Sunday, June 6, 2010

friggin sad right now... totally feeling opposite as compared to last night... shall rant here, no sharing updates... so anyone who's not interested just dont read...

suju's on their way to s'pore... but cnt see them... rawr! din think it will really affect me but HELL YEA ITS AFFECTING ME ALRIGHT?!? im totally emo-ing away lifelessly... maybe cos im sick? home bound... i shall read and study the day away... or maybe start on the design of my new room...

yup i'll be moving real soon... to the nbsd marsilling... maybe in less than 2 weeks time? urgh... hate moving! seriously... ive moved 5 times just in singapore... not to mention inter country... why does my parents love to play around with estates so much... its friggin annoying!!! furthermore their reasons are always damn random... i shant even talk bout it anymore cos i'll be like pissed off till i cry... the first time i heard them telling me, i was so pissed that i had an asthma attack... their mentality is really unbelievable... its beyond a normal human's range... and to think maybe they'll let it go since im not accepting it in a positive way... WRONG! guess what, they already bought the house -_-

everytime i move its a new school... new environment... i tot i was getting good at goodbyes but evidently thats not the case... i learnt that its not getting good at goodbyes but forced to say goodbye and adapting to reality... so its not about getting better at it, just speeding up on the adapting part... cos the feeling still sucks big time... do i make sense? arh wateva~

so anw the house i've been living in has been one that i've lived in the longest... cant say its perfect but im very happy bout it... and now its like taking away my comfort zone... but looking on the bright side, at least i finished sec sch here right? i was super close to moving into a dorm near lasalle, telling my parents that marsilling is FRIGGIN FAR AWAY FROM LASALLE! and guess what they say... "you can always find a bf with a car... that will solve the prob..." URGH den i might as well hire a chauffeur... and then i replied "if i have a bf with a car, i'll just moved in with him... prob solved too... isnt that more convenient..." evidently they were dumbfounded, but they actually agreed... weird parents... URGH been their daughter for 17 yrs... and i still cant get what's in their brains... seriously... totally one of a kind... no scratch that... should be one pair of a kind... they are like genetically programmed for each other... eh, not quite... its just only in this kinda ruining my life thingy then YES THEY ARE GENETICALLY PROGRAMMED FOR EACH OTHER...

dropped the idea of moving into a dorm cos i'll have to pay for everything... rawr why should i waste money on that when the money i've saved are for other future purposes... so yup accepted the fact that im moving to the nbsd place... and i have to shout! ITS FRIGGIN INCONVENIENT!!! no more spc under my block... no more mrt a stone's throw away... no more good food near my house... no more calling my frens impromptu to hang at BH... FML!!! for my new house... the mrt isnt a stone's throw away at all... i'll have to take a bus.. can u blive it... my most hated tranport ever... A BUS! its friggin retarded to buy a house right in the middle of two mrt stations where you cant even walk to... and you know what's a stone throw away from my house? the malaysia custom... guess i'll frequent malaysia often when i move... i'll shop there and maybe do my grocery shopping there... cos i can walk to city square in malaysia but not to causeway point in s'pore... funny pos rite?

my parent's been talking bout the building of the mrt track or wateva that link from malaysia to singapore vice versa, trying to convince me that the move is a right move... not v sure bout it, so if i said anything wrong, feel free to correct me... so anw it seems like the track will be built 2 blocks away from my new house... making it more convenient to go to malaysia next time... but seriously, by the time its built and all done... i'll be outa the country!!! so what good is it to me?!? urgh... once again convinced... NOT! i dont friggin care bout the price of the estate would rise or wat crap... all i want is to live peacefully without all the unwanted hassle... SO STOP DRAGGIN ME INTO YOUR MERRY-GO-ROUNDS!!! im so getting outa here fast... doubt i'll stay unless something really impt holds me back...

another prob arise... we haven't even renovate the new house and im moving into it in less than two weeks time... why? evidently my parents sold this house out for a high price... LIKE DUH! its a good house and place! so yea we are moving real quick... i totally hope the renovation is slow... cos that means once again... i'll be living in a hotel!!! thinking of the hotel facilities makes me happy... HAHA! or better yet, go on a holiday? HAHA yup this is my life... screwed up but bits of cherry here and there...

haixx... im so gonna get what i want for my room... anyone who stops me will totally get a dressing down... my dad better watch out! :p always trying to tamper with my decisions... im more stubborn than you! so you can save your breath! childish parents are one of the biggest probs of my life... and speakin of that... my mum just snatched a lollipop away from me! saying that im sick so i cant eat... yea rite and there you are suckin on it... o please im having a flu... and what diff does it make whether i eat it or not... URGH!!! horrible...

tired of ranting... back to emo-ing bout the fact that i wont be able to see my donghae... din think that i'll be so sad... urgh FML!

no mood for xoxo...

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