konbachiwa... today sucks... these days suck so much tt i transforming into emo kid... shinjirarenai...

anw just here to make a wish... and to thank someone who was always thr for me for the past month... keepin me company tru nites of chiongin art... buy and store boxes of cream puff everyday... and deliverin them to my doorstep on stressful days when im being unreasonable... only u would think of such a way to satisfy my stupid cravins for cream puffs at midnight...

not long ago, i asked u during a phonecall tt its not lyk i would wana eat cream puff everyday, so wat happens to all the other cream puffs and i rmbred u said u ate those cos u knew if u hadnt i would be like "think u got alot money jiu cn buy and throw away izit?" But i know u dun fancy dem cos u nvr liked sweet stuff.

and if not for you i guessed i would have broken down long ago with all the shit happening... cos u was always thr to force positive vibes into me... and shouldered all the negativity...

i was glad u came back even if its just a month and that u have to go again... even tho stubborn me chose to stick to my choice... lettin u go again wasnt an easy task... and i noe its the same for u... hence today i wasnt able to see u off at the airport... i just could not bring myself to...

all in all... i did not regret having u back in my life for the month... once again, it tells me how much i treasure u as a fren... so please stay safe, healthy and happy.

Even tho u, being an anti-blog person, wouldnt read this... which is exactly my pt... i would still like to say Thx D.

konbachiwa... here to lash out all the negativity im feelin... im tired... all the shit happenin around me... and tryin to act like its fine is really getting in on me after having lived tt way for 16 yrs... lucky i have frens who keep my head clear instead of it steering its own into the dark side... but seriously i feel dumb... haven i learnt my lesson after 16 freakin yrs? the ans is no i have not... and seriously i wonder why... mayb im just a masochist... or just plain dumb... what was i even expecting from dem... mayb i just loved the few secs of joy and thinkin tt hey dey arent tt bad or dey changed... F no... and rite i shudnt think tt dey arent tt bad... i shud b thinking hey finally im gd enough for dem... and even tho now im at the place i wanted to be at and with the person i wanted to be with most... i dun feel a little relief at all... at least i dun allow myself to... all of this is endin soon so why depend on it... why think that its a happy picture when alls gonna burn up the next second... in the end i'll just feel as miserable as the last time... gettin me no where... its the same as not improvin which sucked... seriously, i gotta learnt...

POA: do not ask an sick guy or comment "are you crazy?" it gets you nowhere cos insane peeps will just say " im crazy bout u" cheesy but hey its stil happening now alright... sick ppl stil do exist... watchout...

minna~ here to update on current feelins... its lyk 1.18 in the mornin and im still not aslp... prelim2 resumes tmrw... haixx... most dreaded physics n amaths... heck la... no drive anw... too much stuff on my mind...

anw got to noe tt my yamapi is down with flu!!! when i heard... i was lyk damn worried... yea typical fangirl... but cnt hlp it... luckily it wasnt the h1n1... guess he has been busy with drama filmin and 24hr teleV programme ba... tts y after the 24hr TV ryo and him fall sick? haixx... all fangirls must be so worried now...

enuff of fangirl moments... wanna say tt last nite had a v weird dream... a dream tt i wun talk in detail... just plain weird... wish i had this decipher tingy for dreams... aint a nitemare lyk the ones i always get... considered a gd dream? with characters tt are quite distant from me now... v weird... and it has lyk diff chaps of same person? damn freaky lo... once again... its not a nitemare!!! tts wats freaky... cos i normally either have nitemares or dun hv dreams... im a dreamless person... and normally for nitemares i cn easily figure dem out as its normally bout the same probs ive been dwellin on... but this dream was diff... how weird... feel like sharin... but as to not cause misunderstandins... i shall keep mum... but anw woke up this morning in a happy mood de... cos of the dream... ridiculous but true... but it din last long la... too much on my mind till the good vibes arent enuf as a distraction... stil... i would like to get to the bottom of this dream... haha... maybe its a sub conscious tingy? aiya wakaranai... i shall go slp le... wonder if i will have the same dream?

oyasumi~~~ ashita ganbarimasu...

ohaiyo~ its real early and im postin... haha now its 6.42am on a tuesday morning... just wana random post... cos stupid me woke up early on a tuesday!!! suppose to go to school at 8.30 and i woke up at 5.30... wat a retard... arh whateva... prelims2 period now... today is ENGLISH!!! yay!!! haha... been really busy this few weeks tryin to get my olvl art coursewrk done as it dues friday... which clashes with all the prelims exams... so prelims priority or art? really in a dilemma last week... but well greedy me is goin to juggle both!!! so i guess on friday evening i'll be dead at hme la... damn dumb lo... the person who pai the timetable... hate the person... after friday got lyk 4 days holi? til next paper? for wat la!!! den need to rush my art which clash with prelims?!? *^$%*^%&*^%!@#$ urgh!!! haixx shant complain much... cos if i reali do... this whole post is just not enough... wateva it is... ganbarimasu!!! guo le jiu shi wo de le!!! Yoshi!!!

minna~ konbawa~ kyou wa ureshii desu... actually ive been feelin happy since ytd... haha... nt so much bout the fact tt prelim1 is over but much more the fact tt i slpt for 21 hrs str8 and the luck i had :) haha... yup tts rite 21 hrs... cos wed was my las exam day... havin chem n phy p1 and art... on tues nite... chiong art prep... til morning... nvr slp o... the mi jue is to gulp down 3 doze of chicken essence, 2 bottles of coke and a few cups of coffee... haha...it wrks... but was so cui after my art paper... hence head str8 back hme without da bao-in anything back to eat... bathe, touched my bed and immediately unconscious... haha... it was round 1 in the aftrnn? and the next ting i noe was to wake up at 10 the next day... cool huh? quite a gd way to jian fei and safe money on food neh? haha... anw thurs was a school day... but cos i fin all my papers... i dun nid go sch!!! wahaha!!! went out shoppin wif LS...

went to lots places lo... but in the end bought clothes at marina... AND... thrs tis cute caucasian salesman... of skincare products ba... he stopped us and gave us samples... he asked how old were we... answered 16 and he was lyk kinda shock? cos we dun look 16 from the way we dress... so he was lyk... ooo tis could b kinda costly... i was shock lo... whr got ppl say their products costly de... so i tot he was quite nice and real... and den he said if we wana hear on or something lyk tt la... we answerd its okay... we're fine... so we said our goodbyes and he was all frenly and such saying "bye my supermodels!" haha so cute lo... LS and i were lyk tinkin in wat way are we considered models? we dun even hav one basic tingy which is height... haha...the most is lyk those cover models? cos no1 cn judge our height and alot of photoshop cn b done... haha... seriously he is cute... and not lyk typical salesperson hu insist their products are affordable and tt when u say u r nt interested their face turns black lyk immediately... cute salesperson made my day!!! and to emphasise more on my luck... i crossed many roads tt day... but all traffic lights turn green whenever i reach the crossing... super zhun de... haha... tis might seem trivia... but well i hate waitin for the lil green man... especially at orchard... it usually takes centuries... i aint kiddin... went hme quite early... cos have to eat dinner den go out for Ksession... fun as usual... head hme at an "illegal hr" haha

ok today... well started off bad... cos got sch and im sufferin from lack of slp... day started wif tests... right after prelims... wth rite? i noe~ after tt kinda free... so had tis QnA bout harry potter wif my pro frens... dey are lyk loyal fans... i din read the book so i have many doubts... but dey are able to answer any qns... cool!!! salute! aftr sch... went BH for lunch cos 2.45 got chem sup... urgh a whole 2 hrs b4 supp... such a waste of tym... in the end reach hme at roun 4 plus when actuali my day shud end at 12 plus... its a friday for goodness sake... urgh nvm... chnged and went out again... met my bro at raffles place... damn funny... he was lyk in front of me and i din see him... he had to wave into my face... den i notice... haha... anw we were both listenin to mp3 wif earpiece stuck in our ears and both wif shades indoors... tis proves we're siblings!!! haha... waited for mum to fang gong... so walked round wif him... den met mum and went for dinner... after tt bro went hme 1st and mum and me went shoppin!!! got shoes a top and some other stuff... den STOMACHACHE!!! damnit... always lyk tt de lo... irritatin... i tot i was gonna faint... lyk cramp... bt not lo... so i had to shorten my shoppin trip and cab hme... mum agreed and we were lyk lookin for the taxi stand... at tt tym at wisma... went over to a security and asked... he was super nice!!! but im mean... haha... tricked him... owell... white lie... he was lyk "follow me... i'll bring you guys to the taxi stand." mum and i exchanged looks... tinkin y is he so nice... haha... den on the way up to the taxi stand ppl keep lookin at us... lyk y got security escortin us... haha... and mayb i looked lyk a foreigner... wif the already fair skin... wearin white which reflects light onto my face... makin it even fairer... and wearin big shades indoors... haha... indeed today alot ppl stared cos i wore shades and my dressin ba... nvr see b4 meh? lolx... anw the security guard oso ask my mum.... "are u guys foreigners? is she a japanese?" and pointed at me... haha... so happy to hear tt neh... haha... mum din reali react just smiled... he reali did escort us to the taxi stand... mum said thx and i said "domo arigatou ne" wif a lil bow/nod tingy... HAHA and he was lyk smiling... wif other ppl starin again... im sry tt i trickd u... honto gomen... but reali happy cos u tot i jap mah... and dun wana pour wet water... gomenasai~ u reali v nice o! haha... anw hop on a cab... and the driver is GOOD! fast and smooth... just wat i need comfort and speed... thnk god... reach hme real soon... lucky eh? bathe,rest and now sittin on bed... bloggin... haha :) LS just msged me... said to book my time for shoppin after prelim2... book early in case i sold out... haha i hot cake arh? say til lyk i object... haha... k lah... been really happy tis few days neh... learnt to search for "small happiness in everday life" a phrase by yamapi which he belives in too!!! haha k lah... minna oyasumi~ stay happy and healthy!!! tts the most impt...

ps: update on buzzer beat... yamapi did not propose... he ask his "gf" if he win the final bball match would she marry him? but he did nt win... so haha!!! sad tt he didnt win... but happy tt he did not marry her... she baddie de!!! GTH ba... super ji dong...

