HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & VALENTINES!!! its been V long since i last blogged... i sorta almost wana shut it down... but i managed to find an uber nice blogskin keke^^ hence im back to blogsphere but no promises on frequent updates...

first off... yea i deleted the tagboard and links... whoever chance upon here... suay la! cos u cnt bloghop to anywhere... lolx well im just too lazy to manage the tagboard and update the links... hence *pooof* GONE!!! BUT! i inserted the comment button... i fondled with the stupid template for freakin long to finally get it right and the way i want it to be... hence u guys cn comment... and the good thing is that i get to moderate the comments... cos it gets to my email too:) so comments are most welcome... i'll get back to u in some way... would appreciate if you state who u are... but anonymous is fine too:)

LOTS HAPPENED... like duh i haven been updating... i cnt rmbr specific events... many ups and downs but the most important thing is that im exceptionally happy these days! all the stress is off my shoulders cos i got into LASALLE... peeps who know me would noe ive been aiming for it... and even tho i got into my JAE first choice before the interview for lasalle... i still suffered from insomnia and poor appetite... so much for believeing that i would feel better getting into my first choice -_- now, since i've been accepted, i no longer suffer from insomnia but my appetite is stil not back yet... TSK!!! haha so anw i got in... and sch starts for me on 2nd August... so im super free after FEB, unless i get a job... so peeps! ASK ME OUT!!! HAHA

AHA 09 passed by in a blurry... there was always a feeling of having not enuff time... and being unable to focus on details... STILL i had fun and got back my stamina *at least i think i have :p* well going back to dance after a long time just leads to one word---> CUI!!! AND the scary thing is to absorb the whole dance in 3 hrs for the 1st lesson... thinking back, Vian, how did we even do that? Managed to work with new people but i thought the mo qi between us wasnt enough... due to the lack of time once again...
MAJOR THANKS TO ZHONGYI!!! who would be willing to train us having not danced at all throughout the O's period? WE WERE LIKE FREAKIN CUI!!! and not to mention it was super xiong for you... love the dance and learnt the importance of sending the message across to the audience through dance steps in lyrical... but i stil dun wanna watch the video! HAHA hope you understand that... "ok" is just "not good enough"... looking forward to AHA10 and further productions with you... IF I CN I WILL JOIN DE!!! just promise me no more brooms -_- serious hor!
not only that, but also thx for prolonging my dance life... if not for the dance classes now, my dance life would have ended right when AHA09 ended... and if i stop dancing... going back to dance would be near impossible... so once again THX ZHONGYI!

speaking of which... my back had worsen... shocker... NOT! nowadays i often get SHARP pain from my back... it hurts like crazy... im nt sure y but aint gonna find out either... still dancing as usual... and like i've always said... "dance is a natural painkiller"... when u're dancing u wouldnt feel any pain... but once the music stops and your feet come to a rest... THATS WHEN THE PAIN SETS IN... scratch that... it should be THATS WHEN THE PAIN PUNCH RIGHT THROUGH YOU!!! similarly for mental breakdowns... when u're dancing, u'll forget all the shit thats been happening... but when everything stops... the effect of it coming back at you is just excruciating times a hundred... BUT i highly recommend this way of sweating it out rather den downing litres of alcohol and having to suffer a major hangover the next day... THATS JUST LAME!

totally sidetracked... lolx anw its CNY... totally not a fan of it... CNY just makes me feel lonely... cos i dun do much visiting... not much relatives in Sg to visit... and thrs no one to pei me since everyone does visiting... TSK! I'm so much more a xmas and presents person HAHA!!! worst of all... this year's CNY just has to fall on Vday -_- but at least not on my bday like dunno which year... ITS IRRITATIN!!! anw for those who got me blue roses(fav flower),chocolates(which i cn only eat on the 4th day) and other gifts... THX!!! LOVE YOU PPL!!! muackxx:)
resolutions and wishes for the year...
-i wish everyone around me, whom i care and love would stay healthy and happy throughout...
-i double wish both my grandmothers the pink of health...
-i hope that when my school term starts all would be smooth...

