and now a paragraph catered to those nonsensical ones who keep asking me bout the peeps i mention in this blog and other random nonsensical stuff... seriously stfu and get a life... the reason ive closed down blog after blog... deleting tagboards to moderating comments manually now is all because of you peeps... i seriously dont mind ppl stalking my blog... but still who i mix with, who i thank or mention on my blog, is none of your friggin business... i dun care bout what you pathetic peeps think, so keep your opinions to yourself, get a life and leave mine alone... stop hanging on to glimmers of hope of trying to control or change my mindset or my way of doing stuff... it aint gonna! and seriously if you guys really think your way is so much better or is the supposed "right way" den why is your life still so pathetically bleak? if you dun wan me to close this blog down once again or put a password to everything... you guys should seriously stfu... im not asking, im telling!
this reminds me of my previous blogs... its so annoying reading those tags that insult who i mention on my blog... and there were even taggers who fight among themselves on MY tagboard... screw those peeps... im like invincible or what? at least respect the blogger yea? i dun believe in deleting tags would solve the prob and so i decided to close down my blogs and stop giving any info on my life... this group of pathetic freaks should be thankful that im still blogging!!! urgh... even though moderating comments solve the prob of hurting my friends and creating misunderstandings, but still it sucks cos i have to read those nonsensical crap... seriously get this piece of info in your head "mess with my friends and you are so dead!"... omg i rhyme... urgh must be really pissed off to spark my lit side... keke
so anw back to my usual, was clearing my emails... logged on to one of my abandoned emails and guess wat? 2245 unread emails since april!!! beat that!!! HAHA took me quite a while to clear and read the mails...
something i have to clear up... i don't frequent msn that much anymore and so those who were wondering why im not logging on to princeton_gal936@hotmail.com... dun fret yea? i din block or delete you guys... i abandoned msn :) and as for vns_lim936@hotmail.com as stated on the right side of my blog... its my email add... but as said, abandoned msn and hence if you guys need to contact me... feel free to email me or sms me:) i have to make changes to the right... its not msn but email... just gotta clear this up:)
so on with wut up recently... my back hurt quite bad lately... wonder if its gotta do with me working out... so stopped for awhile... decided to cancel all my plans on tues cos it was hurting too much and nua-ed at home... did some reading, as usual, and some self-reflecting... not a bad thing... its what i always do once in a while... stop to think what im doing recently and what im going to do next... things start to turn ugly when i get myself to face problems of mine and others... as said in another post... im happy not because my life's perfect, im happy cos i decided to overlook imperfections... and clearly this is a time i bring myself to face the imperfections and hopefully try to solve them... but in vain...
ever surrounded by a sea of people but still just feel all alone? not exactly no one to talk to or turn to... theres actually alot of ppl around, just hard to find one who could understand and give fruitful comments... and it also depends on the problem... subject and object... felt really suffocated and lonely on tues night cos i have no one to turn to... its already bad enough with my own probs, but i believe i will solve it gradually... as for facing probs of ppl around me its hard... cos i cant consult anyone bout it... its either one doesnt understand or one just cant relate cos they dunno each other... urgh real irritating and i cant just dont care... seriously its like im looking at my friend playing with fire... everyone tells her not to... but she still wanna and things start to get outa hand... but all i can do is stand there, look at her getting burnt alive... the sick thing is that she enjoyed being burnt for now... but im sure she'll regret it in the future... and worst... its not like the fire's burning fast... its a slow torturous thing as if played in slow motion to maximise the hurting in me... im sorry for being vague and i dont even noe if it all make sense to you guys... but i have to express it this way to let out some of the feelings in me right now... seriously it pains me having to witness all this and not being able to do anything... i feel im sucha lousy fren for not being able to save her from getting hurt in the future... but what can i do if she doesnt listen to me or any of us? its so complicated and it hurts so much... no one to talk to... to share or to lean on just makes it worst... so this has been one of the major thing bugging me right now...