pps: danceless days are excruciating... just lyk the excruciating pain in my back... urgh...

minna~ just watched buzzer beat~gakeppuchi no hero, yamapi's new drama... EEEHHHHH??? haha yup i watchd it on 13/7/09 at 8pm singapore time... 9pm japan time... which is the same as any other japanese... NANDE??? haha cos i downloaded a streamin tingy online... streams fuji tv wich is the channel the drama is airin... wahaha... hence its lyk watchin the real tingy... just tt the quality sucks and it lags lyk !%%^&*&^%$#@ jodan janai... i was lyk URGH, frustrated... but nvm... cn see yamapi's face enuf le... haha XD serious neh... who cn go on wif lousy audio n pixels everywhr now n den for 1.5 hr? me lo... for wat? yamapi lo!!! haha... im lyk so smart neh... found this tingy... haha... pei fu wo zi ji... HAHA BHB...

anw for buzzer beat~gakeppuchi no hero review... due to no subs... duh cos its the real 1st ep... i cnt reali understand fully... and due to the stupid quality... i had to so called refresh every now n den... missin bits n pieces here n thr... so im gonna say bout the scenes i rmbr... the show started wif a bball match... yamapi got tis free throw tingy... penalty or wat la... but he missed... :( lyk as told he could not work wif pressure... but stil his team mate scored in lyk the las few secs? n so dey won... thank god... next scene tt i rmbr was yamapi was on the bus wif his fren... he hlped an elderly lady neh... so sweet... haha... but when he got off the bus he left his fone on the bus... so he ran after the bus... sot lo... he ran alot neh... poor him... must be run alot tyms de lo... but got back his fone la in the end... another scene was him n his few frens ba... dey sudd comparin bout their shen cai... haha... OMG LA!!! yamapi's body is lyk perfect!!! O.O haha... sure alot fangirls out thr lyk me all stared in awe... mouth open wide wide de... and thr was tis scene where he had to either put on his jersey or take off ba... den thr was tis take on his back... OMG!!! i swear i cn lyk die in peace liao... haha maybe too kua zhang... but round thr lo... as alot noe... i have tis ting for guys with nice backs... si xue lo... haha... i sound lyk sum perv now... lolx... but peeps hu noe me will noe wat i referrin to la... oya!!! thr was a scene whr he said bout gettin married? i dunno whether i listened rongly or wat but it seems lyk he was proposin to his "gf" in the show la... duh... played by aibu saki... but then she made out wif another guy!!! GTH la stupid girl... haha... i tink it was more den making out as i saw a scene where she buttoned her shirt? but thr was too much pixels so i had to refresh... so not sure... stupid girl... have yamapi stil go make out wif another guy... ugly guy summor... INSANE!!! shinjirarenai!!! haha mayb im the one tts insane... gettin worked up for a show.. haha... but anw yamapi is goin to fall for another girl la... the stupid girl deserves it!!! hmph!!! haha... and i guess tts all i rmbr? haha... stm... gomen...

aftr the show... no lag le neh... #$%&*&^%$# but i guess everyone stopped streamin after the show la... duh... but!!! saw an ad featurin koki and JIN!!! haha bakanishi cho kakkoi datte yamapi wa ichiban kakkoi desu!!! gomen~ haha... damn shuai de la... both... now smap smap is on... and another shuai ge... kimura takuya!!! im so lucky n smart neh? onli smart at tis kinda tings... academic jiu cui... arh... prelims today was hell... dun bother tokin bout it le... ruin my good mood... tmrw another hell... but i shall ganbatte neh? haha looking forward to subs!!! yamapi daisuki!!!

ps: i may be the 1st one to blog bout buzzer beat~gakeppuchi no hero neh... haha...

みんな　おやすみ~ あたしわがんばります
やまp　元気ね？　すきだよ～

みんな！！！ i cn type in jap ne! haha how smart am i... next i'll try to see if fone cn type in jap... haha... got so many languages no jap neh... dumb fone... k la... お休み～～～

やまp　大好き！！！　：）

minna~ just wana say i cnt wait for wkends... HAHA no big date no nothing... but i need my beauty slp... i shall slp for 12 hrs or more... haha... this few days real stressed out due to prelims1... puttin my focus on stuff i normally dun... so kinda tough ba... every day slp for round 3 hrs is hell... but well i will not be brought down cos im lyk iron lady rite? haha... maji de... iron lady will only rust after the war is over de... even tho lukin forward to weekends... nxt wk prelims1 will cont... nt over yet... but hu cares? now i just reali wan my slp... turnin to zombie le lo... cho tsukareta to nemui~~~ datte gambarimasu!!!

oya! today olvl chinese oral... not bad neh... altho the chers dun seem frenly... my kao guan smiled at me and seemed interested... den i made the other one smile at me... haha sorta lyk force ba? cos she was lookin at her paper tingy den i turned to her and talked to her too... flashin my big wide smile... haha... no choice have to smile back la duh~~~ haha crappy qns... but hu cares? so long i managed to crap up some stuff and dey seemed happy... maybe cos i say bout "爱的教育" haha it just came to my mind... amazed at how crappy i cn b neh... summore i still prepared shi jie xin wen for wat? damnit... waste of my time neh... but anw shud b quite safe la... ureshii na~~~

crappin and procrastinatin to go back to the books... but i shall not procrastinate le la... will blog properly tmrw ba? have lots on my mind tis few days... nt onli those irritatin formulas but other stuff... will blog bout dem if i rmbr :) stm mah...

k la shall hit the books again... hit til it dies... and til im dead beat... both die tgt... haha lame... c wat side effects studyin and not dancing does to me? urgh... kkaes minna oyasumi~~~ genki da yo, yakusoku~

ps: listenin to this song by tegomass... old song in NEWS touch album... song name... ZUTTO... the lyrics v nice o... and i lyk the song arrangement... similar to kiss kaerimichi no love song ba... got story de... tts y i both oso lyk... postin lyrics up...

romanji:
Hoshi kuzu wo chiribameta sora no shita wo aruita kaeri michi
Futari kiri mada sukoshi gikochi nakute kaiwa mo togiregachi dakedo

Tsunaida te to te tsunagaru jikan kimi no kotoba no hitotsu hitotsu kara
Tsutawaru omoi ima nimo nakidashi sou na hitomi ni dekiru koto

Hoshi tachi mo mite iru kono basho de
Kimi no koto tsuyoku dakishimete itai kara
Zutto zutto soba ni ite
Kimi ga iru sore dake de yasashiku nareru kara

Nando demo ima nara iesou na kotoba
Sore demo mada ienakute

Doa made no kyori sukoshi kono te wo hanasu toki
Omowazu kata wo hikiyoseta mou sukoshi dake koko ni iyou

Hoshi tachi mo mite iru kono basho de
Kimi no koto tsuyoku dakishimete itai kara
Zutto zutto soba ni ite
Kimi ga iru sore dake de yasashiku nareru kara

Nando demo ima nara iesou na kotoba
“Zutto issho ni itai” to

Translation:
Walking home under the sky embedded with stardust
It’s just the two of us, it’s still a bit awkward, our conversations still don’t flow well yet

We walk hand in hand, time connects us, because of every single one of your words
The feelings you want to express can be seen now in your eyes as you seem about to cry

We can even see the stars in this spot
Because I want to always be holding you tightly
I will always, always be with you
Because just having you here is enough to make me be gentler

The words I could say so many times to you now
But I still haven’t said them yet

There’s only a short distance to your door, I’ll have to let go of your hand soon
I put my arm around your shoulders unconsciously, I want to be with you here a little longer

We can even see the stars in this spot
Because I want to always be holding you tightly
I will always, always be with you
Because just having you here is enough to make me be gentler

The words I could say so many times to you now
“I always want to be with you”

kawaii ne? the yi jing v cute... so pure and innocent lo... cho kawaii... OK LA~~~ long PS... oyasumi...

pps: zutto isshoni itai? honto da? zettai shinjirarenai...

minna konbawa~ wanted to post on the first 3 days back at sch... TORTURE!!! haha new timetable and thrs lyk this 3 period straight in one day... totalli excruciatin... not to mention tons of hw and the upcoming prelimns... anw i realised lots of tings in these few days... but i shant go into the emo sides of it... one realisation is one tt i've always known... which is if thrs a start thrs always an end... but i realise mayb tts the tings tts holdin me back? makin me reluctant to accept new stuff... cos the tot of startin somethin which would eventually end scares me... so in order not to lose anything i rather not have anythin in the 1st place... tts wat ive always tot... but i guess i shant keep this mindset at all... cause without startin i would always b running on the spot... tts one cowardly act tt i always wanna change... another kinda cowards tt i encounter is many aroun me who starts something... and when it ends... it seems like their world crumbled... i guess this is oso another reason y i dun even wana start anything... judgin from ppl around me... it may not seem lyk a good idea to follow their steps... and furthermore i always have to be a shelter for dem whenever their world starts crumblin down... so i cnt afford to crumble wif dem... or mayb its the competitive me inside tt is afraid to face the fact tt mayb im not tt strong afterall... and tt my world cn go crumblin down into rubble within secs... so mayb im the zui coward de? thus i conclude such realisations are bo liao... gets u no whr... cos no one reali have a perfect solution... oya! thrs no such ting as perfect... godamnit... RMBR TT!!! which brings me to another topic... how cn a perfectionist be perfect when tings arent suppose to b perfect in the 1st place? my art cher always tells me not to b a perfectionist when it comes to art... but its a bad habit i cnt chnge... so someone please save me... HAHA XD enough of the realisation dumb tots tingy...

fri is the start of prelims 1... im doomed for sure... no drive to do stuff i dun lyk... but o well... i found a source of motivation somehow... little one la... cos my own tots still overweigh everything... haha... but tt motivation somehow is quite magical... i din tot it would wrk... but it sure did... yay! so im gonna try to enjoy studyin... lyk wth rite? yea im turnin into a geek for the upcoming months... lyk ive always said durin SYF periods or any hard times... "ao guo jiu shi wo men de!!!" haha... hence... im gonna be ENDURING DANCELESS DAYS... TURNING INTO MUGGER PHASE... urgh... so off to hit the fun and interesting textbooks... yea rite... i myself aint convinced at all... o well...

