yo peeps... here to blog... it would be wordy and it isnt interesting... so feel free to skip... firstly, would like to say that the previous few blog posts gained many views and comments... i was shocked to hear from you guys... there were a few that were really touching and some which are just nonsensical... im really thankful to those who are concerned bout how im doing... i love you guys... din wanna publish all comments cos some are private and some i prefer to contact you guys personally through other means of communication:)

and now a paragraph catered to those nonsensical ones who keep asking me bout the peeps i mention in this blog and other random nonsensical stuff... seriously stfu and get a life... the reason ive closed down blog after blog... deleting tagboards to moderating comments manually now is all because of you peeps... i seriously dont mind ppl stalking my blog... but still who i mix with, who i thank or mention on my blog, is none of your friggin business... i dun care bout what you pathetic peeps think, so keep your opinions to yourself, get a life and leave mine alone... stop hanging on to glimmers of hope of trying to control or change my mindset or my way of doing stuff... it aint gonna! and seriously if you guys really think your way is so much better or is the supposed "right way" den why is your life still so pathetically bleak? if you dun wan me to close this blog down once again or put a password to everything... you guys should seriously stfu... im not asking, im telling!

this reminds me of my previous blogs... its so annoying reading those tags that insult who i mention on my blog... and there were even taggers who fight among themselves on MY tagboard... screw those peeps... im like invincible or what? at least respect the blogger yea? i dun believe in deleting tags would solve the prob and so i decided to close down my blogs and stop giving any info on my life... this group of pathetic freaks should be thankful that im still blogging!!! urgh... even though moderating comments solve the prob of hurting my friends and creating misunderstandings, but still it sucks cos i have to read those nonsensical crap... seriously get this piece of info in your head "mess with my friends and you are so dead!"... omg i rhyme... urgh must be really pissed off to spark my lit side... keke

so anw back to my usual, was clearing my emails... logged on to one of my abandoned emails and guess wat? 2245 unread emails since april!!! beat that!!! HAHA took me quite a while to clear and read the mails...

something i have to clear up... i don't frequent msn that much anymore and so those who were wondering why im not logging on to princeton_gal936@hotmail.com... dun fret yea? i din block or delete you guys... i abandoned msn :) and as for vns_lim936@hotmail.com as stated on the right side of my blog... its my email add... but as said, abandoned msn and hence if you guys need to contact me... feel free to email me or sms me:) i have to make changes to the right... its not msn but email... just gotta clear this up:)

so on with wut up recently... my back hurt quite bad lately... wonder if its gotta do with me working out... so stopped for awhile... decided to cancel all my plans on tues cos it was hurting too much and nua-ed at home... did some reading, as usual, and some self-reflecting... not a bad thing... its what i always do once in a while... stop to think what im doing recently and what im going to do next... things start to turn ugly when i get myself to face problems of mine and others... as said in another post... im happy not because my life's perfect, im happy cos i decided to overlook imperfections... and clearly this is a time i bring myself to face the imperfections and hopefully try to solve them... but in vain...

ever surrounded by a sea of people but still just feel all alone? not exactly no one to talk to or turn to... theres actually alot of ppl around, just hard to find one who could understand and give fruitful comments... and it also depends on the problem... subject and object... felt really suffocated and lonely on tues night cos i have no one to turn to... its already bad enough with my own probs, but i believe i will solve it gradually... as for facing probs of ppl around me its hard... cos i cant consult anyone bout it... its either one doesnt understand or one just cant relate cos they dunno each other... urgh real irritating and i cant just dont care... seriously its like im looking at my friend playing with fire... everyone tells her not to... but she still wanna and things start to get outa hand... but all i can do is stand there, look at her getting burnt alive... the sick thing is that she enjoyed being burnt for now... but im sure she'll regret it in the future... and worst... its not like the fire's burning fast... its a slow torturous thing as if played in slow motion to maximise the hurting in me... im sorry for being vague and i dont even noe if it all make sense to you guys... but i have to express it this way to let out some of the feelings in me right now... seriously it pains me having to witness all this and not being able to do anything... i feel im sucha lousy fren for not being able to save her from getting hurt in the future... but what can i do if she doesnt listen to me or any of us? its so complicated and it hurts so much... no one to talk to... to share or to lean on just makes it worst... so this has been one of the major thing bugging me right now...