ytd went to ikea and had a HTHT with LS... felt so good talking to her... we spent hours talking at the eatery at ikea... even tho we last met on monday... lolx crazy eh? go ikea and spent majority of the time there talking to someone i havent seen for just one day... but i feel good cos i really need someone right now... to those idiots who are wondering who is LS... its a girl alright... urgh-_- love her! tho shes crazy at times... but me too:) haha... ate my fav swedish meatballs :) saw my former form/lit teacher... lolx she looks healthier and she say she cant recognise me le... keep asking what happen to my hair... lolx I DYED MY HAIR ALRIGHT? keke^^ cute... she looks happy with her husband... xian mu and at the same time im really happy for her... she was a good teacher... altho she keeps catching me for attire, hair and what nt... HAHA but shes good! the only teacher who can make me attentive in lit class... after she resigned... i bailed out on lit... din even fin the book and went straight for o's with confidence from who noes where? haha luckily i did great :p
nothing eventful today cos i had a visitor... stayed home all day... dun consider it nua-ing cos theres visitor -_- so not a good host eh? HAHA hanging with heihei tmrw:) we're both known for being busy peeps... so we both reserved the whole of tmrw to hang with each other:) hate sms-ing him... prefer calling... super pekcek with his smses at times... cos i dun get it... but when we talk on phone or face to face can talk non-stop wahaha!!! weird... hopin to catch a movie i've been wanting to watch and chillax the day away... he better not piss me off or anything... HAHA if not he's so dead :p
feel that i have to share something!!! if not its like illegal... HAHA jk... not that serious... so anw i did a research on jyp cos i grew curious... heard he use to be an "idol" too... keke^^ so tried to find his songs... and guess what? found one i like... a guitar accompaniment piece... i must say... im shocked by his high pitched voice... its kinda cool... coming from a guy who looks manly... kinda like kim jong kook? listen~
the lyrics of this song is so -_- the guy ought to get killed... the translation of the song name would be " i have a girl" it can be known as i already have a girlfriend... so the lyrics is talking bout him falling in love with another girl even tho he already have a girlfriend... he tot he loved his girlfriend and that he would not fall in love ever again... evidently thats gullible thinking like DUH... so now after falling in love with another girl... he is in pain cos he already got a girlfriend and hence dunno what to do... stupid eh? bad guy... what to do?!? be honest and break up with your girl la DUH! tsk...
this song is so realistic cos it can happen to anyone... so guys listen up! do not sweet talk bout loving one forever or what crap... especially hate that kinda thing... cheesy is fine if you can fulfill it... but this kinda crap are just empty promises... like yea you can live on forever... even if you can i dun think i can... lolx... speaking of this... i seriously hate guys who say things like " ~forever" "~i'll wait for you" "~only you" its like a bunch of empty promises and its real irritatin... its fine when they say stuff like "you're my everything" at least its something the guy can work on or prove that the girl is the most important one in his life or the most important issue he cares about... and another thing i totally detest is confessing over the phone or worst still... over the phone and singing... the worst of all by sms... lolx... its seriously funny and irritatin... sms totally is an off thing... over the phone is just funny and the singing is really weird, a waste of time and a huge turn off... ppl who noe me well will noe how i tend to this ppl... its really funny and heartless to some but if you were in the same situation you'll do the same... i will not write it here... but to those who wanna know, just ask:) kkaes done ranting will update and share more interesting stuff next time..
gotta slp early cos leong heihei wants me to wake up super early tmrw to have mac breakfast with him -_- i better not oversleep if not he's gonna come to my house and wake me up... HAHA at least he's coming to khatib and not me going to him early in the morning... i wouldnt have agreed in the first place if thats the case... keke^^
thought of something random... hei is NOT HAE... how i wish hei IS HAE!!! HAHA i wouldnt mind waking up early at all or him marching to my house to wake me up keke^^ double standards eh? but thats because its HAE we're talking bout keke^^ off i go~
credit: thx to xXxmarienasaurxXx for the vid... really hard to find since jyp is so underated...
xoxo
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