ps: please stay healthy everyone :)
pps: jazmond tt bo liao person say must mention him on my blog... here u are... HAHA super ENG lo u... geniuses no nid study... onli hang at jammin studio all tt cn ACE everything... gth la... :p
ppps: pardon my eng today... kinda weird to phrase my tots today neh... duno y... mayb cos in bloggin wif eyes half open? and my brain is in lala land? o well tym for caffeine intake...

oyasumi~

minna~ im bloggin at 4 once again... was doin my colour layout for my final piece... actualli i fin it round 1 plus but was on the fone wif Heikern... till bout now... if he sees this his gonna nag again... cos i sorta say i would go to slp... haha well i wil slp after tis entry... anw heikern i love u man!!! XD u are lyk my savior cos we are always on the same freq... givin me ideas and stuff... stuff tt i wouldnt tink off but i would agree to... the idea for my art finals was givin by him... a v pure idea... without much thinkin to it... and out comes my final piece... improvised ver of his idea and diff from wat he imagined... he liked the pic so much tt he puts it as wallpaper? ever his sis requested him to sent it to her and she too switched it to wallpaper... im so flattered... and thx for all the compliments!!! anw he is lyk this livin mindmap or wrdsplash... haha formulates ideas for me... and besides tt he just spent hours tokin to me while givin me advices from his pov... which happens to b a point i lack... being not an art person... he gives lots of comments which i could wrk on... and me bein more technical in these stuff... i tend to worry bout stuff tt would not wrk... so yea i love u... and i noe u noe tt... haha and durin the art talk... we sidetracked and talk bout more crazy stuff... which may seems crazy to lots ppl but its normal talk for us... tts y i say we're on the same freq... both of us have ideas which soun dumb but actuali logical n we love to dream big... love talkin to him... even tho we might not be in contact all the time... but he is one of the few ppl i would go to for hlp and advices... as considerate as ever... i noe he always means well for me... and we could talk non stop... like today talked for bout 5 hrs... straight o... who the hell cn talk for 5 hrs without break and not get bored? normally peeps would just fall aslp... all the conversation would b lyk dead silence and both parties would be mmmmm-ing... arh-ing.... ya-ing... we talked like thrs no tmrw and we cn even go on... but considerate him suddenly rmbrs tt i hv to go sch early tmrw... hence tried convincin me to hang up and go to bed... tried a few times and finally wrked... cos i noe he is tired too... wat expresso... the expresso has long gone down ur bladder la... so stop cheng qiang-ing... haha hence hanged and im goin to slp now... tmrw will b filled wif lots of frustrations? not sure but i tink so... heikern u better not come to sch just to view the piece... im gonna lock u outside the art rm!!! haha... anw im lyk promoting u on my blog neh... wth... muz pay me for hlpin to advertise u... HAHA... LOVE YOU!!! XD

omg im finally done with my art final piece!!! as though one load of my shoulders but i stil have plenty tho... im gonna be transferrin it up the canvas tmrw... hope it wil turn out fine... too much details tho... tink wil zuo si zi ji... haixx im a sadist... yao zuo si zi ji cai gan yuan... its 4am in the morning and finali the stupid caffeine is wrkin... wat great timing -_-nevertheless im stil gonna catch some slp... i love being up at nite when alls serene and quiet... but its unhealthy of cos... and i have to battle the slp demon... RAWR!!!!!!!!! ok now im zi high-ing... too much caffeine does u crazy stuff... beats having emo tots... gona catch some slp... zzzzZZZZZ

Tongue tied- Faber Drive... nice yet irritatin...
I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say
to just make you stay?

zzzZZZ

minna~... i dunno wat greeting to make... its lyk 3 in the morning and im still up drawin... art coursework is seriously alot of wrk... and considering all my other hw... haixx its a never ending pile... stupid POS... im takin a break... no shud say im gulpin down tons of coffee and bloggin, hoping tt the sudden intake of massive caffeine would start to work... today was all weird... my mood and emotions changed lyk SNAP!!! due to a phone call again... lately its always phone calls tt wreck my day... but today's a diff person diff situation... i was shocked tt i would react tis way... it aint me... i shud b able to control my own mind instead of it wanderin towards the LA direction on its own... i seriously din noe... tot tt all was over and i would be fine but evidently not... cos if alls fine den i shudnt react tis way rite... or am i just weird? wateva it is, its over... its a decision i make and i shall stick with it... but seriously if i ponder did i regret my decision, the answer is no... cos its better for all... but maybe dumb me is just afraid to lose stuff and thus keepin things simple tis way would ensure tt tings will always be whr its suppose to... ITS OVER! SNAP OUT OF IT!!! shant act lyk a baby no more... to hell these feelins... and back to art...

眼睛为何会不知不觉的“流汗”？心已早结冰了但为何还是不能把那些“汗水”冻结呢？

minna san konbachiwa... here for a short post to try to clear my head... my heads is in a mess n i dun reali no why... nite reali does ppl harm i guess... today i missed someone... someone tt had passed on to another world due to cancer... he was a great fren and i seriously missed him... life's just so vulnerable to good peeps while evil peeps live on hell long... dun get it... dun get it at all...

o well... change of topics... the weather has been extreme these days... love the sun but not these days... its just to hot and bright... ok wth am i sayin... i sound lyk a tard... but anw take care every1... please stay healthy, cos tts the most important ting :)

look who's tokin rite? well... i promise i'll drink lots of water n try to stick to normal mealtimes :) altho im headin out for supper later... oops XD well its friday nite... gotta get a quick nap or else i guess i'll be slpin at the table... bad manners... hence i shall go take a nap... zzZZZZZ

minna san konnichiwa... bloggin in the morning as i hv nth to do n i tend to slack at hme today to rest... im aching all over due to dancing for 3 days... but i aint gonna complain!!! i rather have dance everyday n ache everyday den to hv normal daes... haha... abit of a masochist in a way... ecp was hell!!! i was sick on a fri n mon... so i had a long weekend without hw... but when i got back to sch on tues... i nearly fainted... stacks of hw piled up to sky high... and thr were lyk 3 ppl hlpin to sort out my hw? aint exaggeratin... and to make matters worst some are already dued or the deadline is just the next day... i was in such a dilema tt i din noe wich subject to start on 1st... addin on to my art coursework, i seriously was at a lost... in the end i cleared my chem in a day... a few pract paper... HELL!!! 2nd day i cleared physics and ss... which was a few phy prac paper and ss sbq and ss test... its an idiot proof test though... wich actualli is quite hard... the las tym we did an idiot proof test... it did declare us all idiots... demoralisin... but tis tym i scored a full mark!!! haha next i tried clearin my double maths n art... stil in the process cause hw just keep piling up... at the end of the whole ecp... every subject has a diff pile of hw... i duno how im gonna do it but im happy tt the stressful week was over... did scared lots of peeps cos i was super cui everyday... imagine havin just recovered from food poisonin n den everyday slp at 1 plus and wake up at 4 to continue on hw.... EVERYDAY O... tinkin back i duno how i did it... and manage to not faint at sch... on the las day of ecp, the minute i went hme, i slpt lyk a dead log.. my mum tot i had commited suicide... choy la!!! anw thx for every1 tt has been puttin up wif my grumpy attitude durin tt week:) its over!!! haha

after ecp had dance on monday... but had to leave at noon to accompany my mum go walk walk as she specially took an off day to spent it wif me... so monday din reali dance much but seein laoshi made my day... stil rmbr durin ecp when juniors had dance and we dropped by durin recess... hasnt seen laoshi in a long tym hence i was all emotional... firstly cos i missed him and tt secondly i missed my cute juniors... and last of all i wana dance la!!! who wouldnt choose dance if compared to facin borin lessons and piles of dued-hw? super bui tahan de... wasnt even payin attention in class... haha XD tues had dance prac too... i wonder y thr were so many guest? haha but they sure brought lots of laughter... inside joke la... haha... after lesson laoshi along wif dem left, Vian n me head to BH for lunch... pan fried fish:) yummy haha!!! so fortunate to have a decent restaurant near sch... after tt immediately head back to sch and laid in ava rm lyk a corpse due to bad cramps... others were preparin for the bbq in the evenin... durin the bbq... all was well ba... just tt i was havin cramps so din enjoyed myself... watched our syf vid!!! and i kope from chers comp... haha... good to brin ur usb all aroun and havin an 8gb mcard... heres the vid :)

spot the errors? the 2 suckers! serve u right sia :p bleahx! i feel tt laoshi is the genius la... without those perfect lightings it wouldnt look gd... back to the bbq... invited some guest but onli 1 came... haha he even got lost o :) wahaha... the bbq ended on a quiet note and mayb a sad 1 as i was tokin to some1 bout sometin... became a cousellor... aftr tt when to frens hse to hlp sew clothes... WTH rite... haha but nvm at least he fetch me to n fro... wich is ying gai de... good luck for ur project :) at last hme sweet hme... chatted n msn wif a bunch of peeps n couldnt go to bed... to high le... thx to someone who introduced some techno songs to me... haha :)

ytd was KUNYANG's BDAY!!! happy bday o! went to his party but had to leave early la... so sry neh... hpe u lyk all the presents :) next when to ZY's dance class... and i was LATE!!! cnt bliv it... so paiseh la... sry... i wasnt the last but stil late!!! urgh... class was lyk super good!!! altho had to ate med to stop the cramps but it was worth it:) so long nvr pia le lo... cock here n thr but o well... haha... dance reali made my day... thx neh ZY!!! aftr tt actuali wana catch a movie but din... so ate wif Vian wich was my 1st meal of the day n chatted for super long... after tt she had to rush off... hope ur grandma is feelin better :) dunno y made me worried too lo...

the worst part of the day was tt stupid fone call... damnit... hai si ren... almost caused my life as yea i guo ma lu bu kan lu la... dumb bliv i was stronger den the cars... well at least im stil alive? haha den selfish me made a dumb sms n make another person feel bad... along with me... wth was i tinkin... no, shud say my mind wasnt even tinkin at tt tym... suck! so selfish lo... damnit... SRY NEH!!! u noe hu u r... n stop rawrin... at least i nvr type out ur name :) but reali wana apologise la... rong to b so selfish n bein such an ass... but cnt b hlp cos mayb im an ass aftrall... who noes? n i shud hv tot tt mayb u had sum rough tyms too n tt i shudnt hv been so selfish... arh goddamnit... but i noe u wil forgiv me de la rite :) haha :P super bhb... but anw feelin better now as the prob is still a prob wich cnnot b resolved... well unless i die la... but i wouldnt die b4 tt dumb person... all i cn do is to blame it on bad luck ... and tt my next life would b beta? haha nah my life is much fortunate den others :) im stil learnin to love my life so pardon me if i ever bugged u bout any nonsence ever again...