ytd went to ikea and had a HTHT with LS... felt so good talking to her... we spent hours talking at the eatery at ikea... even tho we last met on monday... lolx crazy eh? go ikea and spent majority of the time there talking to someone i havent seen for just one day... but i feel good cos i really need someone right now... to those idiots who are wondering who is LS... its a girl alright... urgh-_- love her! tho shes crazy at times... but me too:) haha... ate my fav swedish meatballs :) saw my former form/lit teacher... lolx she looks healthier and she say she cant recognise me le... keep asking what happen to my hair... lolx I DYED MY HAIR ALRIGHT? keke^^ cute... she looks happy with her husband... xian mu and at the same time im really happy for her... she was a good teacher... altho she keeps catching me for attire, hair and what nt... HAHA but shes good! the only teacher who can make me attentive in lit class... after she resigned... i bailed out on lit... din even fin the book and went straight for o's with confidence from who noes where? haha luckily i did great :p

nothing eventful today cos i had a visitor... stayed home all day... dun consider it nua-ing cos theres visitor -_- so not a good host eh? HAHA hanging with heihei tmrw:) we're both known for being busy peeps... so we both reserved the whole of tmrw to hang with each other:) hate sms-ing him... prefer calling... super pekcek with his smses at times... cos i dun get it... but when we talk on phone or face to face can talk non-stop wahaha!!! weird... hopin to catch a movie i've been wanting to watch and chillax the day away... he better not piss me off or anything... HAHA if not he's so dead :p

feel that i have to share something!!! if not its like illegal... HAHA jk... not that serious... so anw i did a research on jyp cos i grew curious... heard he use to be an "idol" too... keke^^ so tried to find his songs... and guess what? found one i like... a guitar accompaniment piece... i must say... im shocked by his high pitched voice... its kinda cool... coming from a guy who looks manly... kinda like kim jong kook? listen~

the lyrics of this song is so -_- the guy ought to get killed... the translation of the song name would be " i have a girl" it can be known as i already have a girlfriend... so the lyrics is talking bout him falling in love with another girl even tho he already have a girlfriend... he tot he loved his girlfriend and that he would not fall in love ever again... evidently thats gullible thinking like DUH... so now after falling in love with another girl... he is in pain cos he already got a girlfriend and hence dunno what to do... stupid eh? bad guy... what to do?!? be honest and break up with your girl la DUH! tsk...

this song is so realistic cos it can happen to anyone... so guys listen up! do not sweet talk bout loving one forever or what crap... especially hate that kinda thing... cheesy is fine if you can fulfill it... but this kinda crap are just empty promises... like yea you can live on forever... even if you can i dun think i can... lolx... speaking of this... i seriously hate guys who say things like " ~forever" "~i'll wait for you" "~only you" its like a bunch of empty promises and its real irritatin... its fine when they say stuff like "you're my everything" at least its something the guy can work on or prove that the girl is the most important one in his life or the most important issue he cares about... and another thing i totally detest is confessing over the phone or worst still... over the phone and singing... the worst of all by sms... lolx... its seriously funny and irritatin... sms totally is an off thing... over the phone is just funny and the singing is really weird, a waste of time and a huge turn off... ppl who noe me well will noe how i tend to this ppl... its really funny and heartless to some but if you were in the same situation you'll do the same... i will not write it here... but to those who wanna know, just ask:) kkaes done ranting will update and share more interesting stuff next time..

gotta slp early cos leong heihei wants me to wake up super early tmrw to have mac breakfast with him -_- i better not oversleep if not he's gonna come to my house and wake me up... HAHA at least he's coming to khatib and not me going to him early in the morning... i wouldnt have agreed in the first place if thats the case... keke^^

thought of something random... hei is NOT HAE... how i wish hei IS HAE!!! HAHA i wouldnt mind waking up early at all or him marching to my house to wake me up keke^^ double standards eh? but thats because its HAE we're talking bout keke^^ off i go~

credit: thx to xXxmarienasaurxXx for the vid... really hard to find since jyp is so underated...

