minna konbawa~ wanted to post on the first 3 days back at sch... TORTURE!!! haha new timetable and thrs lyk this 3 period straight in one day... totalli excruciatin... not to mention tons of hw and the upcoming prelimns... anw i realised lots of tings in these few days... but i shant go into the emo sides of it... one realisation is one tt i've always known... which is if thrs a start thrs always an end... but i realise mayb tts the tings tts holdin me back? makin me reluctant to accept new stuff... cos the tot of startin somethin which would eventually end scares me... so in order not to lose anything i rather not have anythin in the 1st place... tts wat ive always tot... but i guess i shant keep this mindset at all... cause without startin i would always b running on the spot... tts one cowardly act tt i always wanna change... another kinda cowards tt i encounter is many aroun me who starts something... and when it ends... it seems like their world crumbled... i guess this is oso another reason y i dun even wana start anything... judgin from ppl around me... it may not seem lyk a good idea to follow their steps... and furthermore i always have to be a shelter for dem whenever their world starts crumblin down... so i cnt afford to crumble wif dem... or mayb its the competitive me inside tt is afraid to face the fact tt mayb im not tt strong afterall... and tt my world cn go crumblin down into rubble within secs... so mayb im the zui coward de? thus i conclude such realisations are bo liao... gets u no whr... cos no one reali have a perfect solution... oya! thrs no such ting as perfect... godamnit... RMBR TT!!! which brings me to another topic... how cn a perfectionist be perfect when tings arent suppose to b perfect in the 1st place? my art cher always tells me not to b a perfectionist when it comes to art... but its a bad habit i cnt chnge... so someone please save me... HAHA XD enough of the realisation dumb tots tingy...

fri is the start of prelims 1... im doomed for sure... no drive to do stuff i dun lyk... but o well... i found a source of motivation somehow... little one la... cos my own tots still overweigh everything... haha... but tt motivation somehow is quite magical... i din tot it would wrk... but it sure did... yay! so im gonna try to enjoy studyin... lyk wth rite? yea im turnin into a geek for the upcoming months... lyk ive always said durin SYF periods or any hard times... "ao guo jiu shi wo men de!!!" haha... hence... im gonna be ENDURING DANCELESS DAYS... TURNING INTO MUGGER PHASE... urgh... so off to hit the fun and interesting textbooks... yea rite... i myself aint convinced at all... o well...

ps: please stay healthy everyone :)
pps: jazmond tt bo liao person say must mention him on my blog... here u are... HAHA super ENG lo u... geniuses no nid study... onli hang at jammin studio all tt cn ACE everything... gth la... :p
ppps: pardon my eng today... kinda weird to phrase my tots today neh... duno y... mayb cos in bloggin wif eyes half open? and my brain is in lala land? o well tym for caffeine intake...

oyasumi~

minna~ im bloggin at 4 once again... was doin my colour layout for my final piece... actualli i fin it round 1 plus but was on the fone wif Heikern... till bout now... if he sees this his gonna nag again... cos i sorta say i would go to slp... haha well i wil slp after tis entry... anw heikern i love u man!!! XD u are lyk my savior cos we are always on the same freq... givin me ideas and stuff... stuff tt i wouldnt tink off but i would agree to... the idea for my art finals was givin by him... a v pure idea... without much thinkin to it... and out comes my final piece... improvised ver of his idea and diff from wat he imagined... he liked the pic so much tt he puts it as wallpaper? ever his sis requested him to sent it to her and she too switched it to wallpaper... im so flattered... and thx for all the compliments!!! anw he is lyk this livin mindmap or wrdsplash... haha formulates ideas for me... and besides tt he just spent hours tokin to me while givin me advices from his pov... which happens to b a point i lack... being not an art person... he gives lots of comments which i could wrk on... and me bein more technical in these stuff... i tend to worry bout stuff tt would not wrk... so yea i love u... and i noe u noe tt... haha and durin the art talk... we sidetracked and talk bout more crazy stuff... which may seems crazy to lots ppl but its normal talk for us... tts y i say we're on the same freq... both of us have ideas which soun dumb but actuali logical n we love to dream big... love talkin to him... even tho we might not be in contact all the time... but he is one of the few ppl i would go to for hlp and advices... as considerate as ever... i noe he always means well for me... and we could talk non stop... like today talked for bout 5 hrs... straight o... who the hell cn talk for 5 hrs without break and not get bored? normally peeps would just fall aslp... all the conversation would b lyk dead silence and both parties would be mmmmm-ing... arh-ing.... ya-ing... we talked like thrs no tmrw and we cn even go on... but considerate him suddenly rmbrs tt i hv to go sch early tmrw... hence tried convincin me to hang up and go to bed... tried a few times and finally wrked... cos i noe he is tired too... wat expresso... the expresso has long gone down ur bladder la... so stop cheng qiang-ing... haha hence hanged and im goin to slp now... tmrw will b filled wif lots of frustrations? not sure but i tink so... heikern u better not come to sch just to view the piece... im gonna lock u outside the art rm!!! haha... anw im lyk promoting u on my blog neh... wth... muz pay me for hlpin to advertise u... HAHA... LOVE YOU!!! XD

omg im finally done with my art final piece!!! as though one load of my shoulders but i stil have plenty tho... im gonna be transferrin it up the canvas tmrw... hope it wil turn out fine... too much details tho... tink wil zuo si zi ji... haixx im a sadist... yao zuo si zi ji cai gan yuan... its 4am in the morning and finali the stupid caffeine is wrkin... wat great timing -_-nevertheless im stil gonna catch some slp... i love being up at nite when alls serene and quiet... but its unhealthy of cos... and i have to battle the slp demon... RAWR!!!!!!!!! ok now im zi high-ing... too much caffeine does u crazy stuff... beats having emo tots... gona catch some slp... zzzzZZZZZ

Tongue tied- Faber Drive... nice yet irritatin...
I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say
to just make you stay?

zzzZZZ

minna~... i dunno wat greeting to make... its lyk 3 in the morning and im still up drawin... art coursework is seriously alot of wrk... and considering all my other hw... haixx its a never ending pile... stupid POS... im takin a break... no shud say im gulpin down tons of coffee and bloggin, hoping tt the sudden intake of massive caffeine would start to work... today was all weird... my mood and emotions changed lyk SNAP!!! due to a phone call again... lately its always phone calls tt wreck my day... but today's a diff person diff situation... i was shocked tt i would react tis way... it aint me... i shud b able to control my own mind instead of it wanderin towards the LA direction on its own... i seriously din noe... tot tt all was over and i would be fine but evidently not... cos if alls fine den i shudnt react tis way rite... or am i just weird? wateva it is, its over... its a decision i make and i shall stick with it... but seriously if i ponder did i regret my decision, the answer is no... cos its better for all... but maybe dumb me is just afraid to lose stuff and thus keepin things simple tis way would ensure tt tings will always be whr its suppose to... ITS OVER! SNAP OUT OF IT!!! shant act lyk a baby no more... to hell these feelins... and back to art...

眼睛为何会不知不觉的“流汗”？心已早结冰了但为何还是不能把那些“汗水”冻结呢？

minna san konbachiwa... here for a short post to try to clear my head... my heads is in a mess n i dun reali no why... nite reali does ppl harm i guess... today i missed someone... someone tt had passed on to another world due to cancer... he was a great fren and i seriously missed him... life's just so vulnerable to good peeps while evil peeps live on hell long... dun get it... dun get it at all...

o well... change of topics... the weather has been extreme these days... love the sun but not these days... its just to hot and bright... ok wth am i sayin... i sound lyk a tard... but anw take care every1... please stay healthy, cos tts the most important ting :)

look who's tokin rite? well... i promise i'll drink lots of water n try to stick to normal mealtimes :) altho im headin out for supper later... oops XD well its friday nite... gotta get a quick nap or else i guess i'll be slpin at the table... bad manners... hence i shall go take a nap... zzZZZZZ