Well last year has been really suay for me... LOTS OF SHIT HAPPENED!!! but i managed to flush it all away... lolx lame... AND another shocking thing! im gonna eat vegetarian for 3days! shocker for an anti-veg person... well i cnt afford to be suay this year la seriously... but i cnt eat vegetarian for 15 days cos my bday falls on the 5th day... y would i eat vegetarian on my bday?!? so 3 days is enough keke^^ wai dao li... yea i noe...

WANTS IN 2010...
-intuos 4

for those who dunno wth it is... it is a graphic tablet... well i kinda need it for school so aiming to get it before school starts... Bro actually promised to get me one BUT!!! smarty me ask him to get me a laptop instead... LIKE DUH!!! its so much expensive... HAHA im goin for MAC but not sure which... macbook or macbook pro? air is totally out cos it kinda suck... lolx and to much disappointment... the long awaited ipad is kinda crappy too... its like an enlarged iphone -_- ive been looking forward to it for a LOOOOOOONG time... arh!!! suan le! comments on which i should get? AND THX BRO keke^^
-a new handphone!!! been waiting for the LG lollipop to get to SG since april last year... and it came! wahaha... its a simple phone... just chio... the main pt is that i love flip phones,its got a camera inside and its PINK!!! but thrs another which i like... its the LG gw620... why? cos its a qwerty android!!! if its out in pink... i'll def get it! but it doesnt... TSK i guess i'll wait and hope that the prices drop freakin fast...

-goin for jap and korean course... im a language person so wana learn this two languages... noe a bit here and thr but still i need lessons for perfection!!! HAHA it rhymes... lit student... bo bian...
-a break... and im getting one!!! off on a cruise alone on the 20thFEB... its a bday present for myself :) i sooooo need a break after all the shit... i deserve it!!! fyi cruising to nowhere... sounds stupid but its even more dumb to cruise to some place and get like a time limit to shop... where u have to rush like mad... might as well stay on board and relax... 3D2N wun be bringin my phone so its fine whether u text me anot... will get back to u peeps asap:)
so... main pt is i guess i gotta work and earn money!!! any lobang tell me:)

LASTLY after typing so much... reason y i chose this blogskin... simple I LOVE LEE DONGHAE!!! HAHA!!! first up in my music playlist is beautiful by donghae... he composed it for SS2... which reminds me... VIAN, I WANNA GO FOR SS2 IN MALAYSIA!!! haha... other songs are songs i've been listening to recently... so check it out:) wanted to add more to the playlist but im just lazy!!! ^^

XOXO

konbachiwa... today sucks... these days suck so much tt i transforming into emo kid... shinjirarenai...

anw just here to make a wish... and to thank someone who was always thr for me for the past month... keepin me company tru nites of chiongin art... buy and store boxes of cream puff everyday... and deliverin them to my doorstep on stressful days when im being unreasonable... only u would think of such a way to satisfy my stupid cravins for cream puffs at midnight...

not long ago, i asked u during a phonecall tt its not lyk i would wana eat cream puff everyday, so wat happens to all the other cream puffs and i rmbred u said u ate those cos u knew if u hadnt i would be like "think u got alot money jiu cn buy and throw away izit?" But i know u dun fancy dem cos u nvr liked sweet stuff.

and if not for you i guessed i would have broken down long ago with all the shit happening... cos u was always thr to force positive vibes into me... and shouldered all the negativity...

i was glad u came back even if its just a month and that u have to go again... even tho stubborn me chose to stick to my choice... lettin u go again wasnt an easy task... and i noe its the same for u... hence today i wasnt able to see u off at the airport... i just could not bring myself to...

all in all... i did not regret having u back in my life for the month... once again, it tells me how much i treasure u as a fren... so please stay safe, healthy and happy.