xoxo

forgot to mention earlier... ive moved so much that i've became a professional packer... i pack my stuff real quick... or should i say i threw away lots of stuff... seriously people who are moving should hire me to be their packer consultant... my job scope would be sitting at the side and nod or shake my head as to which should be thrown away... HAHA...

at first, being the rebel i always have been, i din wanna bring anything, just a luggage with some clothes and necessities... told my mum im not packing... i'll just walk into the new house with my luggage as tho on a holiday and sit there while you guys get busy with unpackin your stuff... and its more convenient for me to move anytime if i wanna run... haha that's to piss my mum... but well the real reason is that, to me i can just buy new ones... and of cos, got a dressing down from my mum and i started the packing frenzy... now that i finish and their still packing... HAHA good luck! :p

heartlessly throwing out things ranging from memory-filled ones to friggin expensive ones... hope to those ive donated my stuff to... they'll put it to good use... my whole room transformed into only 5 boxes? 2boxes of clothes and the rest are just other stuff like shoes, electronics, and what not ... i cant believe i threw away my books and comics collection... only left with 4 books that i'll re-read... the most shocking thing is my wardrobe... my wardrobe is friggin small and yet i think i threw out more than 700 pieces of clothings... 6 big black bags filled with clothes... din keep much clothes as compared to what i've thrown... strategy: after i move, tell my mum no clothes... and hence SHOPPING!!! keke^^ smart or wat? and im so getting a bigger wardrobe... wonder if there's one with two rods for hanging? im so not a stack my clothes person... cos stacked clothes just turned into clothes i wun wear...

the most heartbreaking thing would be throwing out memory-filled stuff like letters,trophies, pictures, diaries, yearbooks, presents and what not... kept some cos its too valuable... but i told myself i'll throw all of them away when i leave s'pore... call me heartless but thats how things should be done... no use clinging on to memories and jog on the spot... peeps have to keep running without anything holding them back... cos if theres even a slightest bit of hesititation... it disrupts your thinking and you'll drift away from what you want... at least thats what i believe in to get what i deserve and want... but believe me i re-read all letters and re-visited all the stuff i threw... and i must say... i was once young and gullible too... who knew guys of young age could be so cheesy yet simple and cute? HAHA things were so simple back then... brought back lots good valuable memories... altho memories in physical form have been thrown aways... i swear it'll always be etched in my mind forever just in a more dim lit spot... damn here i go again like some kinda old woman...

o yea im using the adults ezlink card... make me feel damn old and diff... why must card expire... i was charged adult fare before but it feels worst not having a student ezlink... TSK!

so anw just wanna say im a good packer not a good mover like DUH! cos thats the movers job...

:p no xoxo!!!

friggin sad right now... totally feeling opposite as compared to last night... shall rant here, no sharing updates... so anyone who's not interested just dont read...

suju's on their way to s'pore... but cnt see them... rawr! din think it will really affect me but HELL YEA ITS AFFECTING ME ALRIGHT?!? im totally emo-ing away lifelessly... maybe cos im sick? home bound... i shall read and study the day away... or maybe start on the design of my new room...

yup i'll be moving real soon... to the nbsd marsilling... maybe in less than 2 weeks time? urgh... hate moving! seriously... ive moved 5 times just in singapore... not to mention inter country... why does my parents love to play around with estates so much... its friggin annoying!!! furthermore their reasons are always damn random... i shant even talk bout it anymore cos i'll be like pissed off till i cry... the first time i heard them telling me, i was so pissed that i had an asthma attack... their mentality is really unbelievable... its beyond a normal human's range... and to think maybe they'll let it go since im not accepting it in a positive way... WRONG! guess what, they already bought the house -_-

everytime i move its a new school... new environment... i tot i was getting good at goodbyes but evidently thats not the case... i learnt that its not getting good at goodbyes but forced to say goodbye and adapting to reality... so its not about getting better at it, just speeding up on the adapting part... cos the feeling still sucks big time... do i make sense? arh wateva~