ok shit happens but its all over now... im back to normal again... as u noe night cn do sum serious emo-in to peeps... but its bright n early now n im awake due to CRAMPS... haixx... if i were a boy... HAHA i wouldnt pass NS... my fren always sing " if i were a boy... i would hoong all the zhabor in the world~~~" haha hopin to b a big casanova in her next life... dumb dumb... o well i seriously hv nth else to blog le la... at least i cnt rmbr... so every1... stay healthy yea :)

hpe to dance soon cos i bui tahan!!! haha lyk sum drug addict... and oya ZY, i blogged kkaes? and stop bloggin in chinese... i du bu dong :( so unfair... mayb i shud blog in jap sometym to let u taste ur own med? haha... wish to attend ur class soon :)

konbawa... blog filled wif cobwebs le... but tis post would not make much diff... just here to pour my tots on today... ps:those who dun lyk emo stuff... this post arent for you guys... please close tis window immediately...

today's filled with sadness n mixed feelins... it made me realise how much i cn miss some1... some1 i lost round 13 yrs back... some1 so dear to me although he existed less den a quarter of my life...

the feelin is undescribable n the pain is totali unbearable... tinkin back on the days where i would run to him, sa jiao-in my way tru just wantin him to carry me... he would always give in and gently place me on his lap... gently rocked me to slp... rmbred his words of wisdom and humourous gags which nvr fails to make me smile, rmbred when he lay in a place where all was white n pale... rmbred when he was gone... rmbred the day i cried and screamed lyk thr was no tmrw when i saw him lyin in that cold box... rmbred the day when tt box was taken away and place in the ground... rmbred the day when the las scoop of dirt was use to cover tt box which in turn officially marked the end of him in my life...

whoever said tt time would heal all pain is so damn freakin wrong... its been years and the pain is still thr... why must he leave so early? y must he be taken away? why cant he be here to see how im doin? how i wish he is stil around... even if he were to reprimand me for whatever rongs i did... i wouldnt mind... but now, i cn onli tink tt u will always be lookin out for me from the skies yea?

today's its his death anniversary... it made me tink alot... and life just seems so fragile to me... its as though some1 would just snap out of nowhere... death would just be within seconds... im afraid that ppl whom i realli treasure would suddenly vanish... leavin me behind, leavin me wif reali nth... i noe im selfish but im truly afraid as things just seemed so fragile... and the tot of undergoin such pain again reali scares me... i noe the crap bout this being part n parcel of life and wats not but i just cnt accept the fact of it...

i reali din realise... mayb i din wana admit tt i reali missed him... through years the feelins nvr did lessen but in turn grew much stronger... it haunted me since forever and ive been running away from it... today reality reali did slapped me in the face and i wana say that i really missed u... plz look out for me from above... and i'll always be thinkin of u from here...

I LOVE YOU, my dear grandfather... i always do...

konbachiwa~ today has been great!!! stress free just lil demoralised... the past week went by in a blur cos i was super slpy tru out sch... super restless n slpy de... muz stay focus!!! ytd wen to the ICA buildin to make passport cos expire le... super lot of ppl as though there was sales in thr... im not kidding... waited super long n got it done... quite cool neh the new scan ur thumb system... but was tinkin if sum1 were to hurt his or her thumb got scar how? well undeniable tt suay stuff happens... haha... but too suay le la... wouldnt happen... next is bout today...

met Vian at khatib at round 10.45... i was carryin the brooms n as usual ppl stared as though dey hadnt seen a broom b4... cnt stand dem... well i managed to find a glam way in holdin dem la... haha... after tt headed down to lavender to meet the HL CHL, ZY... XD LATE O!!! haha... tapped out of the mrt... but wanted to sit down so tapped in again n wen down to sit at the benches... den thr was tis person hu dresses lyk a mayor... keep starin... damnit i was totally tokin bout how irritatin he was in front of him n loudly... he super de lo... stare at me, stared back stil his eyes din budge... nt onli at me but at Vian too... shou bu liao so went another bench to sit... stupid mayor man... looks more lyk a fat mario lo... hmph... wen ZY arrived, went up n headed to the new PA... well every thing looks v modern... super bu xi guan de... studio is bigger den the last by two dance mat... ambience quite nice cos the room is blck... which made me n Vian v lazy n slpy... built in speakers so no more the speaker on the stand tingy... lightings on the ceiling... cool!!! means a performance cn b held thr neh... jus tt audience cnt accomodate alot... 1 ting tt is bad is no fu ba!!! so nt use to it de la... but overall its fine... duno wats gotten into me n Vian but we super cui de... cnt seem to get the flow... too SYF le la n lyrical became a super big ordeal for me... memory nt workin at all due to waking up earli? haha excuses... sry neh, kinda waste ur time... super cui... but i will nu li de!!! although i was super cui, but i reali enjoyed today... damn, sounds lyk PCA but im stating a fact... zhen de... cos its cool to dance due to passion n under no stress... no major competition, laoshi's qi wang, the duties of a senior and worrying over other ppls stuff... everything can b place aside n just focus in gettin the dance rite... though it wasnt reali rite la... but i reali enjoyed today... had lunch cum dinner wif Vian ZY n XY n headed hme... throughout the meal n the way hme lots were running tru my head... the most prominent 1 is i was recallin the steps... haha... bo bian was reali disappointed in myself today... and nxt was tt i was wonderin wen would the next lesson be? since im takin my O's tis yr... my parents started to restrict my moves... dancing became a tou tou mo mo tingy... so wen i reached hme i talked to my mum bout it... no exact answer from her wich sucked... dun lyk being stuck in the grey area... but i told her since im nt given an answer i shall take it as the answer i desire... dun care neh... well i have my reasons wich i tink are quite reasonable... i agree tt i have to study lyk crazy but every1 needs their form of relaxation to destress... well mine is tru dance n hence i shud learn to balance my hw n studies n fork out at least a day for dance rite? so i wonder wen will b the nxt lesson to continue bleeding love n the other three song... lookin forward to the nxt lesson wen i could dance carefree-ly just lyk today but in better condition... THX the HL, CHL de ZY!!! disappoint u today... I SHALL NOT SCREW AGAIN!!!

posting the lyrics of a song by by2... well nt reali a fan of dem though... my opinion... feel tt dey did improve... tis song is 我知道 another great song is "dont go away" soft n smooth... feel tt i cn totali relate to tis song... peeps hu knew bout it wud understand... brought back good n bad memories... but dey were sweet...

从来没想过
不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你
陪着我心痛

一切都是我太过骄纵
以为你会懂
一直忘了说
我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦
在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

cheesy... but true...

minna konichiwa~ haha cnt even use konbachiwa neh... cos im bloggin at 7.05 in the morning... cnt bliv it? cos i slept too early n wake up too early due to a sudden sneeze... stupid person cursin me rite in the morning... GTH la... HAHA!!! since ive nth to do ive decided to blog bout some recent happy stuff...

1st up... sports day... BLUE HOUSE CHAMPION!!! haha... from tis every1 cn tell tt im from blue house la... but yea im proud to be 1 as i lyk the colour haha... me nvr gong xian de as sports is totally not my forte... y have sports day no dance day de??? sianx... but nevertheless back to sportsday... woke up super early to meet Vian n LS go buy mac n tidbits... LS late -_- but nvm la... haha so me n Vian go buy tidbits 1st lo... after tt Ls cum le jiu go buy mac... lyk hlp alot ppl da bao ... nxt we headed to the stadium... as usual nth interest me at all... i was feelin all warm, sweaty without even running... tis yr blue house had to sit in the 2nd sector whr the scorching sun zhun zhun shone on us... o well maybe due to wat we suffered hence our luck became beta? haha utter nonsense... but anw ron-neh got run o... he quite li hai de neh... xia dao le... but i was more afraid tt he would be injured wen syf is roun the corner... fortunately din lo... xtine n jos oso got run... gave me the same heart attack man... stacia v cute lo... suay suay las min den noe she runnin... super nervous de... oya banner comp... yellow won... was super happy for dem la... haha i noe la... muz b tinkin y i so lyk pan tu rite... tts cos the 2 person in charge of the banner is lyk my gd frens... super bz but so suay tio ic... ke lian ... but dey did a great job n i was so proud tt i ran down to the tracks to congratx dem... i was down at the tracks for quite sum tym cheerin my fellow frens on regardless of house... HAHA oya 4gt to mention tt MR ANG SIANG KA came back as vip... he is the best!!! luv him... shouted ANG ANG CUTE CUTE wen he arrived la... haha... retarded but i missed him lots mah... saw him back at sch later tt day... as cute as ever!!! XD anw to sum up the day... BLUE HOUSE WON in my final year n we had to head back for SYF prac...

