and thr were lyk 3 ppl hlpin to sort out my hw? aint exaggeratin... and to make matters worst some are already dued or the deadline is just the next day... i was in such a dilema tt i din noe wich subject to start on 1st... addin on to my art coursework, i seriously was at a lost... in the end i cleared my chem in a day... a few pract paper... HELL!!! 2nd day i cleared physics and ss... which was a few phy prac paper and ss sbq and ss test... its an idiot proof test though... wich actualli is quite hard... the las tym we did an idiot proof test... it did declare us all idiots... demoralisin... but tis tym i scored a full mark!!! haha next i tried clearin my double maths n art... stil in the process cause hw just keep piling up... at the end of the whole ecp... every subject has a diff pile of hw... i duno how im gonna do it but im happy tt the stressful week was over... did scared lots of peeps cos i was super cui everyday... imagine havin just recovered from food poisonin n den everyday slp at 1 plus and wake up at 4 to continue on hw.... EVERYDAY O... tinkin back i duno how i did it... and manage to not faint at sch... on the las day of ecp, the minute i went hme, i slpt lyk a dead log.. my mum tot i had commited suicide... choy la!!! anw thx for every1 tt has been puttin up wif my grumpy attitude durin tt week:) its over!!! haha

after ecp had dance on monday... but had to leave at noon to accompany my mum go walk walk as she specially took an off day to spent it wif me... so monday din reali dance much but seein laoshi made my day... stil rmbr durin ecp when juniors had dance and we dropped by durin recess... hasnt seen laoshi in a long tym hence i was all emotional... firstly cos i missed him and tt secondly i missed my cute juniors... and last of all i wana dance la!!! who wouldnt choose dance if compared to facin borin lessons and piles of dued-hw? super bui tahan de... wasnt even payin attention in class... haha XD tues had dance prac too... i wonder y thr were so many guest? haha but they sure brought lots of laughter... inside joke la... haha... after lesson laoshi along wif dem left, Vian n me head to BH for lunch... pan fried fish:) yummy haha!!! so fortunate to have a decent restaurant near sch... after tt immediately head back to sch and laid in ava rm lyk a corpse due to bad cramps... others were preparin for the bbq in the evenin... durin the bbq... all was well ba... just tt i was havin cramps so din enjoyed myself... watched our syf vid!!! and i kope from chers comp... haha... good to brin ur usb all aroun and havin an 8gb mcard... heres the vid :)

spot the errors? the 2 suckers! serve u right sia :p bleahx! i feel tt laoshi is the genius la... without those perfect lightings it wouldnt look gd... back to the bbq... invited some guest but onli 1 came... haha he even got lost o :) wahaha... the bbq ended on a quiet note and mayb a sad 1 as i was tokin to some1 bout sometin... became a cousellor... aftr tt when to frens hse to hlp sew clothes... WTH rite... haha but nvm at least he fetch me to n fro... wich is ying gai de... good luck for ur project :) at last hme sweet hme... chatted n msn wif a bunch of peeps n couldnt go to bed... to high le... thx to someone who introduced some techno songs to me... haha :)

ytd was KUNYANG's BDAY!!! happy bday o! went to his party but had to leave early la... so sry neh... hpe u lyk all the presents :) next when to ZY's dance class... and i was LATE!!! cnt bliv it... so paiseh la... sry... i wasnt the last but stil late!!! urgh... class was lyk super good!!! altho had to ate med to stop the cramps but it was worth it:) so long nvr pia le lo... cock here n thr but o well... haha... dance reali made my day... thx neh ZY!!! aftr tt actuali wana catch a movie but din... so ate wif Vian wich was my 1st meal of the day n chatted for super long... after tt she had to rush off... hope ur grandma is feelin better :) dunno y made me worried too lo...

the worst part of the day was tt stupid fone call... damnit... hai si ren... almost caused my life as yea i guo ma lu bu kan lu la... dumb bliv i was stronger den the cars... well at least im stil alive? haha den selfish me made a dumb sms n make another person feel bad... along with me... wth was i tinkin... no, shud say my mind wasnt even tinkin at tt tym... suck! so selfish lo... damnit... SRY NEH!!! u noe hu u r... n stop rawrin... at least i nvr type out ur name :) but reali wana apologise la... rong to b so selfish n bein such an ass... but cnt b hlp cos mayb im an ass aftrall... who noes? n i shud hv tot tt mayb u had sum rough tyms too n tt i shudnt hv been so selfish... arh goddamnit... but i noe u wil forgiv me de la rite :) haha :P super bhb... but anw feelin better now as the prob is still a prob wich cnnot b resolved... well unless i die la... but i wouldnt die b4 tt dumb person... all i cn do is to blame it on bad luck ... and tt my next life would b beta? haha nah my life is much fortunate den others :) im stil learnin to love my life so pardon me if i ever bugged u bout any nonsence ever again...

ok shit happens but its all over now... im back to normal again... as u noe night cn do sum serious emo-in to peeps... but its bright n early now n im awake due to CRAMPS... haixx... if i were a boy... HAHA i wouldnt pass NS... my fren always sing " if i were a boy... i would hoong all the zhabor in the world~~~" haha hopin to b a big casanova in her next life... dumb dumb... o well i seriously hv nth else to blog le la... at least i cnt rmbr... so every1... stay healthy yea :)

hpe to dance soon cos i bui tahan!!! haha lyk sum drug addict... and oya ZY, i blogged kkaes? and stop bloggin in chinese... i du bu dong :( so unfair... mayb i shud blog in jap sometym to let u taste ur own med? haha... wish to attend ur class soon :)