so anw the house i've been living in has been one that i've lived in the longest... cant say its perfect but im very happy bout it... and now its like taking away my comfort zone... but looking on the bright side, at least i finished sec sch here right? i was super close to moving into a dorm near lasalle, telling my parents that marsilling is FRIGGIN FAR AWAY FROM LASALLE! and guess what they say... "you can always find a bf with a car... that will solve the prob..." URGH den i might as well hire a chauffeur... and then i replied "if i have a bf with a car, i'll just moved in with him... prob solved too... isnt that more convenient..." evidently they were dumbfounded, but they actually agreed... weird parents... URGH been their daughter for 17 yrs... and i still cant get what's in their brains... seriously... totally one of a kind... no scratch that... should be one pair of a kind... they are like genetically programmed for each other... eh, not quite... its just only in this kinda ruining my life thingy then YES THEY ARE GENETICALLY PROGRAMMED FOR EACH OTHER...

dropped the idea of moving into a dorm cos i'll have to pay for everything... rawr why should i waste money on that when the money i've saved are for other future purposes... so yup accepted the fact that im moving to the nbsd place... and i have to shout! ITS FRIGGIN INCONVENIENT!!! no more spc under my block... no more mrt a stone's throw away... no more good food near my house... no more calling my frens impromptu to hang at BH... FML!!! for my new house... the mrt isnt a stone's throw away at all... i'll have to take a bus.. can u blive it... my most hated tranport ever... A BUS! its friggin retarded to buy a house right in the middle of two mrt stations where you cant even walk to... and you know what's a stone throw away from my house? the malaysia custom... guess i'll frequent malaysia often when i move... i'll shop there and maybe do my grocery shopping there... cos i can walk to city square in malaysia but not to causeway point in s'pore... funny pos rite?

my parent's been talking bout the building of the mrt track or wateva that link from malaysia to singapore vice versa, trying to convince me that the move is a right move... not v sure bout it, so if i said anything wrong, feel free to correct me... so anw it seems like the track will be built 2 blocks away from my new house... making it more convenient to go to malaysia next time... but seriously, by the time its built and all done... i'll be outa the country!!! so what good is it to me?!? urgh... once again convinced... NOT! i dont friggin care bout the price of the estate would rise or wat crap... all i want is to live peacefully without all the unwanted hassle... SO STOP DRAGGIN ME INTO YOUR MERRY-GO-ROUNDS!!! im so getting outa here fast... doubt i'll stay unless something really impt holds me back...

another prob arise... we haven't even renovate the new house and im moving into it in less than two weeks time... why? evidently my parents sold this house out for a high price... LIKE DUH! its a good house and place! so yea we are moving real quick... i totally hope the renovation is slow... cos that means once again... i'll be living in a hotel!!! thinking of the hotel facilities makes me happy... HAHA! or better yet, go on a holiday? HAHA yup this is my life... screwed up but bits of cherry here and there...

haixx... im so gonna get what i want for my room... anyone who stops me will totally get a dressing down... my dad better watch out! :p always trying to tamper with my decisions... im more stubborn than you! so you can save your breath! childish parents are one of the biggest probs of my life... and speakin of that... my mum just snatched a lollipop away from me! saying that im sick so i cant eat... yea rite and there you are suckin on it... o please im having a flu... and what diff does it make whether i eat it or not... URGH!!! horrible...

tired of ranting... back to emo-ing bout the fact that i wont be able to see my donghae... din think that i'll be so sad... urgh FML!

no mood for xoxo...

yo peeps! im super happy right now and hence im blogging!!! keke^^ had dance today! indeed as i've always said dance is a natural painkiller... physically and mentally... but the hit back after dancing is always greater than before... but WATEVA!!! its all worth it!!! keke^^ got a lil motivation back cos theres newcomers^^ competitive side of me rising... its a positive thing i guess:) hope they'll continue!!! HAHA motivation motivation come back to me!!!

