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Year ends is always a time for reflecting, dreaming and even reminiscing... yesterday, was a day of randomness... head for dance, was super early... reached lavender mrt yet went to the opp and took the train back to bugis for starbucks, due to some sudden caffeine craving... On the way home, reached my stop... alighted yet walked back to the park some distance away from home... spent at least an hour just sitting in the park reflecting, dreaming and reminiscing before heading back home... Reached home at around 1.30 in the morning and totally just dropped dead after i shower...

yesterday i also thought that someone should invent a universal mute button or a universal pause button... often at times, i just wanna mute all the noises and conversations happening around me... definitely not because it is super vexing or frustrating... but just some serenity would be nice at some point... it would be even more perfect if i could just hit pause and everything around me would come to a halt... i guess for everyone, there ought to be moments that one wishes to stay at forever... if only life comes along with a remote tied to it...

oh yea, before i forget, i wanna blog this down since i rmbr right now... some time back on the bus back home... there were two people conversing, not in terms of verbal communication but by using sign language... finding it interesting and duh i had nth else to do or look at on the bus... hence i kept looking at them... I was so intrigued by their conversation even though they couldnt converse out loud, they were extremely expressive... Using facial expressions, body language along with sign language... I actually could understand a lil of their conversation, without the details of cos... This led me on to wondering if they were to be able to speak out verbally, would they be as expressive as they are now? As for those of us who are fortunate enough to be gifted with the talent to speak... is it because we are able to, hence we've neglected other ways of expressions?

So, in the end, are we considered to have something more as compared to them, like how all normally assume, or are we at the losing end?

Another random thought would be, will they make a better performer than us? given their expressiveness, ability to effectively convey messages across without verbal communication... i bet they're much better! but does one really have to lose something to realise that things should not be taken for granted? guess there's really no cure for that until someone looses something precious, starts regretting and realizing that life's a bitch eh?

ever since xmas07, times nearing xmas are always like that for me... thinking, thinking and more thinking... not emo-ing but just purely thinking deeper than usual...

ironically, all year round, only in the coldest season will the frozen heart of mine melt and start weakening again... gusts of strong winter wind will then whirl up a tornado in my heart, causing a mess... and as the season pass by, it's time to clean up the mess and freeze my heart back into how it should be...

i guess, with each passing year, the cycle will still carry on... even though things didnt get easier with each passing year like how i expected it to be, i still never once regretted any decisions i made... im proud of myself and i still love xmas... xmas will always be a mark for each year, a reminder that i've loved, discovered, realised, fell, grew and not doubted the decisions i've made...

remembered the times when i was watching armageddon and listening to aerosmith... so powerful... yet at times it was just too overpowering... found this ver. and i thought it was really soothing... yet the lyrics still does magic after all this years... say what, 12 years?


song i've been listening to recently... along with the mv, it's really sad... 2am's great!!! shall blog more about them next time~

xoxo