Even tho u, being an anti-blog person, wouldnt read this... which is exactly my pt... i would still like to say Thx D.

konbachiwa... here to lash out all the negativity im feelin... im tired... all the shit happenin around me... and tryin to act like its fine is really getting in on me after having lived tt way for 16 yrs... lucky i have frens who keep my head clear instead of it steering its own into the dark side... but seriously i feel dumb... haven i learnt my lesson after 16 freakin yrs? the ans is no i have not... and seriously i wonder why... mayb im just a masochist... or just plain dumb... what was i even expecting from dem... mayb i just loved the few secs of joy and thinkin tt hey dey arent tt bad or dey changed... F no... and rite i shudnt think tt dey arent tt bad... i shud b thinking hey finally im gd enough for dem... and even tho now im at the place i wanted to be at and with the person i wanted to be with most... i dun feel a little relief at all... at least i dun allow myself to... all of this is endin soon so why depend on it... why think that its a happy picture when alls gonna burn up the next second... in the end i'll just feel as miserable as the last time... gettin me no where... its the same as not improvin which sucked... seriously, i gotta learnt...

POA: do not ask an sick guy or comment "are you crazy?" it gets you nowhere cos insane peeps will just say " im crazy bout u" cheesy but hey its stil happening now alright... sick ppl stil do exist... watchout...

minna~ here to update on current feelins... its lyk 1.18 in the mornin and im still not aslp... prelim2 resumes tmrw... haixx... most dreaded physics n amaths... heck la... no drive anw... too much stuff on my mind...

anw got to noe tt my yamapi is down with flu!!! when i heard... i was lyk damn worried... yea typical fangirl... but cnt hlp it... luckily it wasnt the h1n1... guess he has been busy with drama filmin and 24hr teleV programme ba... tts y after the 24hr TV ryo and him fall sick? haixx... all fangirls must be so worried now...

enuff of fangirl moments... wanna say tt last nite had a v weird dream... a dream tt i wun talk in detail... just plain weird... wish i had this decipher tingy for dreams... aint a nitemare lyk the ones i always get... considered a gd dream? with characters tt are quite distant from me now... v weird... and it has lyk diff chaps of same person? damn freaky lo... once again... its not a nitemare!!! tts wats freaky... cos i normally either have nitemares or dun hv dreams... im a dreamless person... and normally for nitemares i cn easily figure dem out as its normally bout the same probs ive been dwellin on... but this dream was diff... how weird... feel like sharin... but as to not cause misunderstandins... i shall keep mum... but anw woke up this morning in a happy mood de... cos of the dream... ridiculous but true... but it din last long la... too much on my mind till the good vibes arent enuf as a distraction... stil... i would like to get to the bottom of this dream... haha... maybe its a sub conscious tingy? aiya wakaranai... i shall go slp le... wonder if i will have the same dream?

oyasumi~~~ ashita ganbarimasu...

ohaiyo~ its real early and im postin... haha now its 6.42am on a tuesday morning... just wana random post... cos stupid me woke up early on a tuesday!!! suppose to go to school at 8.30 and i woke up at 5.30... wat a retard... arh whateva... prelims2 period now... today is ENGLISH!!! yay!!! haha... been really busy this few weeks tryin to get my olvl art coursewrk done as it dues friday... which clashes with all the prelims exams... so prelims priority or art? really in a dilemma last week... but well greedy me is goin to juggle both!!! so i guess on friday evening i'll be dead at hme la... damn dumb lo... the person who pai the timetable... hate the person... after friday got lyk 4 days holi? til next paper? for wat la!!! den need to rush my art which clash with prelims?!? *^$%*^%&*^%!@#$ urgh!!! haixx shant complain much... cos if i reali do... this whole post is just not enough... wateva it is... ganbarimasu!!! guo le jiu shi wo de le!!! Yoshi!!!