nxt, SYF... tt day was over in a blink of an eye... crazy but true... maybe cos no lessons? haha... morning had mac for bfast... my regular... thx tehchio n gang for hlpin me buy mac!!! haha XD next wen laoshi arrived... we practised for quite some tym... in ava n at sportshall... sportshall so many ppl la... but doesnt bother me... it did for sum though dunno y... after all stuff had lunch n started make up n such... n tt gave me tym to tink of stupid stuff lyk tis is my las shot be4 my leg would split into half n such... haha not exactly split into half la... just expression... cnt tink of suitable ones... tots of the las "Sha" "xie xie laoshi,laoshi zai jian" welled tears... but at the same tym tots of our efforts in those months would all pay off durin tt 6 min 21s changed my frown to a smile... so ironic lo... something lyk a love-hate relationship... im such an oxymoronic person... arh wateva... but anw next team n gang joined us... wen we reach ucc every1 start becumin nervous... well i duno its cos of i lao jiao or wat but not nervous at all bout my performance neh... if i were to say nervous de hua would be dan xin bout other ppl's stuff lyk wenqi de ta bu fan shen or wat lo... i shudnt b but yea i did worry for dem... i tot tt i would be nervous wen i stood backstage but nope... din happen... words lyk "last dance, last shot, enjoy, do laoshi proud, prove every1 rong, push my limits"ran tru my mind as i exit n laid on the floor... another ting tt ran tru my mind was wat poh kang had said earlier tt the judges looked lyk ghost... haha... two years back... i had no recollection of wateva happend... so tis tym im bound to mak it a clear memory... n yea wen i laid thr i stared hard at those judges... although affected by nite blindness but hey i cn stil c dem... n yea lyk ghost... den i was lyk tryin to control my laughter... PK... i got tink of u durin my SYF neh... haha... wen the music played the only ting on my mind was focus n enjoy... i did... n exit feelin tt ive did my best n 发挥了应有的实力... wen i walk out... i den realise tt got ppl drop their gun n even got ppl nvr chu chang neh... who i shall not mention but yea hope u learn from ur lesson la... cos if i were to comment i wud say... no matter how much excuses u cum up wif... be it tru or false u are stil 1 aspect of it... rather den blamin on stuff tt "hai" u, y nt tink of y u din tot of ways to overcome it? hence the prob lies in oneself as usual... or maybe i would just comment "i told u so" haha cos its reali the expected... but hope u learn from it la... den wen i saw mdm yeo n next team, dey all say v gd lo... i swear i was on cloud9 but dropped back down to planet earth the moment i saw laoshi's disappointed expression... i guess on the whole we did disappoint him ba... or maybe he had seen a beta us n tot tis wasnt our 应有的实力... took some fotos as usual n head back... b4 headin back called out to laoshi to thank him... he hugged me n said a few stuff... was totali on the verge of tears la... Vian bet tt if i cry i would have to treat her to a meal... i nvr brin enuf money for both lo so i had to control... haha... im a master of tears control!!! thanked connie n mei man laoshi n board the bus... headed back to cchy n the bus ride was full of laughter n nonsense... next team la!!! haha... back at school... mdm yeo gave lil speech n every1 started to noe bout my bet wif vian... actually i din reali say yes to her, was a silent means consent tingy... o well... so wen every1 knew... dey started to try to make me cry... sum were already cryin but wat made dem mean was tt dey call me n cried into my face... sum stil say sum real sad stuff la... den i was lyk 不要跟我讲话la... haha... managed to control... settle stuff n headed to BH for dinner cum lunch...

on thursday... stayed back as the farquars [name of juniors clique, i duno y] prepared sumtin special for us... surprise so i duno wat is it... actuali cn go hme at 1.30 de lo... but aiya gave dem face la... sum annoyin tings happend so shant tok bout it... at the LT the farquars handed out certs to all seniors... mine is the 最yamapi fans award... haha... one of a kind de ...the cert was reali well done just tt spell rong my name le la wenqi!!! haha sum senior de oso spell rong... behind the cert was sum lil testimonials written by dem... was on the verge of tears la but their spelling errors kept my smile going... and oso have a pic of dem... was realli touched by it as i noe dey fang alot xin into it... love it lots n love u guys even more lots!!! as questioned in the testimonials... i wun 4gt u guys de la... even though i got lil senile but nt tt yan zhong can!!! haha after tt mdm yeo came in... knowin the results le... 1st as usual started wif the speech... eyes filled wif tears again... Vian oso lo... tis tym i bet wif her if she cry muz treat me... haha... so she was lyk control... stil copy my method of controllin... so ppl around us muz b wonderin y both of us kip starin at the ceiling... haha... mdm yeo was lyk i noe if i told u guys its a silver.. the seniors wud b sad as thr isnt any improvement... but if i tell u guys is gold... im afraid u guys will grow complacent... so how? stupid lo... made us tink its silver den later say til lyk gold... in the end stil have to wait for ms khaw to cum back from ucc... stil promise to sms me de hor... stupid neh... oya mdm yeo ask if she said its a silver wil we seniors be v upset... omegoong said no... u dun crap la... PCA!!! haha... i immediately said yes lo... well its the fact wat... i realy v zai yi ok... those hu say u bu zai yi lyk omegoong... totaly PCA!!! miss khaw was back and many peeps by then already cryin le... i stil holdin back my tears... den cher was lyk the word v long neh duno how to spell... shayna was lyk " i dun wan the 6 letter de... wan 4 letter de la... easier to spell..." den i was tinkin gold with honours leh? n she countered " long 1 oso can la but i wan the more den 6 letters de hor..." haha she was lyk yi bian ku yi bian jiang la... all seniors were hand in hand anticipatin for the results... cher was lyk "G..." every1 screamed our heads off my tears literally pen chu lai lo... no kiddin... n Vian... haha rmbr my meal hor... we were cryin lyk thrs no tmrw... "O...L....D........W" when i heard tt W i was lyk "wait.......... zen me ke neng" so thr was sudd tis silence... den "I...." n we screamed again... n of cos the cryin was worst den b4... after the "I" i practically cnt hear anitin... too much screamin n cryin... called laoshi to thank him... i guess over at his side he would be lyk aiyo y cry til lyk kill pig lyk tt... haha... n called PK... every1 was so emotional la... Yi xia stil wana take pic wif me.... so ugly neh... received lots of hugs from peeps ...i cried lyk shit neh!!! 1st is touched 2nd is cos we clinged gwh 3rd is tt im worried bout my juniors... maintainin gwh is alot of wrk... n dey are stil young, shit i soun lyk an old lady, but wat i meant is cos we alternate batch... dey would have to deal with alot... n their juniors is totally lyk wen dey 1st came in de lo... cnt rmbr how we ren dem... haha... so i was startin to tink if gettin gwh is a gd ting or a bad ting... hence cried even more... but nevertheless i conclude tt

SYF 2009 INTERNATIONAL DANCE CLINGED A GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!

its the 1st tym cchy got gwh for any cca o... so happy... tis is oso to prove all ppl who tot we are junks n nth but monkeys on stage rong... u assholes beta keep ur mouth shut ... i bet u guys wil all be in shock rite... so stop all ur gossipin... although u guys from branded sch so wat? dosen giv u a rite to tok behind our backs... n wif such gossipin skills... its totally disgraceful... cos u noe what? i heard it from miles away!!! bleh!!! so stop all the pretense nxt tym wen u c me... ASS!!!

would oso wana thank
LIU LAOSHI! ur guidance made us grew stronger n more mature... CCHY ID luv u!!!

MDM YEO! thx for believin in us, givin us support...

MS KHAW! thx for pei-ing us tru many outside de performance... xin ku le :) muz teach me ballet la dun care...

MEI MAN LAOSHI! thx for givin us those lil tips to improve ourselves...

世斌 haha and KEELUI! thx for spendin ur fridays wif us... although sumtyms i noe u guys wil pekcek but haha we did it!!! n thx for the coachin in maths n sci... haha... best of luck in army!!!

NEXT TEAM! thx for bein thr for us to lighten our mood n to give us support... got hear ur cheers o!!! XD

SCHOOLS TT WISHED US THE BEST OF LUCK N MY DEAR FRENS WHO WISH ME THE BEST OF LUCK! i luv u guys... u guys gave me the courage n perserverence...

LAST OF ALL... MY FELLOW DANCE PEEPS!!! thanks every1 for puttin in the effort in tis... our saturday mornings... injuries... litres of sweat n lots of yoko yoko paid off!!! XD

ps: if i missed out any stuff pls tell me... not in a clear mind early morning

as for today... im goin to visit laoshi n next team!!! haha

sry for the long n wordy post... pics wil b uploaded soon... :)

minna~ konbachiwa!!! long since i post cos im just too lazy... haha~ lots been happenin n i cnt reali rmbr... fatigue level: EXTREMELY HIGH!!! maybe cos of SYF n other wu eh bo eh stuff... cosin me to stress out... but nevertheless gambaremasu!!! speakin of SYF... few mins and its 7 more days to the big dae le... somehow nervous... maybe its due to strinkin abilities n health constraint... im gettin lil bit self-conscious but in a bad way... THX VERON for giving me moral support!!! its just so sweet of her to cheer me on... noein tt tis SYF means alot to me... so minna!!! press on!!! we can do it de!!! shall not blog much bout SYF... later nervous dao cnt slp... [just an expression... for those hu noe me well... u guys shud noe tt no matter wat... i stil cn slp lyk a log... haha]]

April fool's tis yr was great... one of the reason is tt i onli got trick twice... wahaha!!! well.. for peeps... twice mayb quite dumb le la... but for me, its a new record okay~~~ for years... april fool's has always been lyk doomsday for me... every1 out thr tryin to get me n stuff... makin me luk stupid... but hey i grew smarter tis yr hor... so stop it!!! tis yr the teachers got punk'd... haha... day started out as plan... 4d,e,f,g were wearin tie... acted lyk it was tie day... not... i was tinkin tt it was a lame idea to get all of us a heat stroke... but hey 1st ting in the mornin n Mrs Goh got fooled... wahaha... cute neh u!!! next... 4f n my clas, 4g switched clas... it got to all teachers... haha... Mdm yeo was in for 1st period... Fooled... 4f chi cher Fooled... Mr Lee Fooled... in the most stupid way... hu ask u dun listen to Mr Tan stil blur blur walk into 4F while there were peeps at opposite blck video tapin it down... haha!!! re- cher Fooled... Ms Lin Fooled... sieh cute... stil blur blur luk at us... need us to ask her find us familiar anot... n y we doin in 4F.... haha... so April Fool's was fun!!!

next shall tok bout wat ive been indulgin myself in... GOKUSEN!!!

haha... its tis jdrama wich has 3 series... im in the midst of 2... reluctant to end it cos its full of hot guys!!! Kamenashi Kazuya is lyk so shuai but skinny... Jin is so hot but fair... haha... n others... dey were all so young back den... n the cher is a great actress... Gokusen 2 is super gd la... although plot repetitive n similar to the 1st but well at least u can feast ur eyes... haha... in Gokusen 1... i guess the story has more space to develop n the actors are real gd... shuai... ok la... mayb not my kind... but i stil lyk dem... lyk Shun n Jun... Honestly im not lukin forward to Gokusen 3... cos no shuai ge... *if Vian were to see tis, i tink she'll scream!!! haha* yea i noe got the koizora guy... but well his image wif white hair nicer la... weird... haha but i shall watch it too la... if not lyk bu san bu si de... Vian oso told me bout Gokusen movie cumin out... not sure all the actors from the 3 series will cum out anot neh... bro told me only 3 de will... if tru i wil b so disappointed... i want Kazu n Jin!!! n Yamapi!!! haha... none of his business though... but if he is in... it wil b the shi shang zui shuai de movie le la... *faints* haha i recommend Gokusen series to peeps hu lyk jap shuai ges n of cos dun mind the repetitive story...

anw... Vian, Proposal Daisakusen RAWKS!!! cos YAMAPI is in it!!! wahaha!!!

~YAMAPI DAISUKI~

Ever seems to u guys tt instant stuff are awesome wen u r hungry yet lazy to fix a meal? Las tym i use to survive on cup noodles... n those microwave pasta tingy... Lately, ive got a xin huan o!!! haha... MICROWAVE POPCORNS!!! they are awesome!!! butter flavoured popcorns in just minutes o! now i soun lyk the advertisement... but reali is superr gd de... cos v big packet... can fill two popcorn bowls ba... n ur room will smell lyk the cinemas... haha... its just great n i can survive on those o!!! AWESOME!!! thumbs up!!!

*i noe u r shakin ur head now n sayin UNHEALTHY! o well nvr was healthy anw... u noe im referrin to u de!!! dun try self deceivin not gonna wrk!* haha :p

next up after a long n wordy post... its tym for pictures... though is lyk zi lian... but dun care :p

cut my hair not long ago... so zi lian-ed... hopin to catch the diff on camera but cnt neh!!

Cam-whored at dance~~~ 3 sisters wif 3 diff hairstyles...

V & V

Wif evil-twin n Peizhi

minna~ buhbye n nitex nitex :)

XOXO

minna san~ genki? im bak peeps! haha... my blog is full of spiderwebs le la... everytym i feel lyk bloggin, i duno whr to start... and seein the las post jz maks it worst... but... here to say tt im fine... and to reply tags... been long... gomen...

advantage of the ordeal, i learnt tt i luv myself!!! haha proud of myself... and i grew stronger... though stuff lyk tis will stil happen n i'll stil break down... but i guess the period of tym will jz get shorter and shorter... hey... im human afterall yea?

disadvantages, i guess the wall between the inner me n peeps' gettin thicker... trust seems even further then before...
lonelier den ever... cos of the sudden break free from every1... on the bright side its counted as independence ba ... havin not to rely on ani1... cos i wud nvr noe when a helpin hand wud slip away and let me fall... rather den self-deceivin on bleak n false hopes... i wud rather stand alone, fall alone... n get back up... tis way no1 cn gain credit too :)

all's well now... so no worries yea? back to my normal bloggin... :)

hows every1s white day? in case ani1 dosen noe bout white day... i've got wiki's def... haha...

In Japan, Valentine's Day is observed by females who present chocolate gifts (either store-bought or handmade), usually to a male, as an expression of love. The handmade chocolate is usually preferred by the receiver, because it is a sign that the receiving male is the girl's "only one". On White Day, the converse happens: males who received a "honmei-choco" [chocolate of love] or "giri-choco" [courtesy chocolate] on Valentine's Day are expected to return the favor by giving gifts, usually more expensive.

so did you gals got ur expected gifts in return? if u did... gratx!!! haha... i'll be hangin round u gals more often hopin tt the "love" aura wud somehow diffuse into me... haha jk... as for me... did receive sum gifts but unexpected though... mostly outa frenship la... ARIGATOU!!! but in no mood for white day on sat lo... cos thrs dance n laoshi flared up la... well its ying gai de as me myself was seein red... i shant elaborate la... ruin my mood... be thankful tt u guys have crossed my mind kkaes? after dance.. went bugis wif Vian, Teh Chin n Ron... have to brin Teh CHIO go liang fu zhuang at golden landmark... goin wif this two jokers is simply entertainin... dey are lyk naturals la... just the conversation between dem can crack me up... after tt bot my BPP n went hme... my white day just pass lyk tt... -_- pathetic... i noe... well at least ive got gifts... haha...

today had dance again... well same same ba... scoldins... but haha u all deserve it... bleh!!! :p mean? too bad... make it diffi for us hu gave it so much... GTH man!!! and blur me knock my thumb wif the gun super hard la... stupid neh... str8 away orh cheh... the funny part is the guys tryin to teach me the dance dey learn durin the SW workshop... i gues its kinda cool... but dun c it in dem... wahaha... Teh CHIO... if u c tis... dun kill me... haha... hu ask u tink i shen tong... teach so fast... haha... And bin dyin to dance anyhow art... bin pesterrin Vivian bout it... Mr Quek!!! c we shi shi ke ke dian ji zhe ni o!!! haha... so yeap DANCED!!! nvr cui!!! but i knock dao my pi gu... haha... anw ive decided tt if my healths fine... i'll join SW... cos the dancer in me will nvr die de... o well... type alot le... lil sianx... so yea...

just wana say...

arigatou~ zutto soba ni ite kurete~ [applies to all tt luv me o!!! luv ya... muackx!!! XD]

gomen, no pics~ lazy :p

i tot my heart was strong...
tot it was made of steel...
nth can make it bleed any more...
until my nitemare played rite b4 my eyes... again...

neither deprive of love... nor deprive of care...
tot i could forgo the one n onli ting i once treasure so dear...
but i finally noe...
i cant...

tot tings were turning for the better...
tot tings weren't turnin bak to wat it used to...
but the tables turned on me again...
my heart's aching, my head's in a mess...

pondering on wat made me broke my promise...
a promise to myself...
never to let anitin...
cause my heart so much misery...

through years...
i've lived up to it...
but stil its my weak point...
no matter how hard i try not to admit... it still is...

made me hard to trust myself and every1 else...
gues its a form of protection...
form of illusion
to make it seem lyk nth could make me break...

but still im lyk the old me...
cryin alone in the dark for the same damn ting...
at the same time punching the wall...
hating me for chnging back to the weakling i used to be...

eyes sore...
body weak...
heart aching...
head swirling...

no improvement no nothing...
tot i was made of steel...
tot i could live without it... without feelin afraid...
but im stil me and it was all jz naive tots...



no comments allowed... thx...

minna san~ im stil not bloggin wif pics... haha too lazy... shall do it on weekends... today wen UCC o... syf rehearsals... and memories of the 1st yr came bak... haha... woke up super early de... hai dao me aftr syf goong goong... all went well... jz tt the bus ride was horrible... stupid bus driver wif no skills... and worst stil, traffic jam!!! so the trip was excruciatin... on the verge of pukin... wen i got down i totally felt sick... so was lyk leanin against the pillar... those hu toked to me say i sounded v sexy? lolx... say tt onli i sick tt tym wil appear v sexy... -_- bus ride home was fine... haha... reach sch... lunched... slack at ava... tied scorpions... haha while waitin for 12.20 to go bak to clas... i luk super xiao mei mei la... and luk lyk frm nanhua de... haha... was hesitatin whether to go bak to clas anot cos v paiseh... o well... since tie le jiu go bak lo... yea kip bein said lyk xiao mei mei... greatest comment is cute... but it meant ugly but adorable? haha and sum guys were amazed at how i tie it? lolx... super lame la u guys... aftr sch wen to Vian's clas... chat wif peeps den head hme... n gues wat... so long le... i stil got the motion sickness feelin neh... o well... N!!! i feel lyk doin alot of tings... 1st... PIZZA... Phyllan, is go pizza hut eat not eat pizza hut... i clear liao... haha... 2nd: kbox!!! Cloe n peeps ask me go la... but sry neh... not feelin well... 3rd: movie!!! but duno gt wat nice films now lo... if got i shall go wif Hsinlu... sun bian go shoppin!!! haha... 4th: i wana eat beard papa la!!! haha tts lyk always de lo... y cnt bpp jz open a small lil stall below my block? or rite at my door step? haha... so many cravins... so lil tym n energy... kip feelin cui... Fatigue Level HIGH!!! n upcoming thurs fri sat all got dance -_-... so i guess if wana go out only cn fri nite... if im stil alive... n sat aftrnn til nite if im stil alive... haha...

CCHYID jiayou o!!! since we've put in so much effort... we should continue to strive... to achieve our ultimate goal!!! no matter wat the outcome... i hope tt every1 wudnt be filled wif regret aftr syf... be happi tt we did our best n we learnt alot from it...lastly i wil jiayou too o :)

ps: D, im doin well :)

minna san~ nvr been bloggin properly as nth interestin happen... n i was feelin super horrible truout the days... anw shall blog b4 i go orh orh again... shall introduce a song to those hu duno it yet... its IF I WERE A BOY by Beyonce feat R. Kelly... the original is only by Beyonce... its bout a heartbreakin story... duh!!! n she was lyk sayin if she was a boy she would do tis and tt for her girl... in the R. Kelly remix its placed in a way tt he is answerin to her sayin tt its cos shes not a boy... simple lyrics but so tru... but i guess it should be " i use to be a girl, now am a boy" haha... cos if she werent a girl b4 how wud she noe all the pains tt a guy put her tru? so if she was jz born as a guy... she wud surely jz make mistakes lyk others... tis brings us to another topic... nobody's perfect...
ppl tend to tink tt others are perfect... but tink twice... arent u jz breachin high hopes of tt person? mayb tt person in ur mind is jz a "gao gu" ver. of him or her? hard to explain la... hence wen discovered tt the person aint so perfect as expected... conflicts start to spark... omg now im speakin lyk sum Aunt Agony... shoot! jz my 2 cents worth o... shall stop here den...
the song reali v simple n nice... go hear it for urself... :) XOXO zzzZZZZ

konbachiwa~ haha using yamapi's greeting... anw... shall blog a lil b4 i go orh orh... haha pig, i noe... n y slp so early on a Fri nite rite? cos im stil unwell... n worst... having cramps -_- XueYing Jie u pass it to me le la!!! haha...

anw... today was crazeee... aftr sch wen lukin for Vian... sry neh... song yong you pon eng remedial... now got u into hot soup... GOMEN... aftr tt we wen str8 to ava slack... cnt reali slack cos got ppl kip cumin in... i reali feel lyk lockin the door lo!!! den let dem cum in at 3... haha but i din... so dance started wif warm ups n i took the attendence... duno hu mark attendence de lo... mark til so untidy... i have to rerite... super untidy de... c oso blur...

next laoshi came n dance resume... intend to sit at the side to rest de... but later i started marking positions... n i started to full up... natural tingy... cant control... all was ok til the v end wen i started coughin lyk MAD!!! the air wen thin again n i broke out in cold sweat... so stepped out of ava for awhile... since isnt my turn yet... sry once again for those hu saw me n chua tio... lyk wat was i doin squattin outside ava covered wif uniform la... sure luk super cui... arh!!! but anw in the end all was well... managed to full up o!!! no doubt aftr tt cough lyk mad la... but stil hv to jiao dai stuff... let every1 hear my "sexy" voice... lolx... Christine was lyk... "Vanessa,,, drink more water neh... ur voice..." lolx... thx neh... although im not a fan of drinkin water but i will... in order to recover quick quick... :) n yea my voice became "sexier" due to all the raising my voice lo...

Lastly, i would once again wana apologise to laoshi, n all my dance members... sry neh... cos of me, have to make las min huge changes... made me kinda emo la... seein laoshi crackin his brain tryin to fill up my space... tellin me tt its fine... forcing every1 to adapt to their new arrangement... im reali sry... HONTO NI GOMENASAI... but at least got rid of a big weight off my shoulders... hence i feel beta... as in emotionally... physically... haha... i gues it has gotten worst... but nvm... i'll recover de!!!

ps: no pics for the day... Vian, i wud not post all our zi lian pics... i luk SUPER DUPER CUI!!! jian bu de ren :(

feelin kinda lost rite now... wudnt say y or how... but jz wana say...
SORRY laoshi... although u said its ok... nvm... i gues it stil matters alot to me ba...
SORRY to my frens... i noe u guys are v concern... thx... sry to worry u guys...
SORRY to my fellow dance mates... i duno wat laoshi's gonna do tmrw... we'll see... but i'll jz apologise in advance...
as for others hu chua tio today... im sorry...
and Poh Kang... sry neh... din do wat u ask me to... at least i did but nth came out la... sry... and thx for ur concern... although its dumb to put ur big face behind me... haha...

all in all... gomen...

I FEEL TERRIBLE!!! lolx... i dun even bother wif greetings animore... anw... today went past in an excruciation way... cos im stil sick!!! and it has gotten worst ba... been rejectin calls all day cos i lost my voice... those of wich i answered... feel honoured cos u heard my sexy voice... haha jk... n y am i bloggin? cos im here to giv Sam a clue... haha... been havin tis relapse tingy... n i dun have med!!! retarded doctor ytd says i dun nid it worx!!! god damnit!!! now i nid it man!!! u have no rite to b a doc!!! tink u doc liao bu qi can kiao ka izit!!! GTH la... u are causin patients their life!!! if i were to die i wil HAUNT YOU!!! haha choy i wun man... i wun go b4 u!!! hmph!!!


anw the relapse gave me a "memory relapse" too... it brot me bak to days whr i was reali sickly due to it... i had to pull tru slpless nites... n my mum had to pei me watch tv... haha... cos i couldnt fall aslp due to it n was lyk complainin... so my mum wud accompany me in the livin rm... hopin the television could distract me... causin me to feel beta... n she wud fall aslp on the couch... haha xin ku ni le o... las tym i oso v evil... i knew tt my mum was aslp... but mayb cos i hate the feelin of being alone den ba... so i wud shi bu shi call out "mummy u still awake anot"... haha... she wud den wake up n say shes awake... so cute lo... but of cos i knew she was slpin... but somehow tt made me feel beta... evil but tru...



but as i grew older... i no longer lyk to tell peeps bout it... thr were even nitex whr i wud have to "suffer in silence"... haha souns wierd... but i wud hv to avoid wrds to prevent sum1 from guessin... haha... bak to story... i wud rather stay up myself n try to control it rather than waking my mum... causin a hassle... and i am not afraid of bein alone le... yay! haha... but i became a liar... a liar whom wud lie tt im fine bout it... tt its a small ting... but at least it made me stronger... as in physically... i've improved... realy... n tis illness wud not come "visit" me tt often le... i tink its lyk a psychological tingy ba.... lyk if u tink u can u can tt type... its not tru but it hlps...



oya i rmbr thr was once whr i had to bring tis machine home from the docs... i had to sit by it... receive the treatment everyday ba... cnt reali rmbr... dun wan to either... n i dun have cancer!!! whoever tinkin bout it now... go bang the wall la... haha... but anw tt tym... it was excruciatin too... it made me feel that i was such a weaklin... IM NOT OKAY!!!



so now for the majoy clue... i'll describe the process of havin the relapse...

it feels lyk the air froze...

all was quiet and only heavy breathing can be heard...

it feels lyk as though im being strangled...

cut off from air supply...

but no matter how hard i struggle... or plead...

the monster jz wun let go...

all i can do was to endure...

waitin for it to vanish into thin air...

but stil... the wait was excruciatin...

especially wen i had to endure it alone...

as i grew older... i learnt tt it wasnt so scary aftr all...

all i had to do was to be in control of myself...

be it by distractin or calmin myself down... stil... its a way...

gradually the duration between visits turn shorter...

and i became complacent...

throwing away "weapons" tt i used to use against it...

hate the feelin of grabbin on to the "weapons" so tightly...

wif trembling hands...

it makes me feel lyk im sum sort of drug addict...

desperate for it...

Unfortunately, it stil came back...

thus i gave up all tots of strugglin...

jz waitin for it to go away...

not leavin ani evidence behind...

im positive its cumin bak for me later...

once again i wud hv to endure the excrutiatin process alone...

*this aint a poem... y wud i rite such a bad poem... tis aint a story either... i can do better... tis is jz phrases of tots runnin tru my head den...

o well... so much for the emo entry... Sam, its super obvious la... n rmbr ur promise!!! :)

and those hu noe bout it... keep mum kkaes? dun discuss it ovr the tagboard... onegai... arigatou...


DAMN THAT STUPID MONSTER!!! HAHA

minna san~ konbawa~ okay its not reali evening... i noe... but its the closest mah... haha... anw i gues i wun b goin to sch tmrw... i dun wana risk my grades... so to my darlings... LeeSun, Vivian and Peixuan... honto ni gomen ne... honto gomen... i noe u guys wil understand de la, rite? hehe... as for HL... haha shall not disclose hu is he... i noe u'll miss me de la... haha but sry... jkjk... i tink if he sees tis he wil kill me... o well... now movin on to my main post...

Yupx tts rite, i aint kiddin... Final Fantasy Advent Children... i noe its a boi boi stuff la... but hey! dun discriminate the girls!!! haha jk... anw ytd while i was slpin... my bro came into my room n ask me to watch a clip in his psp... Its a FF clip... sum short clip tingy in the mid of the game or watsoeva... quite cool neh... Fyi: Sephiroth was stil a gd person den... yea fightin duno hu la... i tink the bad 1 more shuai... haha... ever appear to u tt bad guys are always more shuai? y arh? ok mayb not always... cos Yamapi isnt bad... but often... anw aftr he showed me the clip... he played the FFAC movie for me... it was superb!!! storyline is simple la... but im more of a lookin-out-for-their-graphic-technology person... it was v well done... jz the hair alone makes my jaw drop... its so real!!! there were many scenes whr i had to remind myself tt tis is all fake... not real... Lyk wat my bro said, what makes it perfect is its imperfections... chim eh? tot bout it n i seriously agree wif him... cos nth is ever perfect... if sometin is drawn to perfect... den its fake... cos it wud nvr hapen in real life... thr were also alot of scenes which cant be filmed in real life... jz impossible... so while watchin... i kept tinkin how many brain cells of the crew died from makin tis movie... jz a snapshot... and u wud c how many calculations or shud i say tots are bein put into it to make it real and at the same time realistic... do i make sense? haha as in... it wudnt luk fake... lyk we wudnt tink 'how can lyk tt de... so fake... siao arh' and lets say if we slowdown the fightin scenes... everytin wud make sense... no fake blurry stuff jz becos its fast... fuuly wel-choreographed tis shows how much effort is being put into it... hence i highly recommend peeps to watch it... u'll be amazed...

the main character... Cloud... super shuai wif nice hair... haha... super qiang, beat Sephiroth o!!! and he is good de!!! haha



the girl lead... Tifa... chio!!! but bro say got more chio de... wth!!! i tink if she were to b a real person... all the other girls can go bang their heads against the wall le la... and i wud b lyk " eyes so big for wat la... shen cai so gd for wat la... hmph!" haha~ cant eat grape say grape sour...

anw aftr the movie... the only word tt came to my mind was CRAZY... haha cos alot has been put into the movie... hard to explain... watch it!!! n i feel that Kadaj is kinda ke lian la... he jz wans his mother mah... so strictly speakin he is lyk a child hu wans his mum... its only tt his mum is an alien la... so ke lian... but all in all... it was GREAT!!!

FF13 is coming out o... two on ps3 n 1 on psp... i prefer the single male lead ps3 ver de [in the pic above]... FF versus 13... SHUAI mah... haha... the other 1 got girl de... not interested... haha... o well... shall move on... kip sayin FF oso quite boring... anw if anitin stated is wrong... plz correct me... im not a big fan of theirs... hence wadeva i've said is based on pure opinions n on wat my bro told me...

next is tt i wana ask every1 to drink more water!!! muz stay healthy o... given the bad weather, every1 is fallin sick... my dear Wenqi, KaiLin, Irene... n even JK is sick... plz stay healthy... oya rite... JK caught the same flu as me... wif all the same symptoms n we both caught it on the same day!!! wth... jz tt me more yan zhong la... its freaky... so plz... every1... take good care and stay healthy!!!

finally i wud lyk to end off wif a pic of Yamapi... link to the topic de o... and Sam... im not droolin... haha... bro said in FF duno wich character got 1 black wing or wat de la... so...

TADAH!!! haha... Yamapi daisuki!!!

anw i luv my blog song... not song la... saxophone piece... haha :) XOXO

minna san~ im feelin terrible!!! stupid flu reali got me tis tym... sneezin n coughin lyk mad... n my head hurts bcos of all the studyin? haha blamin the bks... o well... i jz duno whether to go to sch tmrw or not... tmrw got chem n amaths... officialy the las day... but since i skip sch today... it seems lyk i stil have another chi paper to go... n if i skip sch tmrw... i wil have 3 paper on thurs? thurs got DANCE!!! fri oso got DANCE!!! how?!?

fyi: i've got 2 days mc... so its not tt i wana pon or wateva shit kkaes? pardon me... im jz bein grumpy due to all the discomfort...

ani comments on wat i shud do... msg me :)

ps: whoever tt is missin me every sec from Saturday til now... u beta stop it kkaes!!! i've had enuf wif all the endless sneezin... damnit...

*hu yan luan yu le la!!!* :(

minna san~ genki desu ka? haha jap openin... wierd to c me bloggin at round 1.30 in the aftrnn? yea... im down wif the flu virus n thus... came hme to rest aftr my exams... i was lyk hin tru out the tests la... shall not tok bout it... since i dun tink i did well... :(

O well... jz bein random... wanted to make a short entry b4 i go zzZZZ... anw wen i was at the GO... wenqi n kailin were also at the sick bay neh... both of dem down wif fever i gues... so ke lian lo... plz get well soon kkaes? haha wierd askin ppl to get well n me bein sick as well...

anw shall go orh orh le... slpy~

hope i cn dream of dear yamapi... haha...
*yamapi daisuki, zutto isshoni itai neh*
*dreamin*

hey peeps!!! the last post was lyk so popular... haha... hope i hlp u gain a lil popularity o... how bout a nice lil thank u? haha anw... i shall post about gd stuff 1st... DUH!!!

ytd... i wu duan duan hv to go up stage durin assembly to get award... lolx... so random lo... and its a random award... CIP... practically i got 133 hrs in 2008 and tt second-topped the school... 1st was Phyllan... *clapx clapx* and other 6 were dancers o... haha Vian oso got... but 2hrs less den me onli... so we had to go up 5min earlier to so called "zhun bei"... duno y muz go up 5 min earlier lo... stil have to wait outside the hall for super long de... anw... found out tt Phyllan got stage fright!!! haha hontoni kawaii nehh!!! quite wierd lo... ming ming in zingo... and always at the front de... stil got stage fright... thus i tink tt the wait was lyk excruciatin for him ba... haha oya... he stil zi bi at a corner lo and he scared he wil bua to... super cute de la... din noe he wil lyk tt... not v shou wif him though... if u c tis... haha dun scold me o... i compliment u neh... haha!!! anw wen up the stage... luckily it was mr yong... cos yea i wasnt v neat la... anw got 3 tings to take lo... the cert... plague n the new edition cchy bear!!! Its darn FREAKIN CUTE!!! came down stage n clement was lyk "hello" haha wierd guy... den wen out of hall n Phyllan was lyk outside... stil nervous... haha...
anw we shall compare the cchy bears!!!

This is the LKK cchy bear which is already extinct... yellow and blue... i gues the person hu "designed" it dun have any artistic sense... dun u noe that yellow and blue are contrasting colours? look wierd...

This is the new CCHY BEAR!!! its FREAKIN CUTE!!! its wearin lyk PE tee la... and thrs my cert n plague... not exactly mine la, the plague is Vian's... mine is lyk so poorly done la... rejected it and gave it back to cher... will take it from her in the nxt term... and ting shuo we'll be gettin tis cchy bear for graduation o... i wil have 2 le!!! yay!!! :)

Next is my study plans for the year... After the talk wif my bro... im somehow motivated to work hard... although i noe i muz 1st make studies an interesting tingy for me... so heres the plan... everyday aftr sch:

3-7 STUDY!!!

7-8DINNER...

8-10 STUDY!!!

10 zzZZZ....

yea insane... totali... especially slpin at 10... how am i suppose to do tt... im not reali sure whether i cn stick to the plan cos well its jz not me... but sumhow i feel tt i shud try stickin to it... and persevere til the end of O's... determined to... i hope...

but for now... TGIF!!! and im stil up at 1.46... jz hung up the fone wif Vian... ok la not friday le... its sat morning... chat bout the usual lo... jz reali amazed by how corrupted the person is... corrupted person wif corrupted life, knows it and stil wana live her corrupted way... unbelievable... i believe she needs hlp... seriously... shall not elaborate... tok to much wif Vian bout her... now kinda sianxx... Vian, mayb i shud really rite a poem bout the puke tingy... haha!!! anw yea.. im turnin bak to evil ways... and gues wat... many tots were runnin tru my brains on how shud i trash her... its jz too simple... way simple... 1 move and *pooof* u're gone... but i refuse to do tt... y? cos i do not wish to place myself to the same level as u... its lyk downgradin myself ... totally not worth it... so i shall not... *ahem* still got the little angel in me de kkaes? haha... but piece of advice... if u r smart... u shud learn to stay away... from me n most importantly my frens... if not...

o well tis isnt emo or wadeva kkaes... its artistic... and it portrays my feelins perfectly... mayb not tt bloody la... cos i scared of blood mah... haha :)

nxt... i gain myself an evil twin on 20.02.09 at 7.36pm... WenQi~ haha did sometin notti today hor... haha... anw jiayou neh... hope u n the other superkids will reali work hard to prove priya rong o!!! luv u!!!

shall end of wif a simple picture made by her... XOXO

yo peeps... my bday is over n im officially 16!!! yay!!! today has been kinda normal la... sch as usual... celebrated... aftr sch... met JK at the mrt... he passed to me a wonderful gift... lyk it damn lot lo!!! shall tok bout it lets say tmrw? mayb la... no promises... he is jz great la!!! bad at tyms though... haha... den stayed at the mrt to chat... n wenqi came along... so continue chattin til 6 plus den wen hme... the present JK gave me is super heavy la... and every1 was lyk starin at me... paiseh... so smsed JK... haha den he told me tt he oso got couple of stares frm peeps... haha!!! thx la... u the best... my "Darling" mah... haha... aftr tt life continue as usual...


anw wenqi told me bout sumtin today... we both hate the same person... not say hate la... err... dislyk wud b the beta word... havin quit the b*tchin industry for quite sum tym... im now bak in business again... wth... n i tot i cud save ppl frm it... in the end kana drag in -_- naive... o well... shes makin my life more fun anw... but havin to deal wif her is less den a piece of cake... anw if u tink im a b*tch den thx for ur compliment o... cos i dun regard u as 1... u r jz not up to it... :) stil gonna tolerate ur nonsence for the sake of others... but once everyting is settled... n u stil wana mess wif me... im gona brin u down... since playing wif u is jz gona boost my ego... i dun mind :) jealous bout the fact tt i have more abilities den u? haha u SHUD~ cos u r jz no whr near me... i duno about u n ur future but i cn say tt my future is gonna b freakin bright wif or without u... b*tch? tink u cn b*tch de guo wo mah? tink twice la... oops 4gt tt u don't hv the abilities to... o well~


HAPPY BDAY JK!!! haha


ps: u r a Xtian... jz b saint wud u?

pps: only u cn blog n complain meh? i oso got blog wat... n you noe wat, its PUBLIC!!!

ppps: well piece of advice la k? dun say i mean... if u kip tinkin tt ur life is sh*t... den it really is... n hu caused it? U... surprise!!! wake up n grow up!!!

pppps: try makin a dent in my life... i urge u to o... and in return of tt favour... i'll turn urs into a black hole... SAYONARA!!!

ppppps: honoured tt i dedicated a post for u on my bday mah? got hlp u boost ur popularity not? thank me :P

mean? b*tch? o well... dun care... evil kia back in business!!! :P

Yo peeps! Im blogging at 12 plus using my fone... Its crazy... Jz wana thank those who stayed up til 12 to wish me happy birthday... I luv you guys!!! Really touched... Though my fone was lyk lagging due to the multiple sms... But Wateva!!! Haha... Jz wana thank all of you who wished me in advance, on the dot through sms, msn, or Facebook... And Oya! Ps: Des wud be the 1st 1 hu wish me happy birthday for year 2010... Haha... Cos jz now wasnt the 1st although on the dot... So he wished me in advance for next yr in order to be 1st... HAHA:) thank you for always rmbring my birthday:) luv you and you noe tat:) *off to lala land*

My new blog is done!!! at least i tink la... haha... been years since i realy play wif blogger... as in public blog... use to be a pro... do blogskin... add duno wat application blah blah... now bcum noob le la... :'( so sad lo... but nevertheless... ITS DONE!!! happy~

real bloggin starts.............................. NOW!

thurs... school was borin... as usual... onli tink wich i lukd forward to was dance... b4 dance... wen nrthpt to get stuff wif ls... vday stuff... rush bak to sch n joined dance... dance was alrite... laoshi did alot of scoldin... kinda worried for him lo... dun wan him to scold so much... the day ended wen i was bakin cookies til late at nite... turned out ok la... though some chao da as i fell aslp...

fri... total defence whole day neh... tot wud borin but i was rong... IPP was fun... i almost had to sat out of it due to mdm yeo sayin i have ***** scared i faint... Health constraints... as usual... but tot her i wud not n will b fine... so i participated!!! aftr we sealed the class... we had a mini concert by Ko Hsiang Brandon n Firman... not bad neh... din noe Ko Hsiang n Firman could sing... n wat i cn say is tt zi tan zi chang nt easy lo... not bad... *clap claps* told Ko Hsiang to participate in cher day... cos las yr le mah... muz do sumtings memorable... aftr IPP we had a short bombing session frm clas to clas... den headed to hall... rest of the day was crap... received lots of vday gifts... happy~ aftr sch had lunch n stupid jk n gang was lyk dedicatin msges to me... nt gd de lo... i shall nt say wad dey dedicated... irritatin!!! den it was the excruciatin SS lecture... aftr tt... had DANCE!!! meiman laoshi n two other LAOshis came... haha >.<>

IPP, sealin the windows!!!


stil sealing...

more sealing!!! haha >.<>

ytd was Vday... quite fruitful... went out wif Vivian n Sam... Stupid restaurant reali no shuai ge la!!! Vian was lyk complainin lo... haha so cute... And thx for the sunflower o!!! although Vian was freakin out... haha... all in all... enjoyed my day...