one great thing that made me super HAPPY was that ZY said i improved after viewing the vid of us two dancing to "last night"... improved wasnt his exact words but yea~ his words are kinda kua zhang keke^^ *u reading rite? wanna knock my head? haha can't :p keke^^* anw was really worried bout today's lesson cos im sick... yea again-_- whats new... and was having like a non-stop runny nose throughout the day... talked to Vian before dance and was saying that i fear i'll have to sniff non-stop during dance today... down lots of med and miraculously it worked a lil! THANK GOD^^ managed to download and viewed the video he sent me... why do i look so small in the vid arh? shouldnt have stood behind him!!! theres still things that i can pick on bout my perf tho... but overall im happy bout it^^ it also occurred to me that i have to do some serious thanking... have to thank ZY for "polishing" me into what i am now... cant really say a "diamond" yet cos theres still much more to learn and improve... but yea~ THANK YOU! don't think i can say that right into your face cos its sucha serious talk... but yea i really mean it... its not PCA!!! looking forward to dancing your choreo TOGETHER WITH YOU, ON STAGE, someday... its a goal of mine and im motivated to fulfill it!!! haha love you too^^

after dance met zhiyang at novena starbucks since he's still in office and said got something for me... got my drink and his, and got a ride home:) no walking!!! ^^ he got me beard papa cream puff!!! was in orchard in the evening, for lunch-_- so bought it for me:) super happy!!! only bad thing was him nagging at me bout paying for the drinks... GUYS AS USUAL~ but seriously who uses a card to pay for starbucks? crazy dude... lay off the workload and chillax alright? thx for the ride home and the cream puff!!! :)

ok enuff of me and now to the main point... this might be kinda outdated... cos i was super lazy to upload vids or pics lately... but i have to intro this! DBSK JUNSU SOLO JAPANESE SINGLE!!! i LOVE junsu's voice! he is not my fav in dbsk but i adore his voice!!! been hoping he would have a solo album since real long ago... and my wish came true again!!! keke^^ his title song is called intoxication... watch~

first look at the mv and i was like "eh? don't think its a japanese who choreo the dance" why? cos normally for jpop artiste their moves are simple and graceful... put it in a more blunt way it would be "gay"... at the end of the dance, no sweat would be seen, they still look pretty... great examples are JE artistes... but seriously they got talent... they all know gym de o!!! trained since young... so dont look down on them just because it doesnt look impressive:) its just a culture diff... so back to junsu's song... i was right! the choreographer's a korean! just japanese dancers were used... and i notice everyone's going for the sexy image now eh? fangirl moment or should i say my black-tank-moment was at round 3/4 of the mv? the start of the floor work thingy... not exactly floor work tho... who knew those moves that girls normally do can look good when junsu does it? or was it because im bias? HAHA anw im addicted to this song... but the lyrics are a lil ERRR... not suitable for the adorable and cute junsu... check it up urself if you wanna noe...

two other songs in his singles are...



its really sad *sniff sniff* yet at the same time junsu's voice is so heavenly... that's the beauty of his voice... simply breathtaking!



after hearing this song, how i wish i could tell junsu "shinpai shinaide! zutto soba ni ite!!!" HAHA^^ i guess like intoxication, its one of the ost of yoochun's new jdrama... it just aired on friday... haven watched it yet... but im super interested in it as compared to the jdrama jaejoong starred in... maybe cos yoochun's the male lead and not the supporting lead... and its the kind i like... seriously jaejoong's drama is boring... i only managed to watch till ep4 and have not seen it ever since... every ep is a drag and its like im only concentrating on jaejoong's part... focusing on how cute he looks... haha fangirl cant help it...

hot off the press!!! not really the press but well its a clip of today's starking... yup aired TODAY!!! im super updated keke^^ eunhyukkie jjang!!!

역시! 우리 dancing machine! eunhyuk's real handsome and charismatic when he dances... never fails to entertain! haha!!! 진짜 대박이다!!!

OYA! since im in a good mood i shall share more! came across a taiwan variety show... nt quite a fan of taiwan variety but this caught my eye... the theme of the day was to imitate kpop artiste dance...

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part3


part4


part5


how is it? in my opinion i love the performance of f(x) nu abo... kinda addicted to the song recently too... its suitable for the girl who performed it... cute~ haha the small rain imitation was awesome!!! haha the snsd is seriously WTF! -_- and the one who dances to taeyang's wedding dress... well all i can say is that i prefer ppl who have thicker bodies... he is sooooo skinny... he looks like he's drowning in his clothes... haha maybe a lil kua zhang but u get what i mean... speaking of dancing to taeyang's song... came across this some time ago...



this guy loves big bang... next clip is also him... but its kinda long ago...



the middle change of music part caught my full attention... HAHA i think the heartbreaker perf suits him better? cos he's skinny like GD? HAHA the makeup, hair is so WOW... but still GD is GD... he has his own unique charisma that no one can imitate:)

speaking of songs im addicted to lately... there are 2 which are very irritatinly stuck in my head... popping up at random timings... one is as mentioned nu abo by f(x)... and magic by secret...





mazik mazik mazik~~~ haha so cute lo their pronunciation... yup this two songs are stuck in my mind... maybe cos i stay tuned to music bank, music core and inkigayo recently for suju's perf... and they happen to be promoting too... so keep listening... its tune and dance etched in my mind right now... theres also a ballad in my mind recently by 8eight... i personally feel that this group is real unique:) furthermore the mv starring 2pm's NICKHUN!!! its like the cherry on top keke^^



love the conversation kinda way of singing... great ballad! shall do more research on this group soon:)

ok guess im done for the day... theres so much more i wanna share but i cant rmbr... keke^^ caffein wearing off? i should turn in... gonna have sweet dreams tonight! im so happy~~~ oya! everyone please stay healthy, the flu is going around recently, so drink more water and stay healthy!!!

ps: i mentioned in a post when i was introducing suju's boom boom that it was choreographed by eunhyuk... i learnt that eunhyuk AND SHINDONG choreo-d it instead of eunhyuk only... correction yea? ^^

credits: Mrfunnvids, leleexx, akosivane, sugoishowV, sment, 2istedStRsPro, t2ssubs

thx for all the wonderful vids... hope din miss out any uploaders...

xoxo

yo peeps... short update... theres so much things to update you guys bout but im super lazy to... HAHA anw here to say that SNSD's Taeyeon was spotted in Singapore today! weird eh? it seems like shes here on vacation... and was spotted by fans, hence was stalked by fanboys and made it up the trend list on twitter... poor her... please fellow singaporeans, give her some space if you want her or other kpop celebs to come to SG... shes on HER VACATION!!! why stuff your cam right in her face with freakin FLASHLIGHT!!! and why shout her name? im sure she noes her name alright? HAIXX seriously leaving a bad impression... now im worried bout Suju's arrival...

TSK speaking of it... yup suju is coming in for a showcase this sunday. 6th june... to get the tickets you have to buy the samsung galaxy phone from singtel... and i think sign a 2 yr contract? heard it cost round a thousand bucks... and its not for sure u get the tics... u just get a CHANCE in winning one pair... bummer eh? seriously why must their first visit to singapore be like this? and im so not gonna accompany my fren to the airport just to see suju walk past me while squeezing with crazy fans... totally not appealing!!! even for DONGHAE, its not... seriously hate crowds and noises... if i have a chance to see them... i would like a chair to myself and at least some personal space to enjoy their performance... and its not 100% will see them o! they could always use another route like what happen at the malaysia airport... and given my height, i doubt i can see anything even with heels... RAWR! so anw its going to suck not being able to see them even tho they are in the same country... TSK! i seriously fans, don't scare them off... i seriously hope they'll come here for SS3^^ so PLEASE LEAVE A GOOD IMPRESSION!!!

anw life's been pretty busy for me here and there... just came home from dinner today... the asian kitchen is GOOD!!! haha love their pork prawn filling xiao long pau!!! i ate like 8 of them? with pork chop fried rice and mango sago dessert keke^^ its damn good!!! just that their chinese tea is just the norm... no choices as to which chinese tea u wan... but o well... overall for the xiao long pau... its totally worth it!!! HAHA gotta hit the gym or exercise more... going for a run tmrw morning... den its shopping in the afternoon!!! bought 2 pairs of shoes earlier at raffles place... yup raffles place neh! weird place to get anything... lucky or wat?^^ life's great! for now that is...

peeps been asking that i seem happier nowadays... well im happy not because life's perfect... im happy cos i've learnt to overlook the imperfections... well maybe still learning... but thats a start rite?

ps: will update with vids real soon yea? feelin kinda lazy recently :p pardon me^